thejumper
Floating towards the edge of the universe
- Feb 27, 2022
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Been doing a lot of research about the universe and the ultimate fate awaiting it in the end. During this process, there are times I get so disassociated with reality that I feel like I'm gradually succumbing to madness, but I'm aware that I'm not mad and will probably never be. I'm highly interested in astrophysics and the space, so most of my time is spent reading about these topics on the internet, which leads me to the question of "What happens then?". You think about existence itself, the Big Bang, Heat Deah of the universe and so on, arriving at nothing conclusive. The insatiable curiosity to learn about it all sometimes proves profoundly difficult for me to come to terms with reality itself, leaving me dejected in this vast void. I want some relief from my underlying affliction, so to speak. The only thing giving me hope is working on my Computer Science degree and maybe someday working with great scientists. I'd been coping this way for the past months but lately I've been feeling like I'm using this "hope" as a means of masking my passive depression (I don't like to associate with the word depression but couldn't find a better word).
What happens after the heat death of the universe though? I firmly believe that nonexistence is the way until that event, which is supposed to occur approximately 1.7×10106 years from now if protons decay. Does everything end then? If it doesn't, what then? I feel like we might be stuck in an eternal oblivion, going through some existential cycles that our minds are incapable of comprehending.
I'm obsessed with these questions and want a way out. I wish I didn't have this amount of keen curiosity from my childhood.
Have a great day.
What happens after the heat death of the universe though? I firmly believe that nonexistence is the way until that event, which is supposed to occur approximately 1.7×10106 years from now if protons decay. Does everything end then? If it doesn't, what then? I feel like we might be stuck in an eternal oblivion, going through some existential cycles that our minds are incapable of comprehending.
I'm obsessed with these questions and want a way out. I wish I didn't have this amount of keen curiosity from my childhood.
Have a great day.
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