The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Backwood_tilt]

you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.

 

[Jean4]

Night 3. Trying to go back to sleep

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Morning everybody. Sorry I'm not posting as much recently, I'm feeling low on emotional energy recently. How's everybody doing?

@Squiddy glad you managed to keep your freedom. Involuntary anything just sucks, and I don't see anything wrong if you lie to doctors as long as you feel better yourself - they are your means to a better life, and that's it.

@Jean4 hope you get to sleep at last

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Yeah I will. What was ridiculous is I didn't even say I had a plan. I just said I was a little more suicidal and its "oh! We need to hospitalize her!" ...I'll be avoiding trigger words like "worse" and "active"

Replace them with "better", "healing", and "recovery" instead.

you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.

It's honestly best not to say anything unless you think the "help" they provide can benefit you. For most of us here that sort of help is more detrimental then anything.

 

[MysticPerception]

Night 3. Trying to go back to sleep

Stan is sleeping on the job non stop right now. Well good luck getting back to sleep at least.

Speaking of which I'm going to bed. I wasn't that active today as I went out to dinner with my family and then with my brother and his friend as he was visiting and I only see him once a year these days. Probably the last time I'm ever going to see him in person so it at least that went well. A nice memory to have for when I finally go out. Anyway, sleep time. Gonna bump Stan's thread and go to bed. Night everyone.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Made some phone calls. Got what I need to leave right now. I know it's because I'm mourning. Hiding this shit from myself while I'm drunk and hoping I forget where I put it.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

Have a good night, @MysticPerception.

 

[Jean4]

Ugh. Night 3. Back to sleep

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

I just got off work and I have another shift in an hour and a half.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

What the absolute fuck. Hospital just called and they want me to go on a roughly 200km (one way) quest!
No info beyond.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

What the absolute fuck. Hospital just called and they want me to go on a roughly 200km (one way) quest!
No info beyond.

Hopefully, you're not picking up a cooler full of kidneys =P

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I guess I do still have insomnia when I forget my meds..

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Hopefully, you're not picking up a cooler full of kidneys =P

Nope. But they did decide to move my neuropsychology eval to a less comfortable hospital a good hundred km from me. It wouldn't be much of a problem if I could drive. I cannot.
At this rate I might actually bounce by to collect a cooler of kidneys, though under different context.
At this rate I might actually bounce by to collect a cooler of kidneys, though under different context.

 

[Carina]

I wokeup but tired. Probably because of thepills.

Totally not liking forward to theother pc swap thing as it could easily cause me to drop another network line. Re organize a desk and everything. It'll inconvience the user. But some things should run drastically quicker just odd thing might not work at all in win 10 because it's so old.

 

[Jean4]

Day 3 no sleep. Let's see if we can get through the day. No point of trying some more.

 

[Squiddy]

you can say you experience suicidal ideation but you are not actively planning to harm yourself. That usually works for me.

Usually that works for me too. My mistake was saying it was getting worse so next time I won't say it's getting worse, I'll just saying I'm having it, but it's not that bad.

 

[Jean4]

Day 3 no sleep
Apple Cider Vinegar
Shower & brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes (maybe)
Real job work

 

[Squiddy]

On my way to my old college so I can get my official transcripts

 

[Carina]

Day 3 no sleep
Apple Cider Vinegar
Shower & brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes (maybe)
Real job work

Shame sleep didn't work into that instead of no sleep

 

[Jean4]

Apple cider vinegar in. Coffee made. Back in bed.

 

[Apathy79]

This made me laugh way too much. I'm going to hell.

 

[Jean4]

 

[Squiddy]

Finished mailing my transcripts to colleges. Now to play some video games on campus til 12
UPDATE: My nurse just called me and asked me why I wasn't in the hospital and i told her because I was passive suicidal and not active.

 

[Jean4]

Showered and brushed my teeth. Back in bed. Asthma will be CRAP today. Reasoning: day 3 no sleep. At least I know why.

PASSIVE (in honor of @Squiddy SI.) That is up from none yesterday. That will increase unless I sleep.

Bright spot. I know why I will decomprnsate. Lack of sleep.

 

[Squiddy]

Then she asked why I wasn't in group and i had to tell her I was going to my college

 

[Jean4]

Then she asked why I wasn't in group and i had to tell her I was going to my college

That's a reasonable question. I would have asked the same thing if you didn't tell us.

 

[Squiddy]

That's a reasonable question. I would have asked the same thing if you didn't tell us.

True :) currently playing video games right now

 

[Carina]

I discovered today that yelling at drivers isn't road rage if you're a good driver, and the other person's an idiot.


Seriously... you have a green light, and this person is waving others to turn left in front of us because they want to be nice, then we have to sit at another red light, then we get another green, and they wave another though, then they go, and then they're going under the speed limit, and people try to pass...
like who gave you a license?!?
There's a left turn light for a reason!

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It still gets me how medical professionals who are in psych like jobs don't get the difference between active and passive for suicidal things. like come on... sure you just want to experiment as even they know it's just a jiggle with the pills until something works, sometimes just being a placebo effect, and hope the side effects don't harm too much all while probably getting a massive kickback from the onsite pharmacies.

But it's not a hard concept to understand 'I sometimes think of killing myself' and 'I have a plan and aren't going to see next monday'

 

[Squiddy]

I discovered today that yelling at drivers isn't road rage if you're a good driver, and the other person's an idiot.


Seriously... you have a green light, and this person is waving others to turn left in front of us because they want to be nice, then we have to sit at another red light, then we get another green, and they wave another though, then they go, and then they're going under the speed limit, and people try to pass...
like who gave you a license?!?
There's a left turn light for a reason!

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It still gets me how medical professionals who are in psych like jobs don't get the difference between active and passive for suicidal things. like come on... sure you just want to experiment as even they know it's just a jiggle with the pills until something works, sometimes just being a placebo effect, and hope the side effects don't harm too much all while probably getting a massive kickback from the onsite pharmacies.

But it's not a hard concept to understand 'I sometimes think of killing myself' and 'I have a plan and aren't going to see next monday'

Yeah, she still thinks I need to be in the hospital

 

[Carina]

Yeah, she still thinks I need to be in the hospital

She's an idiot. There's nothing a hospital can do for passive thoughts at all. But oh well, sadly what we believe and know will never help