The thought

[zeldalover]

I'm thinking more and more about my plan every day. Yesterday I spent all day developing it more in depth, today even more so. I don't feel totally ready to go through with it yet but every time I get really upset with myself I remember that I have it - I have my plan, and when my time does come I CAN act on it. It feels good to have some control over my future, and even better knowing I'll be out of people's lives soon enough, whether that be in a few months or a few years. That's the only thing I'm still kind of fuzzy about is when I'll act on it - I know I'm not gonna be ready tonight, or tomorrow, or anytime within the next two weeks. But soon. Soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relieved at having a plan to leave this existence so you won't feel so trapped here. But anyway best wishes.