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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Night 3. Trying to go back to sleep
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Morning everybody. Sorry I'm not posting as much recently, I'm feeling low on emotional energy recently. How's everybody doing?

@Squiddy glad you managed to keep your freedom. Involuntary anything just sucks, and I don't see anything wrong if you lie to doctors as long as you feel better yourself - they are your means to a better life, and that's it.

@Jean4 hope you get to sleep at last :heart:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Yeah I will. What was ridiculous is I didn't even say I had a plan. I just said I was a little more suicidal and its "oh! We need to hospitalize her!" ...I'll be avoiding trigger words like "worse" and "active"

Replace them with "better", "healing", and "recovery" instead.

you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.

It's honestly best not to say anything unless you think the "help" they provide can benefit you. For most of us here that sort of help is more detrimental then anything.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
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Night 3. Trying to go back to sleep
Stan is sleeping on the job non stop right now. Well good luck getting back to sleep at least.

Speaking of which I'm going to bed. I wasn't that active today as I went out to dinner with my family and then with my brother and his friend as he was visiting and I only see him once a year these days. Probably the last time I'm ever going to see him in person so it at least that went well. A nice memory to have for when I finally go out. Anyway, sleep time. Gonna bump Stan's thread and go to bed. Night everyone.
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
Made some phone calls. Got what I need to leave right now. I know it's because I'm mourning. Hiding this shit from myself while I'm drunk and hoping I forget where I put it.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Have a good night, @MysticPerception.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Ugh. Night 3. Back to sleep
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
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I just got off work and I have another shift in an hour and a half. -_-
 
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ArtsyDrawer

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Nov 8, 2018
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What the absolute fuck. Hospital just called and they want me to go on a roughly 200km (one way) quest!
No info beyond.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
What the absolute fuck. Hospital just called and they want me to go on a roughly 200km (one way) quest!
No info beyond.

Hopefully, you're not picking up a cooler full of kidneys =P
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
I guess I do still have insomnia when I forget my meds..
 
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ArtsyDrawer

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Nov 8, 2018
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Hopefully, you're not picking up a cooler full of kidneys =P
Nope. But they did decide to move my neuropsychology eval to a less comfortable hospital a good hundred km from me. It wouldn't be much of a problem if I could drive. I cannot.
At this rate I might actually bounce by to collect a cooler of kidneys, though under different context.
At this rate I might actually bounce by to collect a cooler of kidneys, though under different context.
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I wokeup but tired. Probably because of thepills.

Totally not liking forward to theother pc swap thing as it could easily cause me to drop another network line. Re organize a desk and everything. It'll inconvience the user. But some things should run drastically quicker just odd thing might not work at all in win 10 because it's so old.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Day 3 no sleep. Let's see if we can get through the day. No point of trying some more.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.
Usually that works for me too. My mistake was saying it was getting worse so next time I won't say it's getting worse, I'll just saying I'm having it, but it's not that bad.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Day 3 no sleep
Apple Cider Vinegar
Shower & brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes (maybe)
Real job work
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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On my way to my old college so I can get my official transcripts
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Day 3 no sleep
Apple Cider Vinegar
Shower & brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes (maybe)
Real job work
Shame sleep didn't work into that instead of no sleep :aw:
 
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Jean4

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Apple cider vinegar in. Coffee made. Back in bed.
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
859
Corona beer changes their name to avoid association with the 68684923

This made me laugh way too much. I'm going to hell.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Finished mailing my transcripts to colleges. Now to play some video games on campus til 12
UPDATE: My nurse just called me and asked me why I wasn't in the hospital and i told her because I was passive suicidal and not active.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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Showered and brushed my teeth. Back in bed. Asthma will be CRAP today. Reasoning: day 3 no sleep. At least I know why.

PASSIVE (in honor of @Squiddy SI.) That is up from none yesterday. That will increase unless I sleep.

Bright spot. I know why I will decomprnsate. Lack of sleep.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Then she asked why I wasn't in group and i had to tell her I was going to my college
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Then she asked why I wasn't in group and i had to tell her I was going to my college
That's a reasonable question. I would have asked the same thing if you didn't tell us.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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That's a reasonable question. I would have asked the same thing if you didn't tell us.
True :) currently playing video games right now
 
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Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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I discovered today that yelling at drivers isn't road rage if you're a good driver, and the other person's an idiot.


Seriously... you have a green light, and this person is waving others to turn left in front of us because they want to be nice, then we have to sit at another red light, then we get another green, and they wave another though, then they go, and then they're going under the speed limit, and people try to pass...
like who gave you a license?!?
There's a left turn light for a reason!

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It still gets me how medical professionals who are in psych like jobs don't get the difference between active and passive for suicidal things. like come on... sure you just want to experiment as even they know it's just a jiggle with the pills until something works, sometimes just being a placebo effect, and hope the side effects don't harm too much all while probably getting a massive kickback from the onsite pharmacies.

But it's not a hard concept to understand 'I sometimes think of killing myself' and 'I have a plan and aren't going to see next monday'
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I discovered today that yelling at drivers isn't road rage if you're a good driver, and the other person's an idiot.


Seriously... you have a green light, and this person is waving others to turn left in front of us because they want to be nice, then we have to sit at another red light, then we get another green, and they wave another though, then they go, and then they're going under the speed limit, and people try to pass...
like who gave you a license?!?
There's a left turn light for a reason!

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It still gets me how medical professionals who are in psych like jobs don't get the difference between active and passive for suicidal things. like come on... sure you just want to experiment as even they know it's just a jiggle with the pills until something works, sometimes just being a placebo effect, and hope the side effects don't harm too much all while probably getting a massive kickback from the onsite pharmacies.

But it's not a hard concept to understand 'I sometimes think of killing myself' and 'I have a plan and aren't going to see next monday'
Yeah, she still thinks I need to be in the hospital
 
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Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Yeah, she still thinks I need to be in the hospital
She's an idiot. There's nothing a hospital can do for passive thoughts at all. But oh well, sadly what we believe and know will never help
 
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