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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Somebody bump please
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
She's an idiot. There's nothing a hospital can do for passive thoughts at all. But oh well, sadly what we believe and know will never help
Yeah
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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My protein bars were delivered. I went down and got the box. The box sits by my front door. I'm back in bed (I did get dressed.) I still have to put the bars away and go down and dump the box.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I'm finally home! I'm exhausted af, but I got given 20 wall posters, 12 multi packs of cheap earrings, and 8 plush keychains at work so I'm a happy camper!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I'm finally home! I'm exhausted af, but I got given 20 wall posters, 12 multi packs of cheap earrings, and 8 plush keychains at work so I'm a happy camper!
Welcome home and good job!!!!!
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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I'm almost worried I'm going to downplay so much tomorrow at the psychiatrist appointment that he's going to say i'm cured..... or think I"m lieing and think I need committed... oh well. That's tomorrow.
I'm finally home! I'm exhausted af, but I got given 20 wall posters, 12 multi packs of cheap earrings, and 8 plush keychains at work so I'm a happy camper!
yay for being home and getting things you want and bein ghappy
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I just started this new med
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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neat... hopefully it works for you

If it does you might be able to breathe better/easier
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
So, I started lying to my psychiatrist a few months ago. I came in for my usual check in and renewal of prescriptions. She had a student with her, and I didn't have a problem with that. It occurs every few months.
After my doctor ushered me out the door, as soon as she closed it, I paused because one of my shoelaces was loose.
I heard the two of them laughing in an extremely "mean girl" way.
So unprofessional!
That's when I started lying to her, and I go in with the same bland narrative (word for word) every time. She doesn't even notice that it is the same.
The one time I was in crisis, and I asked to be hospitalized, (our psych ward is safe and caring, and I didn't want to ctb), she lied about her admitting privileges, so I had to stay in ER for 5 days between a rapey guy and a stabby guy (separated by a thin curtain).
She literally doesn't give a fig about the months I spent fighting to recover.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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I swear given all this crap with some bad psyc people... you almost want to write a suicide note, mail it to them saying "I killed myself and just wanted to know--it was mainly your fault--you sucked, I had to lie because you didn't care and were unprofessional and i couldn't be honest with you"
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
So, I started lying to my psychiatrist a few months ago. I came in for my usual check in and renewal of prescriptions. She had a student with her, and I didn't have a problem with that. It occurs every few months.
After my doctor ushered me out the door, as soon as she closed it, I paused because one of my shoelaces was loose.
I heard the two of them laughing in an extremely "mean girl" way.
So unprofessional!
That's when I started lying to her, and I go in with the same bland narrative (word for word) every time. She doesn't even notice that it is the same.
The one time I was in crisis, and I asked to be hospitalized, (our psych ward is safe and caring, and I didn't want to ctb), she lied about her admitting privileges, so I had to stay in ER for 5 days between a rapey guy and a stabby guy (separated by a thin curtain).
She literally doesn't give a fig about the months I spent fighting to recover.
Why don't you get another doc?
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I swear given all this crap with some bad psyc people... you almost want to write a suicide note, mail it to them saying "I killed myself and just wanted to know--it was mainly your fault--you sucked, I had to lie because you didn't care and were unprofessional and i couldn't be honest with you"
I am beyond blessed. My PCP and pulmonologist know the truth about everything and I can call them in crises. They will hospitalize me as a last resort, not a first.

Leaving my emotional support cat Milo would make my suicidal thoughts worse and they know that. Yup. The best medicine is Milo. Put me in a hospital away from him, I'll CTB in the hospital.

It happened the last time I was hospitalized. The doctors learned lol.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Had fun at my college today. Saw many of my friends and we played games :)
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
I am beyond blessed. My PCP and pulmonologist know the truth about everything and I can call them in crises. They will hospitalize me as a last resort, not a first.

Leaving my emotional support cat Milo would make my suicidal thoughts worse and they know that. Yup. The best medicine is Milo. Put me in a hospital away from him, I'll CTB in the hospital.

It happened the last time I was hospitalized. The doctors learned lol.
Our psych ward allows emotional support animals, one of the many ways that they break the stereotypes.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
@Squiddy what games do you play, btw?
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Well I didn't drunkenly off myself last night so I'm here. Bad news is I've now got lots of drugs hidden in my room that I don't want or need.
 
BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
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Good morning everyone,

For the first day this week, I'm having a relaxed morning, more or less.

How is everyone else doing? :heart:
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Why don't you get another doc?
Even given all the psychiatrists/etc in my area, it takes months to get in. It's why I had to commit myself a few years ago to get antidepressants!
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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OMG there was a stabbing or shooting on ELM street in my town lol
ok not funny, but the street made me laugh
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
OMG there was a stabbing or shooting on ELM street in my town lol
ok not funny, but the street made me laugh

Man, that sounds like a nightmare!
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Talk to us! We will put you to sleep! :blarg:
Well, I'll be going to sleep at my regular time. It's just that my workload these days is nothing even slightly exciting, and I'd rather be in bed, probably.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Getting some real work done. Protein bars are still by the front door not put away.
 
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