the sex industry

[nembutal]

does anyone else work in the sex industry ? (onlyfns, escorting, etc) i'd like to connect with other sex workers and share experiences. this work isn't easy in the slightest and id like to hear how others deal with it under daily suicidal intent.

a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.

i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.

with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.

i don't view myself as lucky to find myself in this position. for one, if i were to be found out by family i would be immediately shunned. with the way economy is shaped today and the fact that i have one year of flunked education under my belt and a huge chunk missing from my resume due to rehab i don't see any other solution to gathering income. that and the fact that mainstream work feels like nails on a chalkboard, like the worst crushing pain being reminded every second on the clock that you are nothing but a cog for shareholders and fat cats.

the job itself isn't easy on its own either. lots of stress during the vetting process wondering if this is the guy who will turn you into a mangled corpse, tons of marketing and stressful decisions involved, and of course faking pleasure and affection during the hour i am around the guest. i feel miserable either way, but id rather feel miserable with 400 dollars in my pocket.

 

[sometimesoon]

does anyone else work in the sex industry? i'd like to connect with other sex workers and share experiences.

a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.

i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.

with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.

If you feel comfortable with it - go for it!

 

[Timothy7dff]

Most people are prostitutes. Whether you're selling your body to people for money, whether your a pharmaceutical marketer, whether you're flipping burgers at McDonalds, doctor, lawyer, whatever.

Most people sell their soul for money. I don't see that many jobs that actually do true good in the world.

2-3 people a week for $3K a month sounds great, but you can't do that forever. It would be good to plan to transition to another line of work at some point in time.

As the middle class disappears, I see more and more people turning to sex work. With money printing and inflation, it's all for nothing anyways.

 

[notahappygirl]

Why don't you try stripping instead ? You don't have to have sex with the clients I never did. I was a dancer making around 8k or more a month. However I stop because it was mentally and physically draining this type of work ain't easy either. Same as you i see no form of education or long term career in my future and I'm not working a 9-5 just to survive. I have Nembutal and will use it soon.

 

[Jeav]

It's not easy, but you can look for a goal, such as finding someone to start a family with, instead of going down a dark path with no way out. One of the concerns that often arises and leads to suicide is this lack of purpose.

 

[GetReadyy]

Frankly, I have to work since my family died, but this job does not seem like a job I would love to do

 

[pain6batch9]

This made me a little forlorn, because you've demonstrated exquisitely here why the economy doesn't work the way it should. Why the world doesn't work the way it should. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suggesting you're doing anything wrong. Not at all. In fact, there were times when I was homeless I had to do things to survive I'll never forget.

I just hate that we live in this diabolical system that forces the worst decisions on the people who have the least capacity to deal with them. Do this, or this, to get this.

Also, unconnected to the situation, I just wanted to compliment you on your writing style. I was going to ask if you'd consider writing but you'd probably earn less money than if you waited tables. (That's a really bad writing joke, I apologise.)

 

[nembutal]

This made me a little forlorn, because you've demonstrated exquisitely here why the economy doesn't work the way it should. Why the world doesn't work the way it should. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suggesting you're doing anything wrong. Not at all. In fact, there were times when I was homeless I had to do things to survive I'll never forget.

I just hate that we live in this diabolical system that forces the worst decisions on the people who have the least capacity to deal with them. Do this, or this, to get this.

Also, unconnected to the situation, I just wanted to compliment you on your writing style. I was going to ask if you'd consider writing but you'd probably earn less money than if you waited tables. (That's a really bad writing joke, I apologise.)

honestly i am smitten that is the message you received from this post. i want to have the mental capacity to analyze this exact feature of our society. deviating from the norm in any capacity is now a death sentence. i truly wish i didn't have to resort to this in my situation. but i am given no other option other than perhaps attempting the process of getting on mental health disability, which i am convinced is deliberately made grueling to lead the ill to suicide so the government never actually has to compensate anyone [troll face].

was actually about to craft a discussion post questioning why suicide is never viewed as the result of a failed society, rather attributed to some flaw within the victim.

and thank you truly for the compliment!!!! i've always wanted to become a writer and i make it my priority to craft my sentences based on my favorite linguistic structures and words rather than choosing the ease of bland vocabulary. it's possibly one of the last behaviors i am placing genuine effort into.

 

[pain6batch9]

honestly i am smitten that is the message you received from this post. i want to have the mental capacity to analyze this exact feature of our society. deviating from the norm in any capacity is now a death sentence. i truly wish i didn't have to resort to this in my situation. but i am given no other option other than perhaps attempting the process of getting on mental health disability, which i am convinced is deliberately made grueling to lead the ill to suicide so the government never actually has to compensate anyone [troll face].

was actually about to craft a discussion post questioning why suicide is never viewed as the result of a failed society, rather attributed to some flaw within the victim.

and thank you truly for the compliment!!!! i've always wanted to become a writer and i make it my priority to craft my sentences based on my favorite linguistic structures and words rather than choosing the ease of bland vocabulary. it's possibly one of the last behaviors i am placing genuine effort into.

