The zone where that adrenaline and tunnel vision hits

[BeautifulMosaics]

I had the "moment" last night where I would have done it had I had all the meds. I've never felt that before and it was empowering. It was like an epiphany: "This is the last night of my life". If you've heard "Speed Demon" by Michael Jackson, it felt like that.

I felt so settled and accepting of the afterlife. I viewed my last moment as a celebration of my life and didn't feel sad about letting it all go because I felt I would go on.

I basically unintentionally went through a process to reach that stage and at first I detailed it when writing this thread but decided not to post it as it would feel irresponsible to influence others - so I apologise for being vague.

But I just wanted to share how I felt with you guys because I'm such a passive person and having that adrenaline and aggression is very rare for me.

I wasn't ready last night but now I know how I feel I might not be here come Sunday. I want to carpe diem and seize the zone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Whatever happens, I wish you the best. If you decide to leave, I hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Whatever happens, I wish you the best. If you decide to leave, I hope you find what you are looking for.

Thank you Funeral Cry I appreciate your last sentence because I definitely have something in mind.