The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[CyanideSoup]

Check in
@Brick In The Wall
@Sensei
@Raven Moon
@L0ne1ygh0st
@porfin1234

I'm still here

 

[Jean4]

I'm still here

Are you ok?

 

[MysticPerception]

Well that wasn't assuming lol. Just me saying things from the intersection of ridiculously unlikely and technically possible.

You think carefully about everything huh? I have a friend who is the same. Next time I'll just PM you the answer if my brain is scrambled lol.

 

[CyanideSoup]

Are you ok?

Not really, reliving trauma and hallucinating quite bad. All I want is to make it stop

 

[MysticPerception]

Not really, reliving trauma and hallucinating quite bad. All I want is to make it stop

At least you know they're hallucinations still. We're here for you you're not alone. I'm sorry you're reliving your traumas that can be horrible and I know you want nothing more than for it to stop once and for all.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Are you ok?

Smooth Criminal starts playing in my head....

You think carefully about everything huh? I have a friend who is the same

I'm trying to, lol. Pretending to assume something ridiculous works wonders on people who are too concerned about others' opinion.

Not really, reliving trauma and hallucinating quite bad. All I want is to make it stop

Not sure if it helps, but I'll say it anyway. When I'm experiencing some emotional state I don't like, but can't shake it off, I imagine that there's a huge explosion in my chest that wipes away all the emotions, thoughts, desires, etc. In worst cases I do it about every 10 seconds for 5 minutes, and it at least makes it easier.

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Eating cake.

Have a good cake! Like a good night, but cake - because why not?

 

[Jean4]

 

[faust]

 

[Jean4]

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I need the laugh button lol

 

[faust]

 

[Jean4]

 

[faust]

 

[Jean4]

Paging
@Raven Moon
@Brick In The Wall
@porfin1234

 

[Sensei]

Check in
@Brick In The Wall
@Sensei
@Raven Moon
@L0ne1ygh0st
@porfin1234

I'm here.

 

[Jean4]

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I'm here.

Ahhhh. Much better now. Are you ok? Stable?

 

[Sensei]

Ahhhh. Much better now. Are you ok? Stable?

Not in the slightest. I've had a very good day today, though. How are you?

 

[Jean4]

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Not in the slightest. I've had a very good day today, though. How are you?

Wait you aren't ok, but had a good day?

 

[Sensei]

Wait you aren't ok, but had a good day?

A couple of days ago, I was deeply suicidal and felt that life is pain and sorrow. Today, I was genuinely happy and felt that life is beauty and joy. I'd say that's quite unstable. There are times I wish I had a slighly less erratic disorder. :P

 

[Jean4]

A couple of days ago, I was deeply suicidal and felt that life is pain and sorrow. Today, I was genuinely happy and felt that life is beauty and joy. I'd say that's quite unstable. There are times I wish I had a slighly less erratic disorder. :P

And you didn't contact your wife? Bad Sensei. Bad!!

 

[faraway_beach]

I'm feeling kind of panicky.. I got a letter from Soc Sec, I'm approved, but I still have to go in person? And they want me to bring what looks like a boatload of documents! I don't know if I have all these, if I even know exactly what they're talking about. I called my social worker hours ago and she never called back, when I finally called again they said try again Mon at 9AM. I have an MRI on Monday, that will probably take most of the day. Soc Sec wants to see me Thurs at 9AM. I don't know if I'll get to see my social worker before I have to go. I'm so nervous.

 

[Jean4]

I'm feeling kind of panicky.. I got a letter from Soc Sec, I'm approved, but I still have to go in person? And they want me to bring what looks like a boatload of documents! I don't know if I have all these, if I even know exactly what they're talking about. I called my social worker hours ago and she never called back, when I finally called again they said try again Mon at 9AM. I have an MRI on Monday, that will probably take most of the day. Soc Sec wants to see me Thurs at 9AM. I don't know if I'll get to see my social worker before I have to go. I'm so nervous.

Yes. I'm in New York. Had to go in person. If you don't have everything, usually you can mail it in.

You have us to talk to. You won't be alone. :)

 

[Sensei]

And you didn't contact your wife? Bad Sensei. Bad!!

Unless you're my wife, I have none. I am bad, though. In fact, I'm the baddest motherf**ker in town.

 

[Jean4]

Unless you're my wife, I have none. I am bad, though. In fact, I'm the baddest motherf**ker in town.

I am your wife!!! Don't I nag you enough? ;)

 

[faraway_beach]

Yes. I'm in New York. Had to go in person. If you don't have everything, usually you can mail it in.

You have us to talk to. You won't be alone. :)

Thank you, it helps!

 

[Jean4]

I'm feeling kind of panicky.. I got a letter from Soc Sec, I'm approved, but I still have to go in person? And they want me to bring what looks like a boatload of documents! I don't know if I have all these, if I even know exactly what they're talking about. I called my social worker hours ago and she never called back, when I finally called again they said try again Mon at 9AM. I have an MRI on Monday, that will probably take most of the day. Soc Sec wants to see me Thurs at 9AM. I don't know if I'll get to see my social worker before I have to go. I'm so nervous.

Do you feel a little better? Any questions from someone who went through it?

My suggestion. Bring snacks to SSI. You will probably be there a while. ;)

 

[faraway_beach]

Do you feel a little better? Any questions from someone who went through it?

My suggestion. Bring snacks to SSI. You will probably be there a while. ;)

I'll be too nervous to eat. What kinds of documents did they ask you to bring? When they say bank statements going back to such-and-such a month, do I really bring a whole sheaf of statements?

 

[Jean4]

I'll be too nervous to eat. What kinds of documents did they ask you to bring? When they say bank statements going back to such-and-such a month, do I really bring a whole sheaf of statements?

I brought protein bars with me. Bring something like that.

Do you have Medicaid? Basically it's the same paperwork.

Bank statements are to see your income. If you have million dollars deposits lol.

 

[faraway_beach]

I brought protein bars with me. Bring something like that.

Do you have Medicaid? Basically it's the same paperwork.

Bank statements are to see your income. If you have million dollars deposits lol.

I have managed Medicaid with Metroplus. The Metroplus agents walked me through it every step of the way. I don't remember much about it, I was just relieved when it was over.

 

[Jean4]

I have managed Medicaid with Metroplus. The Metroplus agents walked me through it every step of the way. I don't remember much about it, I was just relieved when it was over.

I have Medicare with Healthfirst (it's only in New York.)

SSI is basically the same as applying for Medicaid. Do you also have food stamps?

 

[faraway_beach]

I have Medicare with Healthfirst (it's only in New York.)

SSI is basically the same as applying for Medicaid. Do you also have food stamps?

No, I don't have food stamps. One year when I was renewing Medicaid, I had to get a statement from my father that he was supporting me, but he's dead now so I obviously can't get any supporting statements!