Sensei

Sensei

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SS dinner party calls for a gif:
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That was an unexpected reference. "We accept her, we accept her, gooble, gooble, one of us, one of use." A very misunderstood movie.
 
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xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
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Fuck today. Fuck today.
A family member just fractured my shoulder. Just leaving hospital.

Fuck this. I've been waiting on both of my broken feet and left arm to heal so I can organize my belongings. Fuck. Fuckjcjfkskns
 
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Dear Flabby

Please listen to “Across the Universe”
Feb 20, 2020
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Fuck today. Fuck today.
A family member just fractured my shoulder. Just leaving hospital.

Fuck this. I've been waiting on both of my broken feet and left arm to heal so I can organize my belongings. Fuck. Fuckjcjfkskns
That's horrible. Please keep us updated, and if you can gather the essentials, leave!
I fear for your safety. I don't know your situation, but it sounds brutal!
Sending non-painful hugs and hoping for you to be safe. :hug::aw:
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Fuck today. Fuck today.
A family member just fractured my shoulder. Just leaving hospital.

Fuck this. I've been waiting on both of my broken feet and left arm to heal so I can organize my belongings. Fuck. Fuckjcjfkskns
Sorry I missed this. Pm me if you want to talk or if I can help you with anything. :heart:
 
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xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
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Thank you so much @Dear Flabby and @Jean4 .

Came straight here just to bitch and rant because I'm in pain and ahshdjfk. And they wouldn't give me more than 800mg ibuprofen. I'll probably message you soon Jean I'm honestly not okay right now i truly do need someone :/

Edit: my soul hurts. my soul hurts so bad. Since I was injured when my dog passed away, I haven't even been able to visit him (he's buried at the LA Pet cemetery) and I feel like such a bad momma to my fur baby. :( i'm so fucking alone, gah.
 
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Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Thank you so much @Dear Flabby and @Jean4 .

Came straight here just to bitch and rant because I'm in pain and ahshdjfk. And they wouldn't give me more than 800mg ibuprofen. I'll probably message you soon Jean I'm honestly not okay right now i truly do need someone :/

Edit: my soul hurts. my soul hurts so bad. Since I was injured when my dog passed away, I haven't even been able to visit him (he's buried at the LA Pet cemetery) and I feel like such a bad momma to my fur baby. :( i'm so fucking alone, gah.
You've definately had a bad time :( I can't believe they only gave you basically nothing for pain on top of it!
 
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xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
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Update to myself because I'm lonely as shit and have nobody irl.

Back to the car, but I can't drive in a full leg cast and my glasses were punched off my face and broke :smiling: I guess omw to motel via uber. Waste of money shit. :( god daaaaammit
@Squiddy are you lurking how are you?
 
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Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Update to myself because I'm lonely as shit and have nobody irl.

Back to the car, but I can't drive in a full leg cast and my glasses were punched off my face and broke :smiling: I guess omw to motel via uber. Waste of money shit. :( god daaaaammit
@Squiddy are you lurking how are you?
Why a motel? Sorry for the waste of money :(
 
xBrialesana

xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
552
Why a motel? Sorry for the waste of money :(

My living situation is a total fuckery. Long story short. Thank you for being there<3
I feel like dumping my SN since I have to wait regardless. It's so tempting. Only a month but I have shit to do before I were to do anything. So close yet so far. Fuuuck.
But I'm one of those people that's paranoid it's gonna get pulled or restricted so I'm holding onto it lol. I so badly wish I could go tonight. I'm glad I'm not impulsive
I have to buy new fucking glasses. I just got them in January too :( and im nearsided as hell.

At least in a motel I'll be in a safe environment.

On a lighter note, the option to share these posts to facebook is the equivalent to pornhub having that feature. Why
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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My living situation is a total fuckery. Long story short. Thank you for being there<3
I feel like dumping my SN since I have to wait regardless. It's so tempting. Only a month but I have shit to do before I were to do anything. So close yet so far. Fuuuck.
But I'm one of those people that's paranoid it's gonna get pulled or restricted so I'm holding onto it lol. I so badly wish I could go tonight. I'm glad I'm not impulsive
huh.... thought mom went to bed but guess not... that answers that question for later... and glad didn't have page opened too close.

Yeah, that is kind of a tough position if you're worried it could get restricted. SN has always been tempting to me. But you know you have a month. And you aren't impulsive... so that's good.

So sorry your living situation is screwed up though... that does not make things easier
 
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xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
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Thank you for hearing me out. I'm too old for this shit lol. If I had things sorted I would just go tonight. But I don't, so more suffering, but honestly I'm so blessed to have everybody that's here :heart:
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Thank you for hearing me out. I'm too old for this shit lol. If I had things sorted I would just go tonight. But I don't, so more suffering, but honestly I'm so blessed to have everybody that's here :heart:
There's definitely a lot of people here willing to listen :) Even if they are asleep currently maybe lol. It's normally like shifts!
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
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Reporting in even though I guess I wasn't asked to. Got home from work finally. I am tired.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

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Dec 31, 2019
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I'm hoping @Jean4 actually got sleep--might not of posted something
I refuse to believe she's actually sleeping. As much as I want her to the world deems it a non option for her for some reason. Honestly maybe we should just put her in a coma for a week so she actually does get some.
 