Yes, you are absolutely correct about mental health benefits being gruelling to get onto. Here in the UK, I actually played a blinder because I 'pre-primed' the doctor with years of history on the medical record. Behaviours etc… So when I finally asked for a sick note to take to the Department of Work and Pensions, they fired it out of a cannon at me. In fact, the DWP needs three sick notes before they can put you on sickness benefits. Then I had to fight them for two years to get the slighter higher rate they should have been giving me from the beginning. I met so many people, including ex-armed forces, who have to fight their way up like this through the benefits system. Having moaned about it here, it's definitely worth trying, because it does make life a little easier when you get there.

On the next point, there is an established economic model behind the idea that we, the individuals are the problem. They cannot admit that they have created this place, that does this to people. They can never, ever, admit that the fierce economic system they have created forces us to make these kinds of choices. They ignore us, because we threaten the idea that everything in their glorious system is hunky dory. Suicide they say, is the fault of the suicidal, nothing to do with the fact that income inequality is sharper now then at any point in human history. Drug abuse is the fault of the addicted, they say, nothing to do with the fact that nearly fifty years of failed drugs policy in the western world has created a multi-billion dollar illicit drugs industry. To them, any threat to their way of life in this system is to be ignore or pilloried. Why? Because if the system collapses, they go with it. If the system is replaced with something fairer, more egalitarian, they lose their positions. Protect the system, blame the individual.

Even in your reply, I can tell. You think about it. Come over to the dark side, with us writers. Us ideaists, a word I just made up to describe people like us. People who want to display our minds on the page. Let the words take you away… On a more serious note, even if you do a page per day, or fill in a journal, jot some thoughts down, just to keep the creative juices flowing, as it were. Your experience in life will absolutely colour the writing you produce and that's a good thing. George Orwell wrote a fantastic book called 'Down and Out in Paris and London.' In it, he describes being a waiter in Paris and later, being homeless in London before the war. He did these things on purpose. He wanted to live these lives so he could learn what it was like to live on the bottom. On the edge of society. This he reasoned, would make him a much better writer. Also see by the same author: The Road to Wigan Pier.

 

[yabujin]

This thread is accelerating my suicide urge

 

[Can’tbearanything]

This thread is accelerating my suicide urge

Oh shit - why is that?
I've been thinking about trying sex work as I've been out of work ages, but don't really see myself as the conventional pretty type so don't know if it's really an option. Such bad mental and physical health at the moment too so not sure whether I could manage it… but that applies to any job I guess.

Here listen wishing you all the best. If it helps, I don't think there's anything wrong or bad about what you're choosing to do, it's so hard to keep/find work for loads of people and it makes a lot of sense to me that folks would choose to do something that makes good money and is more like flexible to their schedule and doesn't involve working ridiculous hours…

This thread is accelerating my suicide urge

Hope you're ok!!! If it's really upsetting you, then no need to follow. I sometimes find myself reading stuff on here, that given my mental health I really should stay away from. If your finding in too hard on you mental health then taking a step back from the forum is always an option.

 

[yabujin]

Oh shit - why is that?
I've been thinking about trying sex work as I've been out of work ages, but don't really see myself as the conventional pretty type so don't know if it's really an option. Such bad mental and physical health at the moment too so not sure whether I could manage it… but that applies to any job I guess.

Here listen wishing you all the best. If it helps, I don't think there's anything wrong or bad about what you're choosing to do, it's so hard to keep/find work for loads of people and it makes a lot of sense to me that folks would choose to do something that makes good money and is more like flexible to their schedule and doesn't involve working ridiculous hours…

Hope you're ok!!! If it's really upsetting you, then no need to follow. I sometimes find myself reading stuff on here, that given my mental health I really should stay away from. If your finding in too hard on you mental health then taking a step back from the forum is always an option.

I'm an inсеl
Pretty sure half of this forum wants us dead jfl

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I'm an inсеl
Pretty sure half of this forum wants us dead jfl

What does this have to do with this thread supposedly accelerating your suicidal urges? Just don't read the thread, dude. That's it.

 

[yabujin]

What does this have to do with this thread supposedly accelerating your suicidal urges? Just don't read the thread, dude. That's it.

Yeah, I'm maxxing out my ignore list rn

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yeah, I'm maxxing out my ignore list rn

I have a good feeling that you won't last very on here.

 

[yabujin]

I have a good feeling that you won't last very on here.

As expected

If your finding in too hard on you mental health then taking a step back from the forum is always an option.

