Venting The wrong life

[Zegers]

Since i was a child i don't identify at all with the situation i've been in, health, family, situation, i feel like i'm in a wrong life.

Complicated to explain but that's how it is. I think this can only be understood by people who are going thru the same.

 

[CTB Dream]

Yea understand sll wrong now end me injury damage all life wrong univers prove outa spacetime

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry. I don't know your situation but I'm guessing it can't be good (as- you're here.) Do you suppose it's because the situations or memories were bad? It would kind of make sense to disassociate from them to protect yourself- as a defence mechanism?

I kind of feel similarly to some degree (I think.) I find it hard to look back at my life and feel like it was all one life. It all feels very fragmented. I think it can be a way of dealing with it. Still- it feels odd when I talk to people who can seem to recall perfectly- what they were doing in what year- like it was all yesterday.

I suppose I have had a few distinct lifetimes in a way though- lots of close family members have died along the way. So I kind of have memories of lifetimes with them that are fading and have little correlation to now. Plus, quite a few house moves across the country- with a new start each time.

For you though, do you even want to feel like that was all your life?

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I feel as though I was never meant for existing at all, it certainly feels so incredibly wrong me being trapped here in this cruel, horrific world. I really should had never existed at all, that is undeniable. But after all we were all forced here without choice with us having limited control over the circumstances that we are in, so of course not everyone is going to be suited for what this life has burdened them with. It makes sense that things are this way.

 

[Zegers]

I kind of feel similarly to some degree (I think.) It all feels very fragmented. Still- it feels odd when I talk to people who can seem to recall perfectly- what they were doing in what year-

It's not just that it was bad, which it was, but it's also that i didn't identify with the family environment, with the health problems, it's like having been suffering a wrong life and the end of the journey feels like is ctb.

Also the temporal sensation is strange, i isolated myself at 19 and since then it's like everything has happened in fast-forward.

 

[Elio24]

I get what you mean. I feel the same way about my own life.

 

[theboy]

true

 

[Csmith8827]

Since i was a child i don't identify at all with the situation i've been in, health, family, situation, i feel like i'm in a wrong life.

Complicated to explain but that's how it is. I think this can only be understood by people who are going thru the same.

Lololololol I'm laughing so hard right now...I know EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN....I think a lot of people do honestly. This is not what we signed up for at all. They lied to us and deceived us about what life actually was to begin with. I need a ...

The fucked up part/kicker on it is we can't refund this shit/take it back to the store either. We have to either deal with it or find a way out/exit. That's why I'm on sanctioned...

 

[Zegers]

All we can do is quit.

 

[Csmith8827]

All we can do is quit.

Yea I'm not a quitter... even though I'm on this site. I'd rather just fix my own problems/make my own luck kinda thing...

 

[Zegers]

even though I'm on this site.

Everyone is here for a reason. Good luck in recovery.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

A lot of us here feel that sentiment, tbh :(