Therapy sessions nearly done

[cazza82]

Had a 2 and a half hour session today I have 3 more sessions left then they are no more anyone else thought or felt rushed in maybe trying to get better today felt weird I kinda felt like she maybe was annoyed or frustrated with me because I can't get rid of certain guilt I feel and every other reason why I'm there how can they not get that you just can't stop feeling worthless useless and un important when that's all you've been told your whole life i don't know if it's just me and I'm being to sensitive but it just makes you feel worse I feel like I'm wasting her time

 

[slinkey10]

Had a 2 and a half hour session today I have 3 more sessions left then they are no more anyone else thought or felt rushed in maybe trying to get better today felt weird I kinda felt like she maybe was annoyed or frustrated with me because I can't get rid of certain guilt I feel and every other reason why I'm there how can they not get that you just can't stop feeling worthless useless and un important when that's all you've been told your whole life i don't know if it's just me and I'm being to sensitive but it just makes you feel worse I feel like I'm wasting her time

wow - 2 and a half hour session!! I do 1 hour face to face mostly (or phone call) once a week & thats draining but helpfull. But atm have been blessed with someone decent - had crappy therapists before. I dont know your cirmustances or how you are accessing this / paying for this but you can ask to change if it isnt working ? This process cant be rushed, especially deep trauma, ptsd etc etc the list is endless but.... again I dont know your situation but I found a trainee so, cheap as well but... also got a bit of divine intervention with this person - could have easily been another crappy one and there are many.

Dont give up on looking elsewhere, and also really depends what you want - im guessing you know the difference between therapist vs counsellor! Do you want someone to off load onto (counsellor) or, someone who might help untangle thought patterns, actually challenge your bs etc (therapist)....?

 

[Unrequitedlife]

I start therapy next week. I feel trepidation about it right now. I have experienced no trauma, I have things in my life that many people yearn for (all of which I'm grateful for every day) and as a result I have no idea where my depression, anxiety and ideation comes from. I hope to get to the bottom of it and understand myself before it's too late.

 

[LostLily]

I start therapy next week. I feel trepidation about it right now. I have experienced no trauma, I have things in my life that many people yearn for (all of which I'm grateful for every day) and as a result I have no idea where my depression, anxiety and ideation comes from. I hope to get to the bottom of it and understand myself before it's too late.

Proud of you , good luck on your session

 

[cazza82]

wow - 2 and a half hour session!! I do 1 hour face to face mostly (or phone call) once a week & thats draining but helpfull. But atm have been blessed with someone decent - had crappy therapists before. I dont know your cirmustances or how you are accessing this / paying for this but you can ask to change if it isnt working ? This process cant be rushed, especially deep trauma, ptsd etc etc the list is endless but.... again I dont know your situation but I found a trainee so, cheap as well but... also got a bit of divine intervention with this person - could have easily been another crappy one and there are many.

Dont give up on looking elsewhere, and also really depends what you want - im guessing you know the difference between therapist vs counsellor! Do you want someone to off load onto (counsellor) or, someone who might help untangle thought patterns, actually challenge your bs etc (therapist)....?

Sorry that's what she is she's a counsellor I'm in the UK I get my sessions free with my GPs surgery I got 18 sessions there coming to an end on the 19th February she asked if I wanted to stay longer and we could work on a certain something but something happened during that week that tends to happen in my life it's one thing after another so that session was used for that instead I feel like in some way I'm frustrating her she's amazing don't get me wrong but I just can't stop thinking I'm worthless because she tells me I'm not and she definitely challenges me for sure she's a good egg I just feel like I'm wasting her time somehow

 

[NonEssential]

Is it worth the money?

 

[cazza82]

Is it worth the money?

My sessions are free all that talking getting things off my chest helps but I just feel lost

 

[NonEssential]

My sessions are free all that talking getting things off my chest helps but I just feel lost

oh, I've never heard of free therapy before.

 

[MidnightCat]

oh, I've never heard of free therapy before.

Psych wards for example..

I've got therapy twice a month thanks to that for example.

We have free healthcare here tho

 

[Unrequitedlife]

Proud of you , good luck on your session

Thank you @LostLily, that means a lot

 

[LostLily]

Thank you @LostLily, that means a lot

You are welcome

 

[slinkey10]

Sorry that's what she is she's a counsellor I'm in the UK I get my sessions free with my GPs surgery I got 18 sessions there coming to an end on the 19th February she asked if I wanted to stay longer and we could work on a certain something but something happened during that week that tends to happen in my life it's one thing after another so that session was used for that instead I feel like in some way I'm frustrating her she's amazing don't get me wrong but I just can't stop thinking I'm worthless because she tells me I'm not and she definitely challenges me for sure she's a good egg I just feel like I'm wasting her time somehow

Dont be sorry - glad you found someone that is decent. Im in teh UK also, so know how f'd services are.

"I just can't stop thinking I'm worthless because she tells me I'm not" - this is a key piece. My therapist tellls me the same, its a hard area to work on... cliche ... loving yourself and valuing yourself isnt easy . especially when you have been through trauma.

Ask them or look for secondary referral, next time you have therapy or counselling try and go in with an idea of a cpl of areas you want to work on - it helps.

 

[cazza82]

Dont be sorry - glad you found someone that is decent. Im in teh UK also, so know how f'd services are.

"I just can't stop thinking I'm worthless because she tells me I'm not" - this is a key piece. My therapist tellls me the same, its a hard area to work on... cliche ... loving yourself and valuing yourself isnt easy . especially when you have been through trauma.

Ask them or look for secondary referral, next time you have therapy or counselling try and go in with an idea of a cpl of areas you want to work on - it helps.

Thankyou I will definitely do that I'm always so stuck in this negative mindset that I can't get out of. But I'm gonna try and be positive she thinks I'm worth it she thinks I deserve to be happy so maybe because u trust her judgment I can start from there