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[Brick In The Wall]

Yeah,. The test was an annoying EEG. Fell asleep during it in a half asleep / half awake state. But like they have you recline in a achair in a dark room, with your eyes closed, after getting like a head massage, and after not having like 4 hours of sleep, so it's expected lol.

Yea that would be expected lol. Did you find out how it went yet?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Drove past my ex wife and two sons today. They didn't even notice me. It feels like a lifetime ago but it's only been a year.

A surge of anxiety and questioning if any of it was even real. I definitely feel like a shell of my former self.

 

[CoffinDance]

Hi!
Honestly, it's hard to believe that I will end my life in less than 2 weeks. I looked through family photos today, I don't remember some photos. It was nice to recall them. If I were to summarize how I felt in the last few days, I feel calm and good!
I wonder what else I am going to eat, I will definitely buy myself a bag of sweets and eat them until I feel sick. :D I dream of kinder chocolates...
All documents and images stacked on a computer before, so I do not have to worry about it. Hmm... I certainly need to clean my room, but not today.
Btw My English is poor, am I writing in good thread? :D

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hi!
Honestly, it's hard to believe that I will end my life in less than 2 weeks. I looked through family photos today, I don't remember some photos. It was nice to recall them. If I were to summarize how I felt in the last few days, I feel calm and good!
I wonder what else I am going to eat, I will definitely buy myself a bag of sweets and eat them until I feel sick. :D I dream of kinder chocolates...
All documents and images stacked on a computer before, so I do not have to worry about it. Hmm... I certainly need to clean my room, but not today.
Btw My English is poor, am I writing in good thread? :D

Your english is very good don't worry about that. There is a sense of calm when you draw closer to your date. I'm sorry to hear life has brought you to this point, but I hope you really enjoy the time you have left!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Drove past my ex wife and two sons today. They didn't even notice me. It feels like a lifetime ago but it's only been a year.

A surge of anxiety and questioning if any of it was even real. I definitely feel like a shell of my former self.

That's just a weird thing to experience.
The world moves on and we have no choice but to move with it.

I've been having a weird experience. Just recently, it feels like time is moving faster for me. I know time appears to move quicker as you get older and I understand the perceptual mechanism involved in that, but it's really starting to hit home. The days seem to fly by like minutes. Like sand falling through the fingers and never enough time in each moment. It's quite unnerving.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I hear you, @Underscore

It hit me today that this would have been my 15th wedding anniversary today. I'm glad I'm not married to him anymore and I'm glad I haven't had to see him since we separated. It was a relatively short marriage and only one happy week in the whole thing. His neglect and cheating made life unbearable. I'm glad I ended it. It's just "another" thing that fell apart in my life though.

 

[Carina]

Yea that would be expected lol. Did you find out how it went yet?

not yet...most likely fine i mean i saw a lot of the chart and it looked mirrored

 

[Brick In The Wall]

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I hear you, @Underscore

It hit me today that this would have been my 15th wedding anniversary today. I'm glad I'm not married to him anymore and I'm glad I haven't had to see him since we separated. It was a relatively short marriage and only one happy week in the whole thing. His neglect and cheating made life unbearable. I'm glad I ended it. It's just "another" thing that fell apart in my life though.

Tempus fugit. I'm glad you are free of that. Hard memories though. I have a few of those too.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I hear you, @Underscore

@Brick In The Wall I just realised I should have addressed this to you. A sleepy blonde should not be making posts late at night. I'm lucky that I didn't have to see him ever again because of kids or living in the same city. I got to cut and run. I can't imagine what that brought up for you - quite surreal I'd imagine.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

So I seem to have made (well maybe it wasn't be) a little error when ordering rope. The seller specifies that you are supposed to set the item count to your desired rope length and you'll get that length cut in one length. As I wanted, I got 7 meters of hemp rope a few days ago. The problem is that Amazon seems to not quite understand how this works and 7 different cuts have been delivered to me. I got another package today and apparently have 5 more on the way. I am gonna end up with my room full of 49 meters of rope.

 

[faraway_beach]

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I'm fine with most of this, but why is he throwing away "Intelligence"? Shouldn't it be something like "Intellectual snobbishness"? Or would that not fit on the card?

 

[Carina]

And they cancelled my surgery until the insurance approves it, because insurance denied it. Apparently being able to breathe isn't medically necessary. Seriously I think they saw "plastic surgeon" and "nose" and denied it without seeing it was to fix blockages so I could breathe, since I have other issues with it as well.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

That's just a weird thing to experience.
The world moves on and we have no choice but to move with it.

I've been having a weird experience. Just recently, it feels like time is moving faster for me. I know time appears to move quicker as you get older and I understand the perceptual mechanism involved in that, but it's really starting to hit home. The days seem to fly by like minutes. Like sand falling through the fingers and never enough time in each moment. It's quite unnerving.

@Brick In The Wall I just realised I should have addressed this to you. A sleepy blonde should not be making posts late at night. I'm lucky that I didn't have to see him ever again because of kids or living in the same city. I got to cut and run. I can't imagine what that brought up for you - quite surreal I'd imagine.

It's okay, thank you both. There's not much I can do about it right now but be patient. I'm sorry to hear about your marriage troubles as well @coeur.brisé. That definitely doesn't sound like it was a pleasant experience.

And they cancelled my surgery until the insurance approves it, because insurance denied it. Apparently being able to breathe isn't medically necessary. Seriously I think they saw "plastic surgeon" and "nose" and denied it without seeing it was to fix blockages so I could breathe, since I have other issues with it as well.

