Help Therapy issues with mom

[monstershaggy]

Sorry if half of this sounds too selfish.
I've been looking into getting therapy again, as my alogia is getting significantly worse and I cannot keep up as I used too. Apparently when I was thirteen I had a lower cognitive function than I did when I tested in at nine, I have repeatedly have been having issues for years and need to go to therapy, but my mother keeps responding by saying that her physical issues with things such as her shoulder are making it too hard for me to get help. (Saying that the transitioning and other stuff have been "making it too difficult")
She's used this excuse for years whilst also saying that she suspects something is wrong with me. I wish I could shoot myself in front of her, weirdly enough, kinda just to get my point across. My roommate is no help, as he denies my schizophrenia.

 

[certified_idiot]

I would not recommend a ward unless you are sure you'll get a good one. My experience left my with PTSD, and you are not guaranteed follow up therapy.