burninghill
Student
- Dec 2, 2025
- 110
A post of mine I made about double suicides has resurged and it got me thinking about one of a few times where I'd tried to commit a double suicide.
I met this girl sometime late last year and she'd survived a double suicide attempt with someone she was really close with just a few months before and was desperate to try again.
We spoke about it a reasonable amount. She was ready to book a plane ticket from America that day. I just couldn't get past the idea that she wanted to be held during it, that was the only reason she wanted a partner. I couldn't be there for her in that way emotionally, and the thought of being a 'second choice' (in terms of her recently surviving with a different partner) just didn't feel right for me either.
I told her I'd think about it, but that she shouldn't wait on me.
Sometimes I really regret not going with her. Maybe if I had someone there to hold me accountable then I'd have finally done it. Not that it matters now, but I was attracted to her too. She was so pretty, I'd have liked to really get to know her more if we weren't both in the positions we were at the time. I ended up attempting suicide myself a few days after her planned date.
It really makes me sick to think about, I didn't really know her that well but maybe we could've done something great together.
I met this girl sometime late last year and she'd survived a double suicide attempt with someone she was really close with just a few months before and was desperate to try again.
We spoke about it a reasonable amount. She was ready to book a plane ticket from America that day. I just couldn't get past the idea that she wanted to be held during it, that was the only reason she wanted a partner. I couldn't be there for her in that way emotionally, and the thought of being a 'second choice' (in terms of her recently surviving with a different partner) just didn't feel right for me either.
I told her I'd think about it, but that she shouldn't wait on me.
Sometimes I really regret not going with her. Maybe if I had someone there to hold me accountable then I'd have finally done it. Not that it matters now, but I was attracted to her too. She was so pretty, I'd have liked to really get to know her more if we weren't both in the positions we were at the time. I ended up attempting suicide myself a few days after her planned date.
It really makes me sick to think about, I didn't really know her that well but maybe we could've done something great together.
