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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
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I personally feel like crucifixion is better though, i mean, you get to take in some fresh air, enjoy the sun, and maybe if you're lucky some fellow crucified friend will sing a nice song about looking on the bright side of life !
 
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kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
I personally feel like crucifixion is better though, i mean, you get to take in some fresh air, enjoy the sun, and maybe if you're lucky some fellow crucified friend will sing a nice song about looking on the bright side of life !
Hahahaha!!! Oh god, monty python will never die
 
claracatchingthebus

claracatchingthebus

Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
Jun 22, 2025
146


there are online programs to become a vet tech, and then you could become a veterinarian. just mentioning it
 
kingfool316

kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179


there are online programs to become a vet tech, and then you could become a veterinarian. just mentioning it
I appreciate it. I really do, but i just don't have any more will to move on
 
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PureEndless

PureEndless

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Jul 11, 2025
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I'm hoping it's not so bad. I tried once a long time ago, and blacked out when I stepped off the chair but the cable snapped. I woke up on the floor, not sure how long I was out.

In recent times, I've played around with it. If you get the right position, you can start to faint.

But I haven't fully gone for it. I've said "whoa.....if I don't step back on the chair, it's over".

So I step back.

My hardest issue is SI. And wondering if I can really make life work....

And worrying, is the rope actually bad? So far, it seems not. Then I watched some videos.

How can we know what they're experiencing?

But then some say they experience nothing.
 
kingfool316

kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
Hey guys! I am gonna go try again today. I had bought stronger rope this time. And i barely slept at all. And my anxiety and depression combined with exhaustion, i hope its enough to finally end my life
 
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kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
I may have to reschedule until maybe tomorrow or wednesday. my last failure really fucked me up. my throat still hurts and I think it also affected my internal organs.
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

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Apr 21, 2025
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I may have to reschedule until maybe tomorrow or wednesday. my last failure really fucked me up. my throat still hurts and I think it also affected my internal organs.
it's important to rest up!!! it's scary that it might've messed up your internal organs. do you know what hurts?
 
kingfool316

kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
it's important to rest up!!! it's scary that it might've messed up your internal organs. do you know what hurts?
thanks for worrying. It maybe my kidneys since i always pee dark yellow even just drinking water and nothing else. also i want the insomnia so I can sleep through the hanging over lol.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
439
thanks for worrying. It maybe my kidneys since i always pee dark yellow even just drinking water and nothing else. also i want the insomnia so I can sleep through the hanging over lol.
Do you think it would be a good idea to seek medical care, like at a walk in clinic? My concern is your next attempt failing and you having to live with lasting effects of whatever is going wrong rn.
 
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CrownRoyal

Member
May 19, 2025
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Best of luck with everything, I hope it works out.
 
kingfool316

kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
Do you think it would be a good idea to seek medical care, like at a walk in clinic? My concern is your next attempt failing and you having to live with lasting effects of whatever is going wrong rn.
Thanks for tge concern but i will succeed next time
UPDATE: hey guys, i said i would ctb this wednesday, but some things happened. I almost got caught with my suicide letters. I got so scared that i didn't dare visit here. Right now, i have a new plan. I am going to do it tomorrow very early. Around 5 am. I'll barely sleep at all since last time exhaustion actually helped me. And since i'll be dead, sleep will be all i'm doing anyway lol. I will go under the excuse of taking an early walk. Afterwards back to my spot and enjoy the last few hours i have. Then you know whats next. I'll update everything on that day. So for now goodbye guys
 
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kingfool316

Meaninglesslife
Sep 13, 2024
179
I couldn't do it. I don't know why. I was so ready last time, but today i just didn't feel the same. I might do it again on monday but i just don't know
 

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