The Last Week

[lamy's sacred sleep]

I'm hoping to ctb this week.
I dunno my life feels anticlimatic, but I'm glad that it will be over soon.

I think jumping will be hard, but it's 6 seconds of falling vs the rest of my life. So it's not too hard a decision. I hope I'll get past SI though.
I kinda want to do something this week,(I want to shirk all responsibilities) but if I do anything out of the ordinary then people might get curious and I don't have a good excuse. It's fine.
I'm feeling melancholic but also relief. I'm tired.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope that you find peace soon. It's been nice interacting with you and seeing your posts whilst you were here but I hope that your transition to non existence happens as peacefully as possible

 

[APeacefulPlace]

SI is a beyond difficult struggle. I hope you find everything you're looking for lamy

 

[coffeebeany]

I'm hoping to ctb this week.
I dunno my life feels anticlimatic, but I'm glad that it will be over soon.

I think jumping will be hard, but it's 6 seconds of falling vs the rest of my life. So it's not too hard a decision. I hope I'll get past SI though.
I kinda want to do something this week,(I want to shirk all responsibilities) but if I do anything out of the ordinary then people might get curious and I don't have a good excuse. It's fine.
I'm feeling melancholic but also relief. I'm tired.

I m sorry you are feeling this way. If you don't mind me asking, what do you mean by anticlimactic? Is this your reason for ctb?

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

I m sorry you are feeling this way. If you don't mind me asking, what do you mean by anticlimactic? Is this your reason for ctb?

it's not my reason.
I dunno, when I was younger I believed that if I was going to ctb then I would "go out with a bang".
I've accepted it now, that i'm just gonna have a normal week and then I'll be free.
As long as I stay silent and don't tell anyone.
I really want to express to people, my final thoughts and words, but I'll have to make do with a note.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel tired of suffering in this existence, I hope you find peace.