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Proximity

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May 5, 2025
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TL;DR: The veterinarians in Cuzco told me that due to people CTBing with N they don't sell it anymore and their providers also stopped supplying it.

So, I recently just was in Cuzco, not because of my immediate wish to CTB but regular travels. Nonetheless, since I eventually want to use N at some point I still tried acquiring it. I am pretty white but fluent in Spanish.

I went to about 10 veterinarians from the street in the PPEH, and none of them sold me N. In fact, one time I went in, asked the lady at the counter and someone else from across the store heard the H-word (the local N brand) and immediately just shouted "NO". So, I asked a few of the more casual seeming shopkeepers. One told me that their suppliers don't ship it anymore. Someone else said that foreign people used it to CTB, and this was noticed in a nearby hospital. He continued that some drama happened and a store was even closed. This happened half a year ago. Perhaps some stores would still have it, but if I wasn't rejected immediately they would ask for a prescription, so it seems difficult. I even put 200 USD on the table at a few after they told me no initially and they seemed unfazed.

I didn't try all the stores because some were closed already and since I wasn't desperate to find it. However, somebody else here said they recently found it in Cuzco, just for multiple hundred dollars, so it is not impossible.

As depressing as it is for me to have my plans distorted, and the best source of N according to the handbook apparently closed down, it is not surprising to me since the shopkeepers seem to know that foreigners buy it to CTB and they probably do not think it's worth losing their shop over a little bit of money.

On a side note, I also tried acquiring it in La Paz, Bolivia, and they also insisted on a prescription, even when directly offered a bribe. In fact, I even went to El Alto, which seems extremely poor and sketchy, and no luck there either. The situation is dire. Why does the world have to make it so painful for us?
 
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imOK

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Man, wonder what put that amount of fear into them. They're obviously afraid to be hold criminally responsible. It is amazing to me to what lengths those in control go to keep control over the people that refuse this existence. It is so clear to me that this is not coming from a place of compassion now.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,331
nembutal , assisting in suicide, suicide booths etc should be available for purchase to anyone at least over age 18 on the internet , through apps , websites etc. a few clicks and i'm done . but no government creeps made this world into an even worse prison by making all those into crimes

government monsters stole our right to move away from extreme suffering . The most important right is the right to move away from extreme suffering.. if u don't have that u don't have anything. Also the right to choose when to leave this prison world. They made us slaves and prisoners

if Nembutal were legal it would be about $20 a bottle , total bill would be $100 or less much less than a good smart phone or laptop or less than a week's groceries or monthly rent, or car payment etc.

a month's groceries or monthly rent can be around $1000 every month in the U.S.

for me all living expenses gas etc are about $3000 per month work for all that just to exist under threat of extreme torture. i'd rather pay $100 and no more payments no more pain ever
 
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bankai

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OP if you don't mind can you post a pic of any Cuzco landmark to prove you visited?For privacy reasons, we do not need to see a pic of you just the place. Since you literally joined yesterday, I have a suspicion you might be just trying to dissuade people.this is also your very first post.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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nembutal , assisting in suicide, suicide booths etc should be available for purchase to anyone at least over age 18 on the internet , through apps , websites etc. a few clicks and i'm done . but no government creeps made this world into an even worse prison by making all those into crimes

if Nembutal were legal it would be about $20 a bottle , total bill would be $100 or less much less than a good smart phone or laptop or less than a week's groceries or monthly rent, or car payment etc.

a month's groceries or monthly rent can be around $1000 every month in the U.S.

for me all living expenses gas etc are about $3000 per month work for all that just to exist under threat of extreme torture. i'd rather pay $100 and no more payments no more pain ever
1000000902
 
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_Gollum_

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Mar 9, 2024
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If the state wants to monopolize access to (relatively) painless suicide methods, then they have to give us an alternative (ie. MAID). Otherwise all they've done is trap us.
 