Everyone keeps saying that's it's all mental but no this is fucking with my heart

 

[EvisceratedJester]

As expected

Everyone keeps saying that's it's all mental but no this is fucking with my heart

What is fucking with your heart?

 

[divinemistress36]

Hopefully you can find a way to invest your money from escorting so you dont have to do it so much

 

[AuroraB]

Why don't you try stripping instead ? You don't have to have sex with the clients I never did. I was a dancer making around 8k or more a month. However I stop because it was mentally and physically draining this type of work ain't easy either. Same as you i see no form of education or long term career in my future and I'm not working a 9-5 just to survive. I have Nembutal and will use it soon.

"I have Nembutal and will use it soon." THAT must have been really hard to find! Wow!

 

[Can’tbearanything]

I'm an inсеl
Pretty sure half of this forum wants us dead jfl

Man are you telling me that as an incel you have issues with the fact people are talking about sex work?

Cuz like… that's kind of grim. It's really not about you.

does anyone else work in the sex industry ? (onlyfns, escorting, etc) i'd like to connect with other sex workers and share experiences. this work isn't easy in the slightest and id like to hear how others deal with it under daily suicidal intent.

a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.

i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.

with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.

i don't view myself as lucky to find myself in this position. for one, if i were to be found out by family i would be immediately shunned. with the way economy is shaped today and the fact that i have one year of flunked education under my belt and a huge chunk missing from my resume due to rehab i don't see any other solution to gathering income. that and the fact that mainstream work feels like nails on a chalkboard, like the worst crushing pain being reminded every second on the clock that you are nothing but a cog for shareholders and fat cats.

the job itself isn't easy on its own either. lots of stress during the vetting process wondering if this is the guy who will turn you into a mangled corpse, tons of marketing and stressful decisions involved, and of course faking pleasure and affection during the hour i am around the guest. i feel miserable either way, but id rather feel miserable with 400 dollars in my pocket.

Do you mind me asking how old you are?

 

[no.one]

does anyone else work in the sex industry ? (onlyfns, escorting, etc) i'd like to connect with other sex workers and share experiences. this work isn't easy in the slightest and id like to hear how others deal with it under daily suicidal intent.

a couple of months ago i landed a restaurant job after 3 months of searching and hundreds of submitted resumes. i was very flimsy and by the first hour i felt crippled. i don't know why but i cant seem to function normally in regular work, and for $17/h at that.

i'd already had my first escort experience by then, i made $400 seeing a man for an hour. while i was wiping tables and forcing smiles at white conservatives i couldn't think about anything other than the $400 i had made simply dissociating and letting someone use me for an hour. so three hours in i fired myself and i haven't had a regular job since.

with my level of demand i can make around 3k a month seeing 2-3 people a week. i am on a break right now as im wrapped up in heroin addiction but im unsure of whether i should go back. i take the right precautions to ensure i dont meet any creeps but i still wouldn't want to go out by the hands of a prostitute killer. thankfully i haven't had a bad encounter yet. as soon as im recovered i will most likely go back to escorting as i see no form of education or long term career in my future. and sex will always be in demand.

i don't view myself as lucky to find myself in this position. for one, if i were to be found out by family i would be immediately shunned. with the way economy is shaped today and the fact that i have one year of flunked education under my belt and a huge chunk missing from my resume due to rehab i don't see any other solution to gathering income. that and the fact that mainstream work feels like nails on a chalkboard, like the worst crushing pain being reminded every second on the clock that you are nothing but a cog for shareholders and fat cats.

the job itself isn't easy on its own either. lots of stress during the vetting process wondering if this is the guy who will turn you into a mangled corpse, tons of marketing and stressful decisions involved, and of course faking pleasure and affection during the hour i am around the guest. i feel miserable either way, but id rather feel miserable with 400 dollars in my pocket.

Before i got hired at my current job, i did have an OF, and i cammed. i did do meets a few times. The money is there, if you are persistent. like you said, sex is always in demand. Much like you, i just disassociated during the meets, and drank while i cammed. At first, it makes you feel good, confident. but after awhile i felt mentally drained, disgusted, it made my anxiety worse because i worried about being in public. because of promoting for everything, it didnt matter what store i was in, it aided in making my anxiety worse.

i just wanted to comment and say you're not alone in that line of work, from what ive read on reddit and groups ive been apart of for sex work, a lot of the girls feel the same mental drain! The money can be great, but the negative eventually out weighed it for me. It is always in the back of my mind though... working for $16/hr vs making $500 in one day?

I am rooting for you to recover from heroin. Its such a hard addiction to break, but people do, and you're no less than anyone else!I know we are all here to CTB eventually, but im all for trying to better yourself and your life if you're capable of it. You are more than welcome to message me if you'd ever like to chat!