Venting feeling like ive been backstabbed

[lixiane]

im so tired of everything. i started getting so much better but everything went downhill when i found out my friend has been talking with her ex boyfriend, who happens to be the guy who had harassed me for a year straight not too long ago. The same guy who would make fun of me and humiliate me, the one who laid his hands on me and is the reason why i still struggle to bite into foods a year and a half since he knocked up my teeth with his fist. the same guy who hit me on my birthday just so that i would remember his abuse every single year. it made me fall back into my depression to hear how my own close friend could betray me like that. i forgave her for still being with him after he did that to me, i forgave her for crying to me when he got into legal trouble for hitting me (like, why wouldnt he?).. i forgave and put it behind me. but now she wants to befriend him again? even the mention of this situation again has made me retract away from all my friends and makes me wanna lock myself in my room and cry just like i did when he humiliated me like that. im so tired. no one understands that i still carry that pain with me everyday. that hes all i can remember every year on my birthday. i just wish my friends didnt act in a way that makes me feel like they despise me

 

[DeletedUser108474]

I understand that pain and would isolate myself in a situation like that. I wouldn't want to be a part of those people. Pride? Probably. It's painful I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

 

[lixiane]

I understand that pain and would isolate myself in a situation like that. I wouldn't want to be a part of those people. Pride? Probably. It's painful I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

thank you so much. i have put distance between me and her and try not to talk to her if can be helped : )