There is no reason or meaning to live

[Crematoryy]

I am decrepit in my mind. I observe an intolerable reality: I am alone while others get married, I am alone while others are sexually validated, I am alone while others are being sucked off.

No messages on my phone; no notifications asking if I'm okay; no glances meet mine; no hand holds me. I live as if I don't exist, I live as if I were never important, as if I were nobody.

Resist the loneliness of my path or surrender. Do you know how difficult this is for me?

 

[U. A.]

I hate not having a loving life partner almost as much as I hate not getting text messages about getting blowjobs.

 

[cakedog]

i have never experienced any of the things you mentioned but i still think life is worth living (under ideal or at least tolerable circumstances)
but i agree with you that loneliness it's a tough void to fill