The cops are driving me to the psych ward as we speak.

[Anxieyote]

I am sitting in the backseat, and they have allowed me to have my phone after searching my bag for weapons. They disposed of my razor (I was just going to use it to shave).

I feel scared beyond anything I've ever felt before. Both the hospital and the cops did a lot of assessing to see if I was threat, which made me feel like a criminal.

I spent 30 hours prior to this in the ER, simply lying on a cot with nothing to do but stare at the wall and sleep while they spent an agonizing length of time processing me for the mental health facility. I begged for my phone a few times, but I got the HAL 9000 response of "I am sorry, David. I cannot do that." from all of the hospital NPCs.

I feel like a rabbit who has been cornered by a bunch of predators. My eyes are darting around, and I can barely form any sentences to anyone who talks to me.

Wish me luck friends, this is difficult. They may take my phone away once I'm at the facility, but I'll be back in 5 days. Thank you all for being nice when I have been on this forum. I have been thinking of all of you while I'm going through this.

 

[souljah222]

this sounds horrible. if you can still read this i wish you strenght and hope you will be free soon, stay strong

 

[Chockles]

I hope you are coping. I'm sorry you are in this situation. Stay strong. Wishing you a soeexy return home x

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you the best. Stay strong. Make sure to delete s.s. from your phone.

 

[rs929]

It sucks, but I guess they have the intention of taking care of you. I hope they find a way to make you better
Hugs

 

[motel rooms]

Cops?? Isn't this a voluntary psych ward stay?

 

[Shadowplay]

Cops?? Isn't this a voluntary psych ward stay?

Could the police still be called?

 

[motel rooms]

Could the police still be called?

So unnecessary & humiliating to involve the cops

 

[Anxieyote]

Cops?? Isn't this a voluntary psych ward stay?

Yeah, but they told me that a lot of the people who get admitted for suicidal tendencies are belligerent and aggressive, so they have cops take care of transport. I was very careful with my movements while I was entering the vehicle, because I could tell the cop was deliberately positioning himself and watching me in case I tried anything. I have been treated as a threat by the hospital staff as well, who took all of my belongings away and put barriers around my cot. A person was also stationed to watch me 24/7 while I was in the ER, and it was very uncomfortable. With every slight movement I made, they would say, "Can I get you anything?" I knew I was being watched like a hawk. Maybe it was because I mentioned I heard voices as well, idk. Could be different depending on the state, but I probably shouldn't mention what state I live in on this forum.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Oh man I am so sorry, that's horrible. I hope you make it through okay, and don't panic. If you need a med to relax they can probably give you that.

If you don't mind sharing please let us know what tipped them off, like why were they called? Was it you or someone else?

 

[Pure]

Damn I'm so sorry. I've been there before. I hate that they involve cops jfc.

 

[Anxieyote]

Oh man I am so sorry, that's horrible. I hope you make it through okay, and don't panic. If you need a med to relax they can probably give you that.

If you don't mind sharing please let us know what tipped them off, like why were they called? Was it you or someone else?

It was voluntary, after I had a catastrophic dissociative episode that made me question my sanity. So as bad as it feels, I felt desperate enough to initiate the process. It took a lot of courage because I read about all the awful experiences other people have had, but I didn't know where else to go. I called a local mental health center, and they initiated the ER room visit for me.

 

[whywere]

My heart broke when i read your post. I hope that everything goes smoothly for you and you get out in the 5 day time frame.

You are a kind person and i send you lots of hugs, love and caring, as I have been there before myself, in the hospital.

You are a awesome and beautiful soul whom I call a good friend.

My nest to you.

Walter

 

[cactus]

Stay Strong

 

[Rogue Proxy]

I'm sorry they sicced the cops on you and the heartless, criminalizing treatment they gave you, especially since you voluntarily agreed to be hospitalized. I understand that vulnerable, predated feeling when interacting with cops and white coats. They can be most dangerous, unempathetic, and even cruelest types of humans to deal with, especially during times of distress. I know its a long shot, but I hope the mental health enforcers don't fuck up your mind.

 

[Toonloon]

I'm sorry they treated you like that. I hope you are treated better from here on.

 

[Anxieyote]

I'm sorry they sicced the cops on you and the heartless, criminalizing treatment they gave you, especially since you voluntarily agreed to be hospitalized. I understand that vulnerable, predated feeling when interacting with cops and white coats. They can be most dangerous, unempathetic, and even cruelest types of humans to deal with, especially during times of distress. I know its a long shot, but I hope the mental health enforcers don't fuck up your mind.

Updating you from the facility at my designated "phone time" (about an hour between 9:30-10:30am).

I regret to say that you guys were right. I don't have time to describe what it's like, but I will make a full post when I get back. Maybe things will