Venting The terror

[whybother2002]

Is anyone else experiencing an intense terror of feeling no hope whatsoever, with a deep deep deep pain and having NO WAY to leave this earth?

Am I supposed to grow accustomed and live many years suffering everyday to not hurt my immediaye family?

It's beyond pain. I'm feeling so scared. It won't stop.

I'm going fucking crazy and I worry I'll end up trying a bad method because I won't stand the pain anymore.

 

[itsgone2]

Is anyone else experiencing an intense terror of feeling no hope whatsoever, with a deep deep deep pain and having NO WAY to leave this earth?

Am I supposed to grow accustomed and live many years suffering everyday to not hurt my immediaye family?

It's beyond pain. I'm feeling so scared. It won't stop.

I'm going fucking crazy and I worry I'll end up trying a bad method because I won't stand the pain anymore.

Yes. Every day is horrible. I don't get why I'm still here tbh.

 

[telekon]

Have you told them how you're feeling? I wouldn't reccommend opening up about suicidal ideation but you should tell them you are feeling an immense sense of despair. Maybe they can help you.

But to answer your question, yeah... I just keep trying to move forward and see where life takes me. I'm pretty sure my immediate family wouldn't care if I committed or even have a funeral so that's part of why I felt that way

 

[whybother2002]

Have you told them how you're feeling? I wouldn't reccommend opening up about suicidal ideation but you should tell them you are feeling an immense sense of despair. Maybe they can help you.

Yes, unfortunately they are very religious so their answers is "respect God", "be strong", "man up" etc

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence so cruelly denied the option to cease existing painlessly, all I want is to be gone. I just want to never suffer again, all I want is non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable, painful existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place.