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Dec 5, 2024
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Lie or not, it makes sense. Looking at the situation from the sellers' (veterinarians') point of view, they won't risk their careers and freedom just to "help" someone take their own life. It is understandable.

Governments should make euthanasia safe, peaceful, and pain-free, accessible to all. Without having to compromise other people with our desire to leave this world.
 
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Proximity

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May 5, 2025
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OP if you don't mind can you post a pic of any Cuzco landmark to prove you visited?For privacy reasons, we do not need to see a pic of you just the place. Since you literally joined yesterday, I have a suspicion you might be just trying to dissuade people.
I joined because I was lurking here and now that I have a contribution, I thought it might be helpful to some people. Feel free to distrust me. I could have easily found this on the internet. But I sincerely wish I found N in Cuzco, because I wanted to use it as well.

I made this video in the street itself, because I wanted to film the chaos (even though it is not uncommon for Latin America). I removed the audio because it was intended for a friend of mine and I could be identified by what I am saying:


Here I also took a picture of one of the ancient sites around Cuzco:
View attachment Untitled.jpg
 
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bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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I joined because I was lurking here and now that I have a contribution, I thought it might be helpful to some people. Feel free to distrust me. I sincerely wish I found N in Cuzco, because I wanted to use it as well.

I made this video in the street itself, because I wanted to film the chaos (even though it is not uncommon for Latin America). I removed the audio because it was intended for a friend of mine and I could be identified by what I am saying:


Here I also took a picture of one of the ancient sites around Cuzco:
View attachment 166223

Please understand it was not a personal attack on you. We're just trying to be careful. The truth is the truth. Perhaps N is becoming an unattainable source.unfortunate.
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
884
Thanks for sharing your experience. It was clear pretty long time ago that it's not smart to go the veterinarias mentioned in the PPH. Some people have had success in very small rural tows. I wonder if that is still possible. And thanks for telling us about Bolivia, your experience sounds similar to the ones people have had here. Why do they make it so damn difficult.
 
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chris.watt

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Jun 24, 2025
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OP, thank you for the information provided. Have you tried Lima as well?
Are you planning to visit Mexico and try to acquire N there?
 
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cryptoinvestor

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Jul 12, 2024
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there was a member here who got it in tarapoto, i wonder if it's now difficult there too
 
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Proximity

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May 5, 2025
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OP, thank you for the information provided. Have you tried Lima as well?
Are you planning to visit Mexico and try to acquire N there?
I only went to a single veterinarian close to the airport in Lima, and they didn't give it to me. I really hope that it's possible to get it in the outskirts of Lima like some people managed to do.
A visit to Mexico is not something I'll do in the near future.
 
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EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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Here I also took a picture of one of the ancient sites around Cuzco:
View attachment Untitled.jpg
N beginning to disappear as a viable option at all rather sucks~ :( but I was putting my hopes in SN anyways~ :) hopefully, the same thing doesn't end up completely happening to it too~ >_<
I must say tho that wow, that's such a beautiful photo~!! ✨
 
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thrsgn

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Apr 7, 2025
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If the state wants to monopolize access to (relatively) painless suicide methods, then they have to give us an alternative (ie. MAID). Otherwise all they've done is trap us.
Thats the point to trap us. They make money and gain power off the pain of people. Its intentional. Its planed and its evil and theres nothing to be done.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
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nembutal , assisting in suicide, suicide booths etc should be available for purchase to anyone at least over age 18 on the internet , through apps , websites etc. a few clicks and i'm done . but no government creeps made this world into an even worse prison by making all those into crimes

government monsters stole our right to move away from extreme suffering . The most important right is the right to move away from extreme suffering.. if u don't have that u don't have anything. Also the right to choose when to leave this prison world. They made us slaves and prisoners

if Nembutal were legal it would be about $20 a bottle , total bill would be $100 or less much less than a good smart phone or laptop or less than a week's groceries or monthly rent, or car payment etc.

