Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
- 936
I'm so depressed that I'm even starting to loose my fake smile.
The smile you give when everything is ok but deep down it's not.
The one meant to comfort others and protect yourself from judgement.
I liked my job until they changed my location. Now I'm sad every day.
It's in the ghetto. Every day I have to be inside this dark cloud of poverty.
All these broken sad goverment dependant people make me sick.
The sad part is I am one of them. I'm just like them.
I hate being reminded. In my old location it was middle class.
Here. Everyone is poor sad angry and just depressing.
When you're in this place... watching these people... It's clear.
We all need to die. Don't deserve life. Everyone should just die.
Makes me wish covid took more or us than it did.
Is it wrong to wish a real plague would strike? Idk.. I'm just tired.
I think about quiting every day. But I know I can't.
There is nothing for me out there. And I won't make as much as I do now
(not that it's alot) starting fresh in a new place.
I remember looking at old people in my work place making minimum wage and thinking wow they really must have fucked there lives up. Maybe they had a good Job once and tried to start a new and just never recovered.
I dont want that life especially if i have to keep living.
So for now... I'll just keep my head down. Continue to suffer in silence.
And hope I can find the littlest form of happiness I had before I was sent here.
The smile you give when everything is ok but deep down it's not.
The one meant to comfort others and protect yourself from judgement.
I liked my job until they changed my location. Now I'm sad every day.
It's in the ghetto. Every day I have to be inside this dark cloud of poverty.
All these broken sad goverment dependant people make me sick.
The sad part is I am one of them. I'm just like them.
I hate being reminded. In my old location it was middle class.
Here. Everyone is poor sad angry and just depressing.
When you're in this place... watching these people... It's clear.
We all need to die. Don't deserve life. Everyone should just die.
Makes me wish covid took more or us than it did.
Is it wrong to wish a real plague would strike? Idk.. I'm just tired.
I think about quiting every day. But I know I can't.
There is nothing for me out there. And I won't make as much as I do now
(not that it's alot) starting fresh in a new place.
I remember looking at old people in my work place making minimum wage and thinking wow they really must have fucked there lives up. Maybe they had a good Job once and tried to start a new and just never recovered.
I dont want that life especially if i have to keep living.
So for now... I'll just keep my head down. Continue to suffer in silence.
And hope I can find the littlest form of happiness I had before I was sent here.