I really hope they can work that out for you soon. This Corona stuff is messing everything up. Did you try calling them and explaining the situation?

I take a short break and I see that @Lorntroubles is crossed out. I sincerely hope he's alright atleast...

 

[Carina]

It's okay, thank you both. There's not much I can do about it right now but be patient. I'm sorry to hear about your marriage troubles as well @coeur.brisé. That definitely doesn't sound like it was a pleasant experience.


I really hope they can work that out for you soon. This Corona stuff is messing everything up. Did you try calling them and explaining the situation?

I take a short break and I see that @Lorntroubles is crossed out. I sincerely hope he's alright atleast...

The dr is appealing to the insurance... it's just annoying as them saying breathing isn't medically necessary is stupid. I and others have outright bet that they did just do a "plastic surgeon, nose, denied" without looking at the actual claim. IF they deny again, I'm going to ask for their number and ask what what their problem is, because me having to pay to breathe is stupid (and technically not wise to do given my psych meds and other medical conditions lol), especially since it doesn't even alter your nose appearance.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

The dr is appealing to the insurance... it's just annoying as them saying breathing isn't medically necessary is stupid. I and others have outright bet that they did just do a "plastic surgeon, nose, denied" without looking at the actual claim. IF they deny again, I'm going to ask for their number and ask what what their problem is, because me having to pay to breathe is stupid (and technically not wise to do given my psych meds and other medical conditions lol), especially since it doesn't even alter your nose appearance.

I'm glad they're appealing it. I hope it goes through this time, definitely keep me up to date.

 

[CoffinDance]

Hi!
Recently I have been wondering about the ctb date. The night of September 1 would suit me, but on the other hand it is the start date of the school year in my country. I'm afraid a lot of things will remind my parents of this day. However, I don't want to go to school and remind my classmates what I look like, because that might affect them badly later. For now, I am an old memory for them and they will not feel my absence as much. But on August 31, I'm going to go somewhere with my parents, maybe for a walk or something, I wouldn't want to miss that day. And what day would you choose?
By the way, I feel good all the time. I'm watching a lot of heart-warming anime and fanfics or other stuffs. ^ ^

 

[Deleted member 18655]

By the way, I feel good all the time. I'm watching a lot of heart-warming anime and fanfics or other stuffs. ^ ^

Hi and welcome. I'm happy you're feeling so good!

But. If you're feeling so good why are you thinking about ctb in the next few weeks???? Enjoy the "up" while you have it!

 

[CoffinDance]

Hi and welcome. I'm happy you're feeling so good!

But. If you're feeling so good why are you thinking about ctb in the next few weeks???? Enjoy the "up" while you have it!

Haha, I know it is weird. I'm happy, but I want ctb. It is hard to explain, I'm feeling good but I'm also tired of life and future. Even watching these heart-melting series is kinda exhausting. I don't have any hope or dreams.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Haha, I know it is weird. I'm happy, but I want ctb. It is hard to explain, I'm feeling good but I'm also tired of life and future. Even watching these heart-melting series is kinda exhausting. I don't have any hope or dreams.

I completely understand that feeling. When I got close to the last CTB date I had I was actually pretty excited and relieved.

 

[CoffinDance]

I completely understand that feeling. When I got close to the last CTB date I had I was actually pretty excited and relieved.

I'm glad hearing that somebody understand me. And... maybe it is not a such big deal for you, but thank for emojis under posts. It is kinda uplifting. :D

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm glad hearing that somebody understand me. And... maybe it is not a such big deal for you, but thank for emojis under posts. It is kinda uplifting. :D

I like getting them too, so I spread them around when I can!

I'm fine with most of this, but why is he throwing away "Intelligence"? Shouldn't it be something like "Intellectual snobbishness"? Or would that not fit on the card?

They're all traits that he possesses. I don't think it was meant to be a metaphor for just throwing them away. However I could be wrong.

The movie is called "The House That Jack Built" and it's probably my favorite movie right now.

So I seem to have made (well maybe it wasn't be) a little error when ordering rope. The seller specifies that you are supposed to set the item count to your desired rope length and you'll get that length cut in one length. As I wanted, I got 7 meters of hemp rope a few days ago. The problem is that Amazon seems to not quite understand how this works and 7 different cuts have been delivered to me. I got another package today and apparently have 5 more on the way. I am gonna end up with my room full of 49 meters of rope.

That is a shit ton of rope lol. Sorry that they got it confused, that really sucks man.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Went out yesterday and got drunk at bars with my friends which was cool. I even spoke to a girl for like 5 minutes which is pretty crazy for a neck beard loser like me. Feels good man.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Went out yesterday and got drunk at bars with my friends which was cool. I even spoke to a girl for like 5 minutes which is pretty crazy for a neck beard loser like me. Feels good man.

Sounds like a good day man! Gota love that liquid courage hehehe.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

The best part of my days is being on S.S.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

The best part of my days is being on S.S.

One of the best parts of my day is seeing you make your rounds lol. You're part of the heartbeat here!

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Rounds? Like a doctor on a psych ward?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Rounds? Like a doctor on a psych ward?

Not far from it. @not-2-b-the-answer is the real deal here! Don't let em play shy about it either.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Rounds? Like a doctor on a psych ward?

Umm ... I'm more of a patient pretending to be a doctor.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

"I'm not a doctor but I play one on SS"