Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
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I often reluctantly admit on here that if I'm suicidal today, it's essentially because I never got over the person who broke my heart 10 years ago when I was a teenager.
So I went to a spa with my cousins for the first time in months and posted a pic of me on my Instagram (I never post of IG, ever. I HATE and DESpISE social media). But I did. And that person suddenly sent me a message and I ignored ored it and he kept complimenting my "glow up".
I'm never going down that road again. I'm ready to jump from a pond or something but I'm so disgusted that he even dare to speak to me. How dare he? How dare he? How dare he? How dare he? HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW dare he? He is the reason I'm a complete mess of a human. I became asexual and anti love because of him. I never wanted anything to do with human feelings. How dare he talk to me after all these years?
When he KNOWS how I feel and he KNOWS that he doesn't feel the same and will never feel the same towards me. He si.ply loves the attention, what a monster. This is pure evil. Pure evil. People who are nice to you and make you feel special when they know that they don't want to anything more are just so cruel. So cruel. I wish he'd just leave me alone. I'm not up to his standards and I know that, I don't want to be friends. I want to be left alone. I want him to leave me alone but I know I'll end up answering his texts and I should just kill myself now honestly.
So I went to a spa with my cousins for the first time in months and posted a pic of me on my Instagram (I never post of IG, ever. I HATE and DESpISE social media). But I did. And that person suddenly sent me a message and I ignored ored it and he kept complimenting my "glow up".
I'm never going down that road again. I'm ready to jump from a pond or something but I'm so disgusted that he even dare to speak to me. How dare he? How dare he? How dare he? How dare he? HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW dare he? He is the reason I'm a complete mess of a human. I became asexual and anti love because of him. I never wanted anything to do with human feelings. How dare he talk to me after all these years?
When he KNOWS how I feel and he KNOWS that he doesn't feel the same and will never feel the same towards me. He si.ply loves the attention, what a monster. This is pure evil. Pure evil. People who are nice to you and make you feel special when they know that they don't want to anything more are just so cruel. So cruel. I wish he'd just leave me alone. I'm not up to his standards and I know that, I don't want to be friends. I want to be left alone. I want him to leave me alone but I know I'll end up answering his texts and I should just kill myself now honestly.