a month's groceries or monthly rent can be around $1000 every month in the U.S.

for me all living expenses gas etc are about $3000 per month work for all that just to exist under threat of extreme torture. i'd rather pay $100 and no more payments no more pain ever
Yeah, it is worth it! Peace! Is there no sources to buy it online from one of the stores in PPeH? It would probably be stopped in customs though. If I knew someone in Mexico ,Peru I would ask them to pack it in coffee cans, might work
 
DeathWish3301

DeathWish3301

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May 15, 2024
229
Yeah, it is worth it! Peace! Is there no sources to buy it online from one of the stores in PPeH? It would probably be stopped in customs though. If I knew someone in Mexico ,Peru I would ask them to pack it in coffee cans, might work

Why are we resurrecting year old threads?
 
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Serena fuga

Serena fuga

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Jan 15, 2026
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Resumindo: Os veterinários em Cuzco me disseram que, devido ao uso indevido de N em cães, eles não o vendem mais e seus fornecedores também pararam de fornecê-lo.

Então, estive recentemente em Cusco, não por um desejo imediato de obter a certificação CTB, mas sim por conta de viagens regulares. Mesmo assim, como pretendo usar a certificação N em algum momento, tentei obtê-la. Sou bastante branca, mas falo espanhol fluentemente.

Visitei cerca de 10 clínicas veterinárias na região de PPEH, e nenhuma delas me vendeu N. Aliás, certa vez, entrei em uma, perguntei à atendente e alguém do outro lado da loja ouviu a palavra "H" (a marca local de N) e imediatamente gritou "NÃO!". Então, perguntei a alguns dos lojistas que pareciam mais tranquilos. Um deles me disse que seus fornecedores não enviavam mais o medicamento. Outro disse que estrangeiros o usavam para tratar a tuberculose bovina, e isso foi notado em um hospital próximo. Ele continuou dizendo que houve um problema e que uma loja chegou a ser fechada. Isso aconteceu há seis meses. Talvez algumas lojas ainda tenham o medicamento, mas se eu não fosse recusado imediatamente, eles pediriam uma receita, então parece difícil. Cheguei a oferecer 200 dólares em algumas clínicas depois de me recusarem inicialmente, e eles pareceram não se importar.

Não tentei em todas as lojas porque algumas já estavam fechadas e eu não estava desesperado para encontrar. No entanto, alguém aqui disse que encontrou recentemente em Cuzco, por algumas centenas de dólares, então não é impossível.

Por mais deprimente que seja para mim ter meus planos distorcidos e a melhor fonte de N, de acordo com o guia, aparentemente fechada, não me surpreende, já que os lojistas parecem saber que os estrangeiros compram para a CTB e provavelmente não acham que valha a pena perder a loja por um pouco de dinheiro.

Aliás, também tentei conseguir o medicamento em La Paz, na Bolívia, e eles insistiram em exigir receita médica, mesmo quando ofereci suborno. Na verdade, cheguei a ir até El Alto, que parece ser extremamente pobre e suspeito, e também não tive sorte lá. A situação é desesperadora. Por que o mundo tem que tornar as coisas tão difíceis para nós?
Tentei encontrar um fornecedor de N no meu país, mas sem sucesso... então comecei a enviar mensagens pelo WhatsApp para algumas clínicas no Peru. Achei que seria difícil, mas 3 clínicas veterinárias concordaram em me vender o N... Acabei negociando com uma que achei mais amigável. Levei uma receita que consegui com um veterinário da minha cidade, mas acredite, eles nem pediram... claro que acabei pagando um extra pela conveniência e gentileza. O veterinário até entregou no meu hotel!
 
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DeadManLiving

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Sep 9, 2022
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It's important that when people go sourcing for this they don't just chug it right then and there or at a hotel and ruin it for everyone when the hospitals start creating an issue
 
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