Stressful, no, I'd end up with voicemail, even have to specifically request his nurse to relay the message. It's not like you get 'him' It's just one of those things of now I"m more 'depressed' like overall, which is probably a bit more obvious. Maybe not, not entirely sure. But I at least feel like whatever I write has more of a consistent flow without it seeming like I"m chasing a rabbit through a field of rabbits and changing the rabbit as I see a different color rabbit.
But, considering I was really close to psych ward last time, and well I am paranoid.... well you get the idea lol.