The one single thing that makes you want to CTB the most

[SuffrInSilence]

My teeth.
Of all the bullshit in my life, all the chaos and damage and all that I can't even describe feels summarised in the symbolism of my teeth. I grew up in the kind of home where no one made me brush my teeth as a kid or took me to the dentist and by the time I was old enough to look after myself, they were already fucked. And it doesn't matter what I do now. They are ruined.
Some things are fixable. Some things aren't. What's the goddamn point in trying.
I properly looked at my teeth tonight and it made me want to abandon my plans and go walk in front of a train right this second.

 

[ikadasui]

Here to also say my teeth! Pair lack of care with bulimia ED and you have a lifelong recipe for disaster. Thousands dumped into dental visits and it amounts to only a few months at best before it gets worse and I've no funds left. Very bad deal

 

[Leemel]

Life.

 

[Justnotme]

Cruelty to animals, violence, cruelty, senselessness of all of the above, the meaninglessness of humanity's existence in general.

 

[Snatsbats]

Life. Its the cause of all problems.

 

[freedompass]

My teeth.
Of all the bullshit in my life, all the chaos and damage and all that I can't even describe feels summarised in the symbolism of my teeth. I grew up in the kind of home where no one made me brush my teeth as a kid or took me to the dentist and by the time I was old enough to look after myself, they were already fucked. And it doesn't matter what I do now. They are ruined.
Some things are fixable. Some things aren't. What's the goddamn point in trying.
I properly looked at my teeth tonight and it made me want to abandon my plans and go walk in front of a train right this second.

I get it, I really do. Sins of the parents are written on our bodies and minds. When our teeth deteriorate it's inescapable somehow affecting eating, talking, smiling, confidence…and toothaches, abscesses, sensitivity, gum disease, just so much that can go wrong! If you have money you can get implants I suppose. I wouldn't even feel like me without my weird yellowish half-grin. Would be super embarrassing to suddenly flash a dazzling American smile! My dentist has been threatening me with my first root canal coz the damn filling keeps falling out. It's fun all the way…what a gift is life.

 

[Murasa]

Guilt... Yup, I think that's the top reason.

 

[Hollowillow]

My teeth.
Of all the bullshit in my life, all the chaos and damage and all that I can't even describe feels summarised in the symbolism of my teeth. I grew up in the kind of home where no one made me brush my teeth as a kid or took me to the dentist and by the time I was old enough to look after myself, they were already fucked. And it doesn't matter what I do now. They are ruined.
Some things are fixable. Some things aren't. What's the goddamn point in trying.
I properly looked at my teeth tonight and it made me want to abandon my plans and go walk in front of a train right this second.

Picture?

Maybe it's from malnutrition. Which would be much worse & affect your entire body & mind.

I'd use coconut oil to melt the crust & spit. Veggies clean them, make gums strong with vitamin C to make collagen.

Cola melt them

 

[theboy]

Continue taking antidepressant pills for many more years. No sir

 

[lionetta12]

The one single thing? People.

 

[farakini]

Bad memories that I can't escape. Plus, I'm lonely and have no one to talk to.

 

[TheYounger]

Feeling empty constantly.

 

[absurd_to_the_end]

Lack of hope.

 

[freedompass]

Previously I would've said guilt regarding my offspring. That began easing off a few years ago. Still have my moments of despair but in general I have a much more balanced outlook. I am not solely responsible for his problems. There are many other players, culminating in society itself.

I watch true crime. There are people with waaay more serious things to regret and years to do it confined in a prison cell. Probably not many people make it to 60 without accumulating a few regrets. I know I'm not some kind of monster, just another flawed human.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Medical issues.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Loneliness

 

[eternal_life]

My teeth.
Of all the bullshit in my life, all the chaos and damage and all that I can't even describe feels summarised in the symbolism of my teeth. I grew up in the kind of home where no one made me brush my teeth as a kid or took me to the dentist and by the time I was old enough to look after myself, they were already fucked. And it doesn't matter what I do now. They are ruined.
Some things are fixable. Some things aren't. What's the goddamn point in trying.
I properly looked at my teeth tonight and it made me want to abandon my plans and go walk in front of a train right this second.

Today you can get 100% of new teeth and they are almost the same as natural ones. I have a "fake" tooth (implant and crown) and it is practically the same as a normal tooth, in appearance, sensation... someone who would need, for example, to get 20 new "fake" teeth would have a nice mouth. It would be "only" a matter of money because those aren´t cheap.

