The story/ last post

[Sageiois]

So this is as the title says. This is my story and my last post.
Mods delete my account on 4/13/24 around 8am or 8 hours of no activity

The last few days leading up to CTB

As the title says im finding peace soon so ill post my thoughts/SI or anything relating to it here So far i stopped caring about everything. How family will think of me, how my fiance will take it etc etc blah blah Ive never felt this level of euphoria from anything. I think this is what people...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Heres the pov of my last few days
As a kid i went through sexual assault from my granddad. emotional abuse, physical abuse, and neglect from my parents along with them giving me drugs and alchohol at a young age which stunted me and gave me mental problems.
I attempted my first time at 8, starting hurting myself at 9.
Ive been jumped because of my sexual oritentation daily in middle school to high school.
In high school i lost my partner to CTB while i was holding them waiting for an ambulance to help and the last thing he said was "ill see you on the other side"
I failed my family, friends with every desision i made. Became the family dissapointment so i could finally follow through with it.
I want to see him again, and im tired of having flashbacks and the nightmares.
Theres no words to explain the hurt, pain, thoughts, memories i go through everyday and im done with it all.
Me and my CTB partner are calling it tonight. This will be the last thread i post, the last time i type any message. The last hour before i find the peace i have searched for 15 years now.
Thank yall, i know i wasnt on here long, but ive had nothing but good experiences here
Im sorry for what i have to do. It was nice talking to yall but i have to go now.
I hope yall find peace like i am
<3

 

[bipbapbop]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for. Good luck on your journey.

 

[Dliena]

Just want to say very sorry so much harm has been done to you in this cruel life in such a messed up way and I can only hope that your peace be gracefully eternal with no more pains nor sorrows to infilct upon you ever again. Best wishes and love OP.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry for all of your pain. May you find peace from this horrible world.

 

[juna]

Hope you find peace.

 

[thelazyegg]

I'm so sorry your life has been so cruel and painful. I also lost my partner to CTB, though I'm so so sorry you had to lose yours while in your arms. That's a pain I can't imagine, as my pain with mine is already amazingly intense and I didn't get a chance to say goodbye.

I wish you peace and relief from the suffering, and I also hope you are able to reconnect with your partner in peace. Sending you love and best wishes on your journey

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from your suffering, best wishes.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes in achieving peace and rest. We may meet again in person.

 

[sussshiroll]

Im so sorry you been through all that.
Life is so cruel.
No one deserves this amount of cruelty.

 

[billie]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for

 

[mainlanders_son]

You've suffered much in your life. It's unfair.

 

[Roadrunner]

I'm happy for you that your pain will soon end. Best wishes

 

[momento.mori]

Hopefully, you'll have peace tonight. I'm sorry this world hasn't been the best to you, but soon it will be over! I hope you get the expected outcome you're looking for!

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

anyone know how it actually turned out for these people?

 

[justcallmeJ]

Im sorry you suffered so much, i hope you found the peace you wanted <3

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I got an email at 9:00 p.m. but they were still active after 11:00 p.m. does anyone know what happened?
things that can go wrong with a new random partner, especially when recent and not committed. I hope no one's in jail over this and at least the author wasn't interfered with. If anyone knows.

 

[Readytogo246]

Blessings and Peace

 

[LunarLight]

I'm so sorry life was such a bitch to you.
You suffered way more than the average person.
May you rest in peace. Godspeed.

 

[Sageiois]

My partner had doubts so i told him not to. Police got involved but didnt take my main method. Just got released from the hospital and imma try ctb again tonight

I got an email at 9:00 p.m. but they were still active after 11:00 p.m. does anyone know what happened?
things that can go wrong with a new random partner, especially when recent and not committed. I hope no one's in jail over this and at least the author wasn't interfered with. If anyone knows.

I was interfered with by the old partner. Lessoned learned no partner this time

 

[bipbapbop]

My partner had doubts so i told him not to. Police got involved but didnt take my main method. Just got released from the hospital and imma try ctb again tonight

I was interfered with by the old partner. Lessoned learned no partner this time

I have a lot of respect for you for telling your partner not to when they were not ready.

I wish you luck on the rest of your journey and that you find what you are looking for.

 

[salviap]

i truly hope that you find the peace you have been longing for. you deserve it. rest well.

 

[tekroy006]

I don't even know you but I wish I could give you a hug, you suffered enough... I thought about telling you not to and being that one annoying pro-lifer, but you already made your decision, and I understand you, I dealt with suicidal thoughts all my life. All I can say now is good luck, I hope you achieve what you want, brother.