porfin1234

porfin1234

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Hey all. Hope you have a good day.
Another day at work. Anxious about what will happen, and discouraged seeing that other classes are much better behaved. My class is like a zoo.
Also have decision to make about the weekend.
 
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I probably should've eaten this morning, because kinda out of it after taking all pills, but oh well, guess few bites of sliced cheese will have to do (it isn't working).
 
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maybeimalreadydead

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Hello! I hope your day is to be gentle and kind to you all
 
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Jean4

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Hey all. Hope you have a good day.
Another day at work. Anxious about what will happen, and discouraged seeing that other classes are much better behaved. My class is like a zoo.
Also have decision to make about the weekend.
Let's break it down. What can be done to make your class behave better? Why are they acting up?
Hello! I hope your day is to be gentle and kind to you all
What's on your agenda for today?
 
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NonsenseTrash

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Jan 19, 2020
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Good Morning!

Made it to the library. Meeting up with class group in a couple hours. Going to try to get some work done while I wait up.
Later, I got a therapy appointment. Gonna be an interesting one, after crazy texting him yesterday, lol.

Have a good day everyone!
 
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I keep on having the feeling that everyone is just having a bad week :( Just with sprinklings of good things in between.



Good Morning!

Made it to the library. Meeting up with class group in a couple hours. Going to try to get some work done while I wait up.
Later, I got a therapy appointment. Gonna be an interesting one, after crazy texting him yesterday, lol.

Have a good day everyone!
good luck!
 
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Jean4

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Good Morning!

Made it to the library. Meeting up with class group in a couple hours. Going to try to get some work done while I wait up.
Later, I got a therapy appointment. Gonna be an interesting one, after crazy texting him yesterday, lol.

Have a good day everyone!
You are doing great! Let us know how the therapist goes. :)
I probably should've eaten this morning, because kinda out of it after taking all pills, but oh well, guess few bites of sliced cheese will have to do (it isn't working).
Eat!!!
 
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I just realized just in my own self-monitoring of my brain that I've been slipping, like a lot, to people I know. Slipping in ways that I mean that certain things wouldn't be a shock, and if I"m not careful, people in my life may start talking behind my back. But it's only slipping in a way that makes sense in hindsight though too, or if someone is really paranoid, or otherwise knows me and pays attention. And otherwise can tell the truth from misdirection.

Worst part is? I can't outright ask or find out without revealing things.... so I just have to continue misdirection... but not seem to be overly misdirection like, but try to approximate reactions based on expected reactions as they'd expect reactions given situations and medicated states assuming normal medicated states for what they believe is currently wrong.

ok my brain's going to explode now... had to type that to get it out so I can get back to weird computer issue that is simple in comparison rofl.



Hopefully people's days go well, without any weird unexpected things going on.
 
Jean4

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I just realized just in my own self-monitoring of my brain that I've been slipping, like a lot, to people I know. Slipping in ways that I mean that certain things wouldn't be a shock, and if I"m not careful, people in my life may start talking behind my back. But it's only slipping in a way that makes sense in hindsight though too, or if someone is really paranoid, or otherwise knows me and pays attention. And otherwise can tell the truth from misdirection.

Worst part is? I can't outright ask or find out without revealing things.... so I just have to continue misdirection... but not seem to be overly misdirection like, but try to approximate reactions based on expected reactions as they'd expect reactions given situations and medicated states assuming normal medicated states for what they believe is currently wrong.

ok my brain's going to explode now... had to type that to get it out so I can get back to weird computer issue that is simple in comparison rofl.



Hopefully people's days go well, without any weird unexpected things going on.
Slipping how? I don't understand. You seem fine to me.
9:36. It a BAD day. SI are too high for comfort honestly.

Going to shower and brush my teeth.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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Hey all. Hope you have a good day.
Another day at work. Anxious about what will happen, and discouraged seeing that other classes are much better behaved. My class is like a zoo.
Also have decision to make about the weekend.
Ask them what their secret is. Reign in those little animals!
 
Carina

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Slipping how? I don't understand. You seem fine to me.
Oh just to people in life... I'm slipping in comments and actions.. Like here it's nothing, I could say anything and it seems normal lol Literally anything seems normal!

But like to them, if I push for someone to come see me, when I never would've before..... it starts to trigger a 'um...why?' and given me, they don't ask, they start to ask others behind my back.

I give username/password to account, even if it makes sense to me, it's unusual for me, so it triggers a 'why did you do that?' and then they wonder

I verified with a friend if he had the passcode to my computer/phone 'just in case'.... which while I gave in the past... now adds to other things, and adds to the cautions.

