The hardest part about dying

[Ramirez]

The hardest part for me is knowing when it will potentially happen. Didn't bother me too much when I abused alcohol with Xanax to the point where I would be completely fucked up and pass out. Even tho alot of ppl said it's dangerous it didn't cause me any anxiety I just thought I wanted to die anyway. But knowing when my next attempt will be makes it sooo much harder. It would be so much easier if I did t know it until it happens like if I were a soldier or some shit. So I wouldn't know exactly when it happens just that it will ya know what I mean. Whatever just some drunk thoughts I have

 

[Darkhaven]

That's when SI levels get through the roof.
Don't know how i will fare against it but i just need to remember why i m gonna do it, what remaining alive means to me and thankfully just thinking on that should be enough to keep my SI at bay.

 

[Rachel74]

That's when SI levels get through the roof.
Don't know how i will fare against it but i just need to remember why i m gonna do it, what remaining alive means to me and thankfully just thinking on that should be enough to keep my SI at bay.

SI is my problem and still would be with N. I haven't the courage to drink it as I'm afraid of what's around the corner?

 

[Darkhaven]

SI is my problem and still would be with N. I haven't the courage to drink it as I'm afraid of what's around the corner?

N makes everything a lot easier. Still it's always difficult.
But when you refer to what's "around the corner" do you mean the after life or the process of dying?

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I try to tell myself that we all will die no matter how much you want to live. I see CTB as a cutting to the chase. No more pain or crap this life can throw at me. I don't believe we have anything to fear about death. We simply go back to wherever we came from before this painful life. Could be seen as an exciting new adventure even.

 

[trynacbt]

OP, I suggest you change your profile pic for ~anonymity~

I'm not afraid of death. What I'm afraid of is living.