May I ask what is your problem with your teeth? Can't get implants + crowns? Is it a problem with your gums, that you may not be able to put on those "fake" teeth? In general, I think that a dental problem can be fixed a lot today, with such great advances, although specifically I don't know what problems you have, and if the dentists have already told you that they can't help you?

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

It was mainly the "blackpill" that triggered it; the day I realized that everything I was made to believe was a lie, like how there really isn't any justice -- looks do matter, karma isn't real (bullies can get away with everything and live their best lives if they're popular or attractive), and I was going to remain stuck in a shitty situation.

 

[freedompass]

It was mainly the "blackpill" that triggered it; the day I realized that everything I was made to believe was a lie, like how there really isn't any justice -- looks do matter, karma isn't real (bullies can get away with everything and live their best lives if they're popular or attractive), and I was going to remain stuck in a shitty situation.

This makes me sad…that sinking feeling when another comforting illusion bites the dust and we realise we were lied to

 

[Sad_Sack]

Never a moments peace from my health problems. I'm positive that my cognitive issues are crossing into Alzheimers at this point. Dizziness and pain aside, the cognitive issues are unbareable.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

This makes me sad…that sinking feeling when another comforting illusion bites the dust and we realise we were lied to

Yup... I honestly hate when some people try to spew that Disney bullshit with me... Either they're naive, or they're outright being deceitful. I wonder if they're honestly aware of how dangerous that lie is. Considering how that lie damn near killed me, I'd imagine there's countless individuals who either went insane and killed themselves. I can't blame some people when they do what they did sometimes, but I suppose I have a new goal now, and I'll make sure to fulfill it to the best of my abilities before I decide to call it a life.

 

[September5th]

My fucking ex and every guilty, loneliness, betrayal and shitty feelings she gave me.
Oh, the rest of my life sucks too. So whatever

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

My fucking ex and every guilty, loneliness, betrayal and shitty feelings she gave me.
Oh, the rest of my life sucks too. So whatever

My condolences... How are you holding up these days regarding your ex?

 

[Tristan]

The fear of getting old, alone. That's what scares me the most. That's gonna be when I CTb if I reach that age. I do t even feel like dating anymore, my life is too, F up to bring someone in.

 

[Sad_Sack]

My teeth.
Of all the bullshit in my life, all the chaos and damage and all that I can't even describe feels summarised in the symbolism of my teeth. I grew up in the kind of home where no one made me brush my teeth as a kid or took me to the dentist and by the time I was old enough to look after myself, they were already fucked. And it doesn't matter what I do now. They are ruined.
Some things are fixable. Some things aren't. What's the goddamn point in trying.
I properly looked at my teeth tonight and it made me want to abandon my plans and go walk in front of a train right this second.

I hear you. My parents took me one time to the dentist and would try and get me to brush when I was very young but as a kid I would give them grief like saying a brushed when I didn't and just whining about having go do it and they gave up. Months would go by without me brushing. As a teen I started smoking at 14 and still wouldn't brush. I now have implanted ventures on the top. My bottoms are so ground down from my over bite I always had that you can't even see them when I smile. There are places that do pretty b cheap implant work these days. You might be able to get something done. I hope it all works out for you.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Society, regret, memories of everything that once was and will never be again.

 

[Ashu]

Gettin old.

 

[Zegers]

It's not just one cause, it's several causes accumulated over time

- Health problems, disability getting worse and practically dysfunctional
- Not having had a good family produces a vacuum
- No like-minded friends
- Lack of purpose, loneliness, emptiness

I think the main factor is health

 

[ClownMe]

Life.

For real.

 

[September5th]

My condolences... How are you holding up these days regarding your ex?

Pretty poorly. It's been exactly six months and I still feel like the worst. Not only because I miss her and the times we were together, but because she betrayed my feelings. Left me when I most needed her, kept trying to contact me (wasn't able to deal with her own decision on her own), stopped talking to me (I did something horrible in the hopes she would do that) and then, when I was starting to get a bit better, she came back, just to abandon me again. All while she was seeing other people (which, to be fair, I was also doing, but against my will).
I was FINE being alone before she came in. FINE. My life wasn't perfect, but I was content with it. But she had to come in, feed me with lies, show me how things could be fun. Just to leave later. I HATE HER FOR THAT.