prettyclam
Member
- Nov 29, 2024
- 40
I promised myself I'd buy SN today, but it's like my depression has two sides.
One side is done with life and wants to go. The other, smaller side wishes things could be different. Sometimes I wish I was like other 19 year olds who go to college, work a decent job, have a car, and whose biggest worry is finishing their homework on time. But both sides of me know that I'll never be like them. However that doesn't stop side 2 from making me cry when I try to find the strength to click "complete order" on SD.
I just wanted to vent that since I have nobody to talk to. I can't even talk to my own girlfriend because she told me she's tired of me being depressed. After posting this, I'm going to go ahead & purchase my SN. I still don't really trust SD as a site but its the only one I've found.
One side is done with life and wants to go. The other, smaller side wishes things could be different. Sometimes I wish I was like other 19 year olds who go to college, work a decent job, have a car, and whose biggest worry is finishing their homework on time. But both sides of me know that I'll never be like them. However that doesn't stop side 2 from making me cry when I try to find the strength to click "complete order" on SD.
I just wanted to vent that since I have nobody to talk to. I can't even talk to my own girlfriend because she told me she's tired of me being depressed. After posting this, I'm going to go ahead & purchase my SN. I still don't really trust SD as a site but its the only one I've found.
