The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Carina]

I just woke up. I'm super depressed and now I have to get ready for work.

I'm sorry about that! Working when depressed isn't always easy, sometimes possible. :(

 

[one4all]

Yes. If you were impulsive, I can see how you forgot olives. Wait. No I can't. How can anyone forget olives?

Did you notice what was next to the pizza????

 

[Sensei]

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@MysticPerception just because I wanted to say your name.

Here.

 

[CyanideSoup]

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@MysticPerception just because I wanted to say your name.

I'm alive sadly, busy preparing for next week. I have to make a police statement, I have my medication review and a social services meeting. So much stress and so little time to prepare for it all.

 

[Carina]

Did you notice what was next to the pizza????

Hard to miss it

 

[one4all]

Hard to miss it

Well i had to include that for the cold beer cold pizza comment i made earlier

 

[Carina]

Well i had to include that for the cold beer cold pizza comment i made earlier

I actually have beer in my fridge, but we got it for the onion rings if we make them (used in the batter for the breading).
I've used it to boil my veggie things in too before, but never outright drinking.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I actually have beer in my fridge, but we got it for the onion rings if we make them (used in the batter for the breading).
I've used it to boil my veggie things in too before, but never outright drinking.

I haven't had a beer in over four years now. Mmmmm... beer...

 

[one4all]

I actually have beer in my fridge, but we got it for the onion rings if we make them (used in the batter for the breading).
I've used it to boil my veggie things in too before, but never outright drinking.

MMmmm beer batter! Mushrooms, onions and fish!

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I'm sorry about that! Working when depressed isn't always easy, sometimes possible. :(

It's okay. I went to Panera so hopefully I'll have time to eat before work and that will cheer me up.

Work is depressing... but know we are here rooting you on!

Thank you!

 

[MysticPerception]

I kind of wish I could feel negative thoughts because now I'm just feeling like shit but can't even find comfort in my old negativity like I used to. This is annoying.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I know that feeling all to well. Not looking forward to it when I go back.

When do you go back?

 

[xBrialesana]

Just read 48 pages of backlogged posts here. I'm glad to see from you @MysticPerception as well!

Can anyone send hugs this way? Much much needed, my soul hurts tremendously

 

[Deleted member 14177]

I bet she would have loved this.

 

[MysticPerception]

When do you go back?

Probably in a few days. At least I hope so. They may choose to not take me back lol.

Just read 48 pages of backlogged posts here. I'm glad to see from you @MysticPerception as well!

Can anyone send hugs this way? Much much needed, my soul hurts tremendously

I'm hurting too but I can't even feel it properly my emotions aren't even in proper control right now have a hug.

I bet she would have loved this.
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Whoa that's like a chocolate chip cookie brownie cake with sprinkles. Elementary school me would have killed for something like that!

 

[one4all]

I bet she would have loved this.
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This looks like a sugar OD

 

[Carina]

I bet she would have loved this.
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That looks absolutely wonderful!

 

[xBrialesana]

Thank you for all the hugs!!!

Is that a cookie cake!? I'm not huge on cake but I'll take a cookie cake any day (or ice cream cake!)

I bet she would have loved this.
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[Jean4]

I bet she would have loved this.
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Wow!!! Looks like it came from a bakery!!!! She would have loved it!! I know I do!!

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Truthfully, I'm not a big sweets fan. It's the meaning, process of it and the cooking that I really enjoy. It's a box of "Annie's Organic Cookie Brownie Bar Baking Mix" made with oil (instead of butter) and flax egg.
Thank you all so much, your kind words make my heart feel so good!

 

[Jean4]

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[MysticPerception]

I feel like I'm finding myself in a room full of couches and cushions and a bed but I'm tired of sitting around and lying down so I try to go outside only to find the door locked. It feels like I'm banging on the door trying to get out and I finally open it only to find the thoughts I took solace in are merely an illusion now a mirage even. I find myself going back into the room begrudgingly accepting that the outside I craved just isn't the same anymore.

All that to say fuck me I need new medication if it's going to keep making me feel like this.

 

[Jean4]

I feel like I'm finding myself in a room full of couches and cushions and a bed but I'm tired of sitting around and lying down so I try to go outside only to find the door locked. It feels like I'm banging on the door trying to get out and I finally open it only to find the thoughts I took solace in are merely an illusion now a mirage even. I find myself going back into the room begrudgingly accepting that the outside I craved just isn't the same anymore.

All that to say fuck me I need new medication if it's going to keep making me feel like this.

Which is why you need to make a doc appointment and see how you feel by the appointment ;)

 

[MysticPerception]

Which is why you need to make a doc appointment and see how you feel by the appointment ;)

I already have an appointment in 2 days. I intend to let them know the medication isn't really doing what it should I think. Though they might tell me to use it for longer before deciding otherwise my mother thinks I should switch to the medication she's using. I didn't even know depression runs in the family until I was let out of the psych ward lol.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I feel like I'm finding myself in a room full of couches and cushions and a bed but I'm tired of sitting around and lying down so I try to go outside only to find the door locked. It feels like I'm banging on the door trying to get out and I finally open it only to find the thoughts I took solace in are merely an illusion now a mirage even. I find myself going back into the room begrudgingly accepting that the outside I craved just isn't the same anymore.

All that to say fuck me I need new medication if it's going to keep making me feel like this.

I've had that before on Prozac. When I first took it things were amazing. I could cope with anything. It pooped out so I upped the dose and stopped feeling. I started to wonder if other people werent even real. Stopped in the end because I felt safer being depressed.
Best to go back to the doc maybe?

 

[Jean4]

I already have an appointment in 2 days. I intend to let them know the medication isn't really doing what it should I think. Though they might tell me to use it for longer before deciding otherwise my mother thinks I should switch to the medication she's using. I didn't even know depression runs in the family until I was let out of the psych ward lol.

It does take a month. And who doesn't have depression lol.

I've had that before on Prozac. When I first took it things were amazing. I could cope with anything. It pooped out so I upped the dose and stopped feeling. I started to wonder if other people werent even real. Stopped in the end because I felt safer being depressed.
Best to go back to the doc maybe?

What are you on now?

 

[MysticPerception]

It does take a month. And who doesn't have depression lol.

What are you on now?

I should rephrase that to suicidal depression. Apparently the only reason she didn't kill herself before having children was because she saw what happened to other people who tried and failed. Then her children kept her alive even though she still didn't want to be. Though I don't think I can wait a month feeling like this because it sucks not feeling like doing anything at all. I can get over the drowsiness I'm used to that but even when I was tired all the time I still wanted to enjoy myself. This is just statis, I'm not even alive I'm just here.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

It does take a month. And who doesn't have depression lol.

What are you on now?

Nothing. All the drugs are contraindicated for my bowel condition. My mental state is situational due to ill health and any ssris won't help that but I'd have to deal with the side effects. Tried it and things just got worse.

 

[jgm63]

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[Polly]

I bet she would have loved this.
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Wow!!!