Venting The man I love doesn't love me back

[nux_walpurgis]

He is my best friend and the only person I would ever want to spend my whole life with. I cannot talk to him about because I don't want to lose his friendship.

Lately I have been getting signs he doesn't feel the same. Suicidal ideation is now back. I am feverishly planning my exit. I don't want to be a failure in life, with no husband, no family, no friends, forever dependent on my parents who destroyed me.

I rather die than be alone.

 

[GawkingOnIt]

The same happened with me except I moved on from the first time (not really), and now it's happening again. I've just been here trying to be in isolation even though I know that's the wrong answer, it makes me feel alone but also content that I don't really need anyone.