Story The moment that killed me inside

[IJustWantToDie21]

I remember it like it was yesterday, but it wasn't, I have spent years with this shit in my head, and never told anyone no matter how much it weighs me down. I think I'm ready to let it out. So it happened in my freshman year of highschool, I decided to do wrestling. Later I realized this would be the worst mistake of my life. One day during wrestling practice we were working on a drill that involves having your arm very close to your opponents neck. So when my wrestling partner took me down too the ground, he put his arm around my neck, and squeezed. As he was squeezing, I was losing oxygen, and I tried to tap out. But as I was actively trying to get out, he just kept saying "if you tap out you only get weaker bitch". I struggled to breath for the next 3 months, and he just fucked me up more, I got kicked to the ground, punched, whipped with belts, choked, robbed, etc. I tried to kill myself, and that's how I got to where I am now. Please don't make a big deal of it, this by itself is hard enough to get out

 

[ApparentlyNot]

You've carried this completely on your own for years, and I won't make a big deal of it, but I'll just say I respect you a lot for being able to write this down and be vulnerable. Especially knowing the abuse you have faced for being marked and targeted as "weak." You aren't; the person who did this to you is weak. None of this is a reflection of who YOU are, none of this was your fault.

 

[lobsterbisque]

Same as above really)trying to not make a big deal out of it). I'm glad you finally got it out

 

[Alexandra_]

The truly horrible things that happened to us, we will always remember, until the end of our days, as if it was yesterday. I am glad that you said this, it is very difficult to carry pain inside. I would like to support you, we are with you, you are not alone. And that "person" who bullied you, I hope, gets what he deserves