I"m doing things for others, out of the blue.... oops... making them wonder... adding to other things.

Ironically not telling my mom she's "killing me" (something I said all the time, before things)....and 'joking' if she brings it up herself but it's kind of obvious from my tone I"m not.


That type of thing. Granted some was stupid on my part (I admit it, verifying the passcode was saved, my fault), but the others in combination are just slipping because together they're adding to it.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Spent all morning running errands. I'm going to be moving into a much larger living space here soon!
 
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Polly

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Jan 15, 2020
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Made coffee and took care of cat.

Giving myself time ti caffeinate and read in lieu of antianxiety meds. Don't want to take antianxiety meds before interview.

Next on list: shower and get dressed.
 
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OMG I totally need to change the cat litter boxes tonight... and I mean COMPLETELY dump their boxes and put in new....

ugh.... I don't wanna do it....
 
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cosmicpixiedust

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Ugh another long day, I have this shift to do and another at least 10 hour one later this afternoon. I hope everyone has a good day!
 
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Jean4

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Made coffee and took care of cat.

Giving myself time ti caffeinate and read in lieu of antianxiety meds. Don't want to take antianxiety meds before interview.

Next on list: shower and get dressed.
Did you brush your teeth and clean the cat box?
I showered and brushed my teeth and am back in bed.

Let's send @Polly good vibes on her job interview! @Brick In The Wall get out your cheerleader outfit and Pom Poms! @Carina make signs we can hold up!! @cosmicpixiedust get the snacks!!
 
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Did you brush your teeth and clean the cat box?
I showered and brushed my teeth and am back in bed.

Let's send @Polly good vibes on her job interview! @Brick In The Wall get out your cheerleader outfit and Pom Poms! @Carina make signs we can hold up!! @cosmicpixiedust get the snacks!!
Yes!
 
Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Good!! Showering and Brushing my teeth is always on my list.... because I can go months without.
It's hard to take care of yourself when you just don't care..... I may have gone years with the teeth thing once.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

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Nov 8, 2018
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Whoever makes Gatorade flavoring is a culinary SADIST!
I'm not feeling any positive effects from it yet, but my tongue begs me to stop introducing this atrocity.
 
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Polly

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Jan 15, 2020
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Ate breakfast showered waiting fir hair ti dry a bit before getting dressed.

am going to take half a tab if antianxiety med. feeling a bit more human so Idint think it will flatten me out but hopefully will quell jitters.

I thought this company had forgotten about me so a bit of a mixed blessing ti find out Im actually interviewing...
It's hard to take care of yourself when you just don't care..... I may have gone years with the teeth thing once.
I have a very understanding dentist. :-)
 
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Brick In The Wall

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"After all this time
I may just be alright
Stiching pieces back together
Facing all that I could find

See if...
What has been left damaged heals in time
Find a way
For...
All fragments have an order even mine
Disarray

Then I found you
To help me break it all again
I found you
To shatter all I understand

After all...
I know
I'll be just fine
Every breath draws closer
A clear sight

Then I found you
To help me break it all again
I found you
To shatter all I understand

Saving
Those things that mean so much
Anticipating
The day I'd feel your touch
You know I've waited
All of this time
My dear
A dedication
Until the day I end

Then I found you
To help me break it all again
I found you
To shatter all I understand"

 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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I just had to make an appointment for something at work for friday.... and my first thought was "ugh... now I have to be around til friday"

I swear neither of these states I get in are good.
 
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I just had to make an appointment for something at work for friday.... and my first thought was "ugh... now I have to be around til friday"

I swear neither of these states I get in are good.
Hahaha! I'm gona schedule a bunch of appointments for you now.
 
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Hahaha! I'm gona schedule a bunch of appointments for you now.
Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

lol

really though I do have to wait for settlement... as much as I hate it... all they have to do is add 20-30K to their offer.... and that's it.... literally, I already signed a paper so the lawyer can slap it onto the form for acceptance, it can be done over email.

I have to admit though, the states are.... more toward center.... but still, they exist, and the primary thing hasn't changed as it's not tied to that .



Tomato soup for dinner again with grilled cheese again! :D And maybe 6" of snow lol
 
Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

lol

really though I do have to wait for settlement... as much as I hate it... all they have to do is add 20-30K to their offer.... and that's it.... literally, I already signed a paper so the lawyer can slap it onto the form for acceptance, it can be done over email.

I have to admit though, the states are.... more toward center.... but still, they exist, and the primary thing hasn't changed as it's not tied to that .



Tomato soup for dinner again with grilled cheese again! :D And maybe 6" of snow lol
I want pictures this time... and bacon and tomato. ;)
 

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