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xBrialesana

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I refuse to believe she's actually sleeping. As much as I want her to the world deems it a non option for her for some reason. Honestly maybe we should just put her in a coma for a week so she actually does get some.

I'm on day 18 now minus 2 weed naps that weren't over 30 minutes. Can I partake in that coma?

No lie when I had surgery in August the best part was being put under jusr for some sleep finally lol
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
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I'm on day 18 now minus 2 weed naps that weren't over 30 minutes. Can I partake in that coma?

No lie when I had surgery in August the best part was being put under jusr for some sleep finally lol
Maybe we should up the offer to two weeks for you. Maybe a month. I don't know how you're even functioning with that little sleep I'll be honest. You are a trooper, I'll give you that.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

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I swear to God, I am one step away from descending into a mess of terrorism and murder.

Had a weird gut feeling, called the hospital.
They moved one of my dates and FORGOT to tell me!
Bitch literally said "oh, I'm sorry, I guess I forgot to call."
She forgot to call. Forgot. FORGOT!!!

No emoji is strong enough to properly articulate my rage!
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Good evening!

Here's to BlueWidow! She's been on my mind all day.

How are you all holding up?

@Jean4
@Underscore
@Brick In The Wall
@Carina
@MysticPerception
@CynicalHopelessness
@Sensei
It's been kinda rough and I've been thinking about it alot since I heard. Thank you for asking though.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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Feb 22, 2020
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I'm on day 18 now minus 2 weed naps that weren't over 30 minutes. Can I partake in that coma?

No lie when I had surgery in August the best part was being put under jusr for some sleep finally lol

That is some serious bullshit that you had to have surgery just to get the sleep you need... It sucks that you have to live with assholes that treat you like shit and that the only way to get away from them is to ctb. Would be better if they were the ones buried in the ground, while you got to live and be happy about it.

I'm late to the party, so I have to ask, aside from the shoulder, were your other injuries caused by them too, or was that something else?

I swear to God, I am one step away from descending into a mess of terrorism and murder.

Had a weird gut feeling, called the hospital.
They moved one of my dates and FORGOT to tell me!
Bitch literally said "oh, I'm sorry, I guess I forgot to call."
She forgot to call. Forgot. FORGOT!!!

No emoji is strong enough to properly articulate my rage!

Medical "professionals" they call them. More like medical circus clowns. I can honestly say I've wanted to do similar things to them (especially the doc who misdiagnosed my mom with something mundane when she had cancer - she's at peace now thankfully, but that doc would be at the top if I had a hit list).
 
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xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
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Maybe we should up the offer to two weeks for you. Maybe a month. I don't know how you're even functioning with that little sleep I'll be honest. You are a trooper, I'll give you that.

Honestly I'm just numb. Like not in the sense that the rest of us already are lol but physically and my senses I'm just like flowt
That is some serious bullshit that you had to have surgery just to get the sleep you need... It sucks that you have to live with assholes that treat you like shit and that the only way to get away from them is to ctb. Would be better if they were the ones buried in the ground, while you got to live and be happy about it.

I'm late to the party, so I have to ask, aside from the shoulder, were your other injuries caused by them too, or was that something else?



Medical "professionals" they call them. More like medical circus clowns. I can honestly say I've wanted to do similar things to them (especially the doc who misdiagnosed my mom with something mundane when she had cancer - she's at peace now thankfully, but that doc would be at the top if I had a hit list).

I really TRULY appreciate it and I'm going to respond to you later I'm just fucked up right now (not fucked up just fucked up :mmm:) but I truly appreciate it. Yes they are assholes. My glasses being broken is actually serious lol I have the worst migraine now because I can't see and these weren't insured fuck but anyways imma get back to you later hope uoure haven a good night (day) and also hi @Brick In The Wall

Edit: how does x amount of Ambien not knock someone out? Why can't I just sleep, wtf. Combined with other substances still can't sleep.
I'm safer in a motel so like I should fall asleep.. ugh send me sleep I hope jeans getting sleep!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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I refuse to believe she's actually sleeping. As much as I want her to the world deems it a non option for her for some reason. Honestly maybe we should just put her in a coma for a week so she actually does get some.
Didn't sleep. My internet went out lol
 
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I hope you all had an okay weekend :heart:
 
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Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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I hope you all had an okay weekend :heart:
Was worried about you. ;)
7:51 am. Last time I forgot I had eggs boiling. Let's not forget this time.
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ArtsyDrawer

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No lie when I had surgery in August the best part was being put under jusr for some sleep finally lol

Hol' up!
There's a surgery to fix whatever causes you insomnia, or are you just celebrating the stuff they used to give you some shut-eye?
 
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Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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It's Sunday 8:32 am
Meds taken
Vinegar taken
Eggs boiled
Cat dishes watched

Need to do
Clean cat box
Put away dry laundry

Set up work project for tomorrow

Clean up for the nurses' visit tomorrow
Ugh. I forgot to write down shower and brush teeth!
This really got me in my unstable mind. I am here because of my cats.
 
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Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Shower and brush teeth done. Back in bed.

Still need to
Clean cat box
Real job work
 

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