The option of ctb is etched forever in my mind.

[Parnate]

Once you have considered the options of suicide you can never ever go back.
Even the smallest of pain and suffering makes me want to ctb. I guess that says more about my brittle, fragile mind .
But every now and then I dream of ctb as a relief .

 

[NaiveRealist]

I can relate to that. It has come to the point that I can barely even imagine a future I would prefer to non-existence, since any future will inevitably contain some suffering.

 

[schatzbunny]

so true , at this point the option of actually living this life feels more strange and unfamiliar than suicide

 

[StoneBridge]