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nembutal
everything will be okay in the end
- Jul 14, 2022
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does anyone else work in the sex industry ? (onlyfns, escorting, etc) i'd like to connect with other sex workers and share experiences. this work isn't easy in the slightest and id like to hear how others deal with it under daily suicidal intent.
a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.
i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.
with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.
i don't view myself as lucky to find myself in this position. for one, if i were to be found out by family i would be immediately shunned. with the way economy is shaped today and the fact that i have one year of flunked education under my belt and a huge chunk missing from my resume due to rehab i don't see any other solution to gathering income. that and the fact that mainstream work feels like nails on a chalkboard, like the worst crushing pain being reminded every second on the clock that you are nothing but a cog for shareholders and fat cats.
the job itself isn't easy on its own either. lots of stress during the vetting process wondering if this is the guy who will turn you into a mangled corpse, tons of marketing and stressful decisions involved, and of course faking pleasure and affection during the hour i am around the guest. i feel miserable either way, but id rather feel miserable with 400 dollars in my pocket.
a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.
i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.
with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.
i don't view myself as lucky to find myself in this position. for one, if i were to be found out by family i would be immediately shunned. with the way economy is shaped today and the fact that i have one year of flunked education under my belt and a huge chunk missing from my resume due to rehab i don't see any other solution to gathering income. that and the fact that mainstream work feels like nails on a chalkboard, like the worst crushing pain being reminded every second on the clock that you are nothing but a cog for shareholders and fat cats.
the job itself isn't easy on its own either. lots of stress during the vetting process wondering if this is the guy who will turn you into a mangled corpse, tons of marketing and stressful decisions involved, and of course faking pleasure and affection during the hour i am around the guest. i feel miserable either way, but id rather feel miserable with 400 dollars in my pocket.
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