Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
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I am in an extremely serious situation.
Something was supposed to happen many years ago. There was a fork in the road and the ideal option that I was supposed to take, let's call it Option A, didn't seem reachable. So I ended up choosing option B.
The problem is, there was no real Option B. It was supposed to be my suicide.
When I couldn't mentally summon the qualities needed for option A, I got the sinking feeling that I would have to choose Option B. As sad I was, I readied myself to undergo option B. But I was mistaken in overestimating the ease of suicide.
Now I face a terrible future. One that is incredibly problematic and with no hope of a better life. If only suicide was easier, I would be gone tonight without the slightest hesitation.
Something was supposed to happen many years ago. There was a fork in the road and the ideal option that I was supposed to take, let's call it Option A, didn't seem reachable. So I ended up choosing option B.
The problem is, there was no real Option B. It was supposed to be my suicide.
When I couldn't mentally summon the qualities needed for option A, I got the sinking feeling that I would have to choose Option B. As sad I was, I readied myself to undergo option B. But I was mistaken in overestimating the ease of suicide.
Now I face a terrible future. One that is incredibly problematic and with no hope of a better life. If only suicide was easier, I would be gone tonight without the slightest hesitation.