The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[BlueWidow]

Sleep is overrated

You're just in time to find out that @Squiddy remember to take her medicine!

Lithium is supposed to stop suicidal people from being suicidal too--it's like the "instant suicidal thought killing pill"

In me, it killed the countdown. But it came with a cost, I have no countdown, but it's because it can be any day without warning, or a time with a short warning. I never stopped doing things, I never stopped buying, I started doing more destructive behaviors... so really it just stopped a countdown.

Well I've stated in other posts how I was a ward of the state and they wanted me to remain suicidal so they could continue putting me in and out of the hospital and bleeding my dad's insurance company of money. Maybe they never offered me lithium because they didn't want me to stop being suicidal.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Sleep is overrated

Yes it is, especially when you keep having nightmares!

 

[Carina]

You're just in time to find out that @Squiddy remember to take her medicine!

Well I've stated in other posts how I was a ward of the state and they wanted me to remain suicidal so they could continue putting me in and out of the hospital and bleeding my dad's insurance company of money. Maybe they never offered me lithium because they didn't want me to stop being suicidal.

That's probably why really. I really think there were times and places where they just used people as test people to see what happened with meds. Sadly , you were possibly one of them :(

 

[Squiddy]

You're just in time to find out that @Squiddy remember to take her medicine!

Well I've stated in other posts how I was a ward of the state and they wanted me to remain suicidal so they could continue putting me in and out of the hospital and bleeding my dad's insurance company of money. Maybe they never offered me lithium because they didn't want me to stop being suicidal.

Could be, but I'd give lithium a try. It could work

 

[Brick In The Wall]

That's probably why really. I really think there were times and places where they just used people as test people to see what happened with meds. Sadly , you were possibly one of them :(

They're most assuredly still doing this to people too.

 

[BlueWidow]

That's probably why really. I really think there were times and places where they just used people as test people to see what happened with meds. Sadly , you were possibly one of them :(

I can actually tell you with 100% certainty that I was one of those people. I was taken on and off meds at random no matter how they made me feel, or whether they helped me or not, or what side effects they had. None of that mattered. I've always wondered how that affected my brain development since it happened to me when I was a teenager.

I didn't even have my own lawyer for the first 2 1/2 years. I had absolutely no representation and no rights of any kind.

 

[Carina]

They're most assuredly still doing this to people too.

Oh they are... really everything's being tested on people.... meds through medicine and psych, other things through other places.

Then like 30-40 years later people get settlements if they're still alive for being put through it, if they ever admit to it.

I can actually tell you with 100% certainty that I was one of those people. I was taken on and off meds at random no matter how they made me feel, or whether they helped me or not, or what side effects they had. None of that mattered. I've always wondered how that affected my brain development since it happened to me when I was a teenager.

I didn't even have my own lawyer for the first 2 1/2 years. I had absolutely no representation and no rights of any kind.

That part with no lawyer is just so wrong.... you should've had representation...

I still say I would've been dead long ago if I was put through even half of what you had been.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Did it hurt no matter where it was given? I ask only as there's numerous places shots normally can be given normally.

I have a shot (completely different type) that depending on where I give it (within inches/millimeters) either has no pain, bleeds, hurts, burns, etc. granted only for minutes.

I get it in my arm and it hurts really bad. I guess I could get it in my hip, but I'm not sure if that'll hurt too

Tell them you will switch back to injection from pills if you can smoke weed beforehand;)

 

[Carina]

I wonder if @Jean4 went back to sleep? I hope so...

 

[Squiddy]

Tell them you will switch back to injection from pills if you can smoke weed beforehand;)

Haha, I still don't think they'd like me smoking

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Haha, I still don't think they'd like me smoking

So then you get to continue the pills!

 

[Squiddy]

So then you get to continue the pills.

I'll take my pills and keep smoking even though my nurse in the program said it was poison

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'll take my pills and keep smoking even though my nurse in the program said it was poison

What isn't poison these days? We like a bit of poison here anyways.

 

[Carina]

I keep on editing the same thing over and over... you'd think I'd stop editing the same thing.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I keep on editing the same thing over and over... you'd think I'd stop editing the same thing.

its so personal and intimate an experience to write those letters. I totally get it. I've edited mine dozens of times already.

 

[Jean4]

Kill me. I can't go two nights no sleep

 

[Carina]

Kill me. I can't go two nights no sleep

I'm sorry :(

I wish I could help :(

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Kill me. I can't go two nights no sleep

Focus on breathing and relaxing each muscle one by one.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Kill me. I can't go two nights no sleep

:(

that's rough. I have and continue to struggle with insomnia, and it's truly awful.

hope you get some quality shut eye soon.

 

[BlueWidow]

Kill me. I can't go two nights no sleep

Sorry @Jean4.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Today is a bad physical pain day. All I did was cook dinner and do one load of laundry. 14 years of this shit. I am so done.
Goodnight everyone.

 

[BlueWidow]

Goodnight everyone. I'm hoping I can actually go to sleep and stay asleep since I have to get up early tomorrow to wait for the plumber again. I hope everyone has a good night.
See you all in the morning.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

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Goodnight everyone. I'm hoping I can actually go to sleep and stay asleep since I have to get up early tomorrow to wait for the plumber again. I hope everyone has a good night.
See you all in the morning.

Goodnight! I'm off to bed myself.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I need to be disciplined and not stay up late. But i also don't really care, so i'll probably continue watching a Bronx Tale instead...

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@BooGirl how tall are you?

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I realise I can't keep up with this thread as you are all awake when I'm meant to be sleeping and when you are meant to be sleeping I'm up!!
Too much to catch up on when I am awake

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I realise I can't keep up with this thread as you are all awake when I'm meant to be sleeping and when you are meant to be sleeping I'm up!!
Too much to catch up on when I am awake

Same. I realized though that... you don't have to! You can just come there and say what you want

 

[MysticPerception]

I am become sleep. Or should I say I will in a second. Had a nice day going to bed now just wanted to check in. @CynicalHopelessness I like your new avatar. Goodnight morning everybody. I am getting in bed now hopefully I don't wake up tomorrow lol.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@MysticPerception good night, and it's still the same guy on the avatar as before :D

 

[Root]

Hello everyone. So the next meeting in the hospital is in two weeks.. I was hoping to get out yesterday. But no.