ScaredCutter
Twin Turbo
- Oct 16, 2025
- 384
im so sorry for making so many similar threads over the time.
ive been constantly struggling with my emotions, i can recognise them, what is the potenial cause and such but im unable to be in complete control, calm down or anything. these have been starting from 3 years ago approx with my partner but, im not blaming him or anything, i try to do a lot for him and help out, but i keep falling back. whenever things are tense, hard, stressing and scary, my mind starts to recall the past, how i slowly lost people, how someone encouraged something illegal, how ive been acting, anf whatever else comes to mind and i start to feel panic and that i must do something. i feel so cobtrolling, demanding and selfish, ive beeb told things because of how ive been acting, who i have become.
some things have semi changed but, it came back anyways. i became less jealous and envious, but thats all gone and came back. still, in situations where my emotions r all over the place, i feel like i need to blurt out everything, but itll only cause problems because of how i deal with it, its so hard to properly face things. i have tried doing other things as a means of distraction but, i keep hivering over and checking things even if i try distracting myself. ive become so ugly, idk how to fix it.
ive been wanting to work on this, fix my emotions, start viewing things differently instead of in one way where i assume it leads to the "same path". i wish i could just accept things. i wish i had a better way of handling things, to stop acting like an overprotective person, watch things closely like smth bad will 100% happen. the person eho i am just destroys eveeything, i cant even keep friends because im scared of just not giving him everything.
i am seeing a psychologist but its just for docial anxiety atm. shoukd i didcuss it with her? idk, im scared just thinking and typing it. im weak on communication as well.
ive been constantly struggling with my emotions, i can recognise them, what is the potenial cause and such but im unable to be in complete control, calm down or anything. these have been starting from 3 years ago approx with my partner but, im not blaming him or anything, i try to do a lot for him and help out, but i keep falling back. whenever things are tense, hard, stressing and scary, my mind starts to recall the past, how i slowly lost people, how someone encouraged something illegal, how ive been acting, anf whatever else comes to mind and i start to feel panic and that i must do something. i feel so cobtrolling, demanding and selfish, ive beeb told things because of how ive been acting, who i have become.
some things have semi changed but, it came back anyways. i became less jealous and envious, but thats all gone and came back. still, in situations where my emotions r all over the place, i feel like i need to blurt out everything, but itll only cause problems because of how i deal with it, its so hard to properly face things. i have tried doing other things as a means of distraction but, i keep hivering over and checking things even if i try distracting myself. ive become so ugly, idk how to fix it.
ive been wanting to work on this, fix my emotions, start viewing things differently instead of in one way where i assume it leads to the "same path". i wish i could just accept things. i wish i had a better way of handling things, to stop acting like an overprotective person, watch things closely like smth bad will 100% happen. the person eho i am just destroys eveeything, i cant even keep friends because im scared of just not giving him everything.
i am seeing a psychologist but its just for docial anxiety atm. shoukd i didcuss it with her? idk, im scared just thinking and typing it. im weak on communication as well.
