Venting I dont think ill ever find love

[SenelXamano]

My best friends are now dating. Thing is I liked him. I know I'd never have been with him because he's straight but still I can't help but feel like shit. I'm scared. My other best friend got a girlfriend and now he's fucking awful and never talks to us. I'm scared they're gonna do that to me. They're my only reason I fucking wake up. I wish I wasn't a guy, maybe then he mightve liked me. I fucking hate this. I'd withdraw myself but they're the only people I talk to. Everything he does affects me so heavily I'm not sure why. And I wish I could say they won't last long but I know that's not true they're gonna be good together. I wish this never happened. I feel like such a fucking creep for liking him while he's straight and now with my fucking other friend. I think ill never find someone. I'm going to fucking kill myself and die alone with no one who's ever liked me. Im fucking hate living knowing no ones ever going to love me. So many times I've almost given in to people trying to use me and I just might let them. I'm so gucking Lonley all the time I want a connection I want someone I want to feel loved and wanted and cared for. I never stop thinking about him. I'm not even sure if I like him like that and am just worried he's going to slowly stop talking to me like my other friend did. Slowly stop having time for me. For us. I guess it makes it a bit better that all of us don't live anywhere near eachother but fuck. I don't know why this hurts I should be happy about it and fuckignbh making jokes n shit. I don't want to be left behind again. I'm such a fucking weirdo.

 

[FoxSauce]

Ik sorry ypu feel this. My heart aches for you deeply.

I wish i had some great advice to give but I have none maybe another member has wiser words than I can muster but heres a hugs

 

[LifeIsASadist]

I don't think, I already know I won't find love so I may personally just CTB at this point

 

[The Morningstar]

 

[SenelXamano]

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[The Morningstar]

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I saved this in a tab because I wanted to give you love advice, but the truth is, I don't know. I feel for you, and I can tell you things NOT to do, but... in your current situation, if I were to try and help you get over them or even win them over, I would be a damned hypocrite. I've been "the other guy," and even after how disgusting it made me feel, I was later in situations where I wished I meant enough to them to be this new person's "other guy"—how pathetic is that? So maybe that's some advice: don't do that shit. Don't be the other guy, and don't wish you were.

But, as for getting over them? Fuck, man, time. I got nothing else that works for certain. Listen to breakup songs, eat some unhealthy shit (LOTS of garlic bread), then exercise it off after you realize you let it build up for too long... and meet new people. Eventually, someday, you'll just...see someone. And you might not make it anywhere with them, but you'll know that you're finally over the other person.

Good luck, man.

 

[EternalHunger]

Nothing you thought was weird, you had a crush on someone close and it didn't work out. Don't feel like a creep for something as innocent as that, your emotions are far more valuable than how you are making it out to be.
I genuinely hope the best for you, if it helps just try to muster out any amount of pain possible through crying or other means to ease how you feel and just because your other best friend changed doesn't mean he will either; even if he does then screw him, you deserve FAR better friends than that and certainly not your feelings getting trampled in that way.