Discussion The only philosophy that inspires any kind of hope in me: Anti-Cosmic Voidism

[Lost in a Nightmare]

The destruction of anything and everything is the only solution to end all problems. Antinatalism, I have realized, doesn't go far enough. Efilism doesn't go far enough either. What needs to happen is for the entire universe to be annihilated, and for whatever it is that put it here to be annihilated as well. Is this thing God? I don't know. If so, there needs to be a way to kill this creator and I would do that very thing if I had the ability to prove its existence and to then kill it.

The knowledge that one day the universe will cease to exist - some people call this The Heat Death of the universe - is the only thing that makes me feel hopeful, but how long will that take to happen? If it's billions of years, then surely there must be a way to speed up the process! Ending my life isn't a guarantee that I won't come back into existence in a different form. I was brought into this universal concentration camp once (at least once that I know of), which means it could happen again. I could come back as another human, or as a different kind of animal, or insect, whatever. I do not want to exist at all, let alone come back into existence again. Escaping from the concentration camp isn't good enough, which is what suicide is to me, because of the possibility I could end up back inside it all over again. The destruction of the concentration camp and the one(s) who built it is what needs to happen, to free everyone who is trapped inside this place with me, and all of those who continue to be brought into it after me.

I am going through a series of livestreams created by Shangael Thunda222 where he attempts to come up with solutions and ideas for how this goal could be achieved. I'm still only on Part 1, so I don't know yet where this series is going to go. Can he ever come up with solutions that will actually work to solve all problems? I don't really know yet, but I still find his views on the topic very interesting.

 

[Lost in a Nightmare]

Part 1 of this may be a long stream, but I'm almost to the end and will probably rewatch it before moving onto part 2 myself, but soon I will post Part 2 in here so anyone who is interested in Anti-Cosmic Voidism can get a little bit deeper into the philosophy. In Part 1 Shangael basically explains the process of creation by using the analogy of dominoes falling. The person that is me is the last domino to fall, which goes back through my parents, then humanity, then nature, then the Earth, then the solar system, then the galaxy, then the universe, and whatever came before the universe is the first domino that fell over.

At every step of the dominoes falling, the last thing to come into existence had to have the potential to exist beforehand, which means the things that brought it into exist had to exist beforehand, and those things also needed to have the potential to exist. The goal here is to figure out what the first domino that fell was. If we can figure out what that is, then we can figure out what caused that first domino to be there because it had to have been possible for it to exist, just like everything that came after it.

Some people would call that first domino God, but if they do that, then they have to prove that God existed forever, which can't be done, so for something like that TO exist, the possibility of it existing would've had to exist beforehand, which means they couldn't be eternal, otherwise, why create anything? Why create consciousness in the first place, which can suffer? Surely such a being would know that consciousness guarantees suffering, and in our universe and world, that suffering gets very, very brutal, which is why the idea of destroying it all appeals to me so much.

Destroying the entire universe, ending all consciousness, and destroying God until all that is left is nothingness and no potential for anything else to exist, become conscious, or suffer is my goal, if I can figure out how to make it happen. Even the possibility of an afterlife doesn't appeal to me, because what if it's as bad as this universe or worse? Even if it's a better reality than this one, what if I get tired of it after enjoying it for a while? Will the option of permanent nonexistence always be there for me, or will the possibility of me existing as another consciousness always be there? Nothingness can be the only perfection for me, and if the possibility of me coming back into this life kicking and screaming again exists, then Voidism it is!