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I will face my fate.
- Jun 16, 2024
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I keep moving forward. One step after the other.
I don't know where I am going, or how things will end.
I look into the mirror. There is a strange look in my eyes.
My pupils are like black holes. A silent, all-consuming abyss.
I keep going as if there's nothing wrong at all.
It's not like anyone will notice anyway. They never do.
And so, I thought, I should just try to live the way they do. Perhaps if I did, I could become like them.
Every day I must try. One foot in front of the other. Keep going, and don't stop no matter what.
But the abyss in my eyes stares back at me every time I see my reflection. It is silent, but the message is clear. There is no way out for me. I can try my best to live as a normal person, but I know deep in my heart, I can never be like them.
In the end though, I still have to keep pretending.
No one must ever know just how much I crave death.
When I ask myself why I feel this way, the abyss in my eyes answers. The reason is obvious.
You can keep pretending. You can keep lying. But at the end of the day, you will never be able to show anyone what you really are.
Don't you remember what happened the last time you showed your true self? You dug your claws into a kind soul and tried to drown them in your despair in an attempt to pull yourself out. You are nothing more than a parasite that feeds off the warmth of others. Just how many more people do you plan to hurt before you accept your fate? So go ahead, keep walking the path of normalcy. But don't you dare forget just what you are. A person like you deserves to live and die alone. So stop trying to fight it.
I stare into the abyss. There is nothing left to say. I know all too well that every word that has been spoken is true.
And so I'll keep walking down the path, one foot in front of the other. I'll wear the best smile you'll ever see, and you will never know the reason why. For if I falter for even a moment, you might sense something is wrong. You might try to help me again, and I would only end up hurting you. I don't want to hurt you. So despite it all I will keep smiling.
I don't know where I am going, or how things will end.
I look into the mirror. There is a strange look in my eyes.
My pupils are like black holes. A silent, all-consuming abyss.
I keep going as if there's nothing wrong at all.
It's not like anyone will notice anyway. They never do.
And so, I thought, I should just try to live the way they do. Perhaps if I did, I could become like them.
Every day I must try. One foot in front of the other. Keep going, and don't stop no matter what.
But the abyss in my eyes stares back at me every time I see my reflection. It is silent, but the message is clear. There is no way out for me. I can try my best to live as a normal person, but I know deep in my heart, I can never be like them.
In the end though, I still have to keep pretending.
No one must ever know just how much I crave death.
When I ask myself why I feel this way, the abyss in my eyes answers. The reason is obvious.
You can keep pretending. You can keep lying. But at the end of the day, you will never be able to show anyone what you really are.
Don't you remember what happened the last time you showed your true self? You dug your claws into a kind soul and tried to drown them in your despair in an attempt to pull yourself out. You are nothing more than a parasite that feeds off the warmth of others. Just how many more people do you plan to hurt before you accept your fate? So go ahead, keep walking the path of normalcy. But don't you dare forget just what you are. A person like you deserves to live and die alone. So stop trying to fight it.
I stare into the abyss. There is nothing left to say. I know all too well that every word that has been spoken is true.
And so I'll keep walking down the path, one foot in front of the other. I'll wear the best smile you'll ever see, and you will never know the reason why. For if I falter for even a moment, you might sense something is wrong. You might try to help me again, and I would only end up hurting you. I don't want to hurt you. So despite it all I will keep smiling.
