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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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It takes forever for the weekend to arrive. But seconds for Monday to arrive. Something isn't right about that
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
It takes forever for the weekend to arrive. But seconds for Monday to arrive. Something isn't right about that
On my days off I'm always watching the clock so that time feels slower lol.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
It takes forever for the weekend to arrive. But seconds for Monday to arrive. Something isn't right about that

Actually, this weekend for me felt like it was at least 3.5 days. I think it's about the amount of positive emotions - when I was guided by anxiety, desires to pick a distraction and disgust for working, it always felt like weekend was over in a blink of an eye, and seconds were just slipping away from my grasp.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
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So I may have stayed up all night but I did two loads of laundry (bedcovers and clothes), did some research, gathered a bunch of trash and took it out, took the can to the curb, and took a shower! Wow, I don't know what's gotten into me.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I'm up. Now I have to get dressed.
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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It takes forever for the weekend to arrive. But seconds for Monday to arrive. Something isn't right about that
Time is relative and the weekend is even more relative.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
At group. Gonna tell them about my thoughts of the meteor.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Today I discoverd I can hide mental disorders quite well from some people! YAY! I've still got it in short bursts.
Just gotta lie or not talk, or interact, or be social... or be human.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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6D097E26 52E5 4C19 8A1D 99FEEE0F1ABE And we have chicken soup to eat for the next few days.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Told my nurse about my meteor thoughts. I don't know if she believed me, but she did ask if I took my meds.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Told my nurse about my meteor thoughts. I don't know if she believed me, but she did ask if I took my meds.
Did you? I was late with mine today. :)
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Told my nurse about my meteor thoughts. I don't know if she believed me, but she did ask if I took my meds.
Uh, gen X is Gen meteor don't know why meteor isn't taken seriously... an entire generation is practically for it lol.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Uh, gen X is Gen meteor don't know why meteor isn't taken seriously... an entire generation is practically for it lol.
She looked at me like I was crazy when I told her that I feel like a meteors gonna hit me :pfff:
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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My day is screwed up as I was thrown in Facebook jail for 24 hours.
Took vinegar and meds late. Unless my meds are by my bed I forget. I put it by my bed.
Shower and brush teeth
Clean kitchen. There is crap all over the counter that really needs to be thrown away.
Real job work.

I am back in bed lol.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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My day is screwed up as I was thrown in Facebook jail for 24 hours.
Took vinegar and meds late. Unless my meds are by my bed I forget. I put it by my bed.
Shower and brush teeth
Clean kitchen. There is crap all over the counter that really needs to be thrown away.
Real job work.

I am back in bed lol.
shy of the facebook thing that sucks... at least you got other things done so those things are good
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Just shared with the group that I feel incompetent (main reason I want to ctb) and someone told me that there's always potential to learn
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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shy of the facebook thing that sucks... at least you got other things done so those things are good
Can't get anything done. Soooo tired.
Just shared with the group that I feel incompetent (main reason I want to ctb) and someone told me that there's always potential to learn
And that's true. You just don't have to be lazy. ;)
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
My day is screwed up as I was thrown in Facebook jail for 24 hours.
Took vinegar and meds late. Unless my meds are by my bed I forget. I put it by my bed.
Shower and brush teeth
Clean kitchen. There is crap all over the counter that really needs to be thrown away.
Real job work.

I am back in bed lol.
What is a Facebook jail?
And that's true. You just don't have to be lazy. ;)
Sorry, that is of course true, but giving that as an advice for feeling incompetent is full of shit. I know for a fact that I am a competent programmer, more than many of my peers. I've built up some reputation in open source community, there are even people who recognize me by name. That doesn't help my impostor syndrome in the slightest.
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
4,005
What is a Facebook jail?

Sorry, that is of course true, but giving that as an advice for feeling incompetent is full of shit. I know for a fact that I am a competent programmer, more than many of my peers. I've built up some reputation in open source community, there are even people who recognize me by name. That doesn't help my impostor syndrome in the slightest.
IT's when the jerks at facebook decide you've been bad and prevent you from posting because "omg omg you posted bad things!" even though you might've just pointed out that they're allowing hate speech or things that caused harm to someone--THAT was find to post, but you pointing it out or calling the person out for doing it was "making them feel bad" and is wrong and needing of a "cool off period for you" so you learn your lesson.... oh and they'll keep the other post up because it's fine.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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IT's when the jerks at facebook decide you've been bad and prevent you from posting because "omg omg you posted bad things!" even though you might've just pointed out that they're allowing hate speech or things that caused harm to someone--THAT was find to post, but you pointing it out or calling the person out for doing it was "making them feel bad" and is wrong and needing of a "cool off period for you" so you learn your lesson.... oh and they'll keep the other post up because it's fine.
They don't like my anti Trump posts. I get thrown into jail all the time.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
IT's when the jerks at facebook decide you've been bad and prevent you from posting because "omg omg you posted bad things!" even though you might've just pointed out that they're allowing hate speech or things that caused harm to someone--THAT was find to post, but you pointing it out or calling the person out for doing it was "making them feel bad" and is wrong and needing of a "cool off period for you" so you learn your lesson.... oh and they'll keep the other post up because it's fine.
Oh. No regrets I'm not using Facebook, then.
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
a fellow newbie! hmmm. well i'm 38. in the us. south to be specific.

i came here because im literally over it. the past 5 years have been horrible. started with losing my mother and best friend, then good job, condo, car, financial stability, a lil trauma here a little more trauma there and then....viola! my mood latent disorder went into full swing. that ruined or really hurt my close personal relationships so anyway...

i have been doing ctb research on and off for years but really been feeling more serious about it the past 6 months or so. i somehow stumbled into this forum last week and im so glad that i did. i feel like im a prisoner to life and my mood disorder and i want out.

your turn! :-)
Welcome!
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
hi everyone. I wasn't up too late but have terrible stomach pains today. Good news is should be calling my nitrogen vendor soon as my exhaustion lifts a bit.

hope everyone's day goes well
Hope the sleep meds start working soon. I'm almost afraid to jinx it, but my pulled muscle feels a little bit better, so I'm hoping I can maybe rest a little bit tonight. Of course I haven't even tried to lie down at all and that's when it really hurts, so it could be that I lie down and it starts hurting again just as much as it was before. But it actually hasn't been hurting me much at all in the last couple of hours. I haven't had THAT much alcohol yet so I don't think that's had a lot to do with it. Though I guess maybe? I've now switched back to soda. I'm not going to drink any more rum for tonight. I've just been sitting here drinking what's left of my rum drink and listening to Led Zeppelin. Hopefully I'm going to get tired enough to be able to sleep later.

when you posted a pic about running out of rum I knew you were up to no good

which led zeppelin album? I honestly am a huge fan but have not been able to enjoy since I read child rape allegations against jimmy page.
 
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