Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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Doing alright, about to get ready to do some yard work. How're you today?

I'm doing okay I guess. Almost everything has been pissing me off today, so I guess I'm just irritable. I feel like telling Life to go fuck itself tbh.

I'm ok. Just had group therapy. Not in a huge mood to ctb today, but a little

Is group therapy helping you? Maybe it's the reason that you don't want to ctb as much.
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
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any one here ever lost their finger nails? I am loosing mine, infection starting from bottom which is rare, docs ain't interested, its really stressing me out,
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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I'm doing okay I guess. Almost everything has been pissing me off today, so I guess I'm just irritable. I feel like telling Life to go fuck itself tbh.



Is group therapy helping you? Maybe it's the reason that you don't want to ctb as much.
Could be the reason though I still have my days where I really want to ctb
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
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anyone else tonight?
 

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never had it, been told I should as apparently it just makes you totally fucking chill?
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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Feb 22, 2020
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never had it, been told I should as apparently it just makes you totally fucking chill?

It might not have the same affect on everyone, but it does that for me. It just about kills the depression and tells my anxiety and anger issues to sit their asses down in the corner and think about what they've done.

Same. I love weed

I'm glad that it became legal where I live 2 years ago. Even though I have some at the moment, I try to ration it as much as possible because I don't want to smoke it all and have nothing. Would be cool if it was legal everywhere and I could share it with everybody on here.
 
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Did someone say Rum?
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It might not have the same affect on everyone, but it does that for me. It just about kills the depression and tells my anxiety and anger issues to sit their asses down in the corner and think about what they've done.



I'm glad that it became legal where I live 2 years ago. Even though I have some at the moment, I try to ration it as much as possible because I don't want to smoke it all and have nothing. Would be cool if it was legal everywhere and I could share it with everybody on here.

I don't smoke so it would never be something I could do, but I must admit the thought of being chilled and level makes me wish I could!
 
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Squiddy

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It might not have the same affect on everyone, but it does that for me. It just about kills the depression and tells my anxiety and anger issues to sit their asses down in the corner and think about what they've done.



I'm glad that it became legal where I live 2 years ago. Even though I have some at the moment, I try to ration it as much as possible because I don't want to smoke it all and have nothing. Would be cool if it was legal everywhere and I could share it with everybody on here.
It's decriminalized where I live (not completely legal, $25 fine if seen)
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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I don't smoke so it would never be something I could do, but I must admit the thought of being chilled and level makes me wish I could!

Hopefully you can find something that works just as well. Also, there are edibles and CBD oil, so smoking isn't even necessary. It's a matter of preference really.
 
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any one here ever lost their finger nails? I am loosing mine, infection starting from bottom which is rare, docs ain't interested, its really stressing me out,
No I haven't but...any infection is potentially serious. If the docs aren't interested, they should fucking be. It's not the end of the world if you lose a nail, but you need to make sure the wound is clean and not infected. If it is, it needs to be sterilised and properly dressed and maybe you should even be on antibiotics. Any infection can possibly be managed with a poultice of magnesium sulphate.
These days I clean and dress all wounds immediately.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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any one here ever lost their finger nails? I am loosing mine, infection starting from bottom which is rare, docs ain't interested, its really stressing me out,
I've never had that before but it sounds painful. Why the hell won't the docs help you out?

anyone else tonight?
That was me last night hehe.

I'm more of a weed kinda guy, but thanks for the offer.
Yes! Me too definitely.

Well I got a new garden path dug out! But it got hot as fuck so I decided to take a break until this evening.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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I just finished Ghost of Tsushima. Wow, such an amazing game. I'm sad it's over now :notsure:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

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I played a little bit of Animal crossing tonight. Haven't played in months so it was fun
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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Today has just been one of those days where some meto and a shot of SN sounded really good. My thoughts have been really fucked up and I've been wishing I could just leave this world now, without giving it a second thought.
 
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Soulless Angel

Soulless Angel

Did someone say Rum?
Jul 6, 2020
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I've never had that before but it sounds painful. Why the hell won't the docs help you out?

because they are assholes, I occasionally lose feeling in my finger tips, its horrid,
I just finished Ghost of Tsushima. Wow, such an amazing game. I'm sad it's over now :notsure:

am I the only one sad enough to play roblox?! I have a epic gaming comp but I don't play anything but that :pfff:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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because they are assholes, I occasionally lose feeling in my finger tips, its horrid,


am I the only one sad enough to play roblox?! I have a epic gaming comp but I don't play anything but that :pfff:
There's nothing wrong with that! I play literally all kinda games. I still play Minecraft sometimes even.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
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Hey guys. Another day where my ctb thoughts are giving me somewhat of another break. I still have them, but they aren't as bad as they usually are. Though I will admit if someone were to send me a meteor, I'd probably ctb that way
 
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Brick In The Wall

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Hey guys. Another day where my ctb thoughts are giving me somewhat of another break. I still have them, but they aren't as bad as they usually are. Though I will admit if someone were to send me a meteor, I'd probably ctb that way
I'm glad it hasn't been as bad for you these past few days. I hope you're able to maintain that momentum forward! Do you have anything planned for today yet or are you just going with the flow?
 
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Squiddy

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I'm glad it hasn't been as bad for you these past few days. I hope you're able to maintain that momentum forward! Do you have anything planned for today yet or are you just going with the flow?
I'm currently in group therapy so no plans, though I might do some computer programming learning
 
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Brick In The Wall

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I'm currently in group therapy so no plans, though I might do some computer programming learning
That sounds like a productive way to keep your mind off things today. Programming as in C# still?
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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Feb 22, 2020
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Hey guys. Another day where my ctb thoughts are giving me somewhat of another break. I still have them, but they aren't as bad as they usually are. Though I will admit if someone were to send me a meteor, I'd probably ctb that way

I'm glad that you're having a good day today Squiddy. I know you have been having a hard time recently so it's nice to see things improve.
 
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I'm glad that you're having a good day today Squiddy. I know you have been having a hard time recently so it's nice to see things improve.
Yeah. I still have to deal with that ticket though from the cop which sucks
 
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Hey guys. Another day where my ctb thoughts are giving me somewhat of another break. I still have them, but they aren't as bad as they usually are. Though I will admit if someone were to send me a meteor, I'd probably ctb that way
Glad you are having a break from those thoughts. There have been quite a few NEOs recently that would have destroyed most of life on Earth if they had hit.
 
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I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
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Hey guys. Another day where my ctb thoughts are giving me somewhat of another break. I still have them, but they aren't as bad as they usually are. Though I will admit if someone were to send me a meteor, I'd probably ctb that way

Great to hear that!
 
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Brick In The Wall

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I've been trying to stay busy what I can lately. When I'm alone with my thoughts for too long I get dangerously close to stat dosing.

I don't like this "new normal" they're forcing on us one bit. They keep coming up with new rules and restrictions everyday. It's quickly becoming a world I no longer wish to live in.
 
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Squiddy

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I've been trying to stay busy what I can lately. When I'm alone with my thoughts for too long I get dangerously close to stat dosing.

I don't like this "new normal" they're forcing on us one bit. They keep coming up with new rules and restrictions everyday. It's quickly becoming a world I no longer wish to live in.
I hate this whole covid thing. I was supposed to go to 2 states, but have not been able to which sucks. Also just woke up from a nap and my ctb thoughts are a tad bit stronger, but still not too too bad
 
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Got my first Christmas catalog in the mail today. They had some restraint this year, they usually start in August.
 
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