I just need to vent. I'm not ok. My brother recently died, and I keep crying. My mother; sister; and brother have all died. I been in bed for 3 days Frozen, unable to do basic tasks. My house is filthy and I don't have the strength to clean it. I went to the pharmacy today to get my psych medicine in hopes another refill will help me. I found myself crying in the store and put my airpods in to avoid any conversation and ensured to not make any eye contact.
It's so unfair that I'm stuck here alone to carry all these emotions by myself and alone. I feel physically sick all the time. I keep wearing the same rain boots I wore the last time I seen my brother. I can't stop wearing those shoes, even all my co-workers ask me why I keep wearing them and it's summer. I don't know how to answer that question. I wish people leave me alone and offer me a hug would be so nice. I'm just so tired. I feel another attempt coming on soon as I'm unable to cope much longer.
It's so unfair that I'm stuck here alone to carry all these emotions by myself and alone. I feel physically sick all the time. I keep wearing the same rain boots I wore the last time I seen my brother. I can't stop wearing those shoes, even all my co-workers ask me why I keep wearing them and it's summer. I don't know how to answer that question. I wish people leave me alone and offer me a hug would be so nice. I'm just so tired. I feel another attempt coming on soon as I'm unable to cope much longer.
