Venting The Mask Is Slipping, And I’m Afraid

[CentreMid]

I'm usually able to put on a brave face so nobody knows about my suicidality, but I'm not sure I have enough energy to keep up the facade today. I can't even call in sick to work as I've used all of my sick days due to having covid earlier in the year. Days like this have becoming increasingly more common as of late, and it worries me because I don't want anyone around me to know. I want to scream. I just want to die.

 

[dwindlingfirst]

I'm usually able to put on a brave face so nobody knows about my suicidality, but I'm not sure I have enough energy to keep up the facade today. I can't even call in sick to work as I've used all of my sick days due to having covid earlier in the year. Days like this have becoming increasingly more common as of late, and it worries me because I don't want anyone around me to know. I want to scream. I just want to die.

Me too. I've just given up acting happy and now I've had a couple people tell me I looked sad, but no one really seems to care anyway. That just adds to another reason for me to ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound really tiring what you have to go through, I hate how we exist in a world where suicide isn't accepted as a valid option, the secrecy surrounding wanting to die just leads to more suffering. It's really understandable just wishing to be gone, I get that it's awful feeling trapped here when you really don't wish to be.

 

[nightshade00]

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I can relate; my overall mental condition has been quickly deteriorating, and I fear people will start to notice as it becomes harder to hide.

 

[Letgo]

all of you will be on my thoughts. I am going through the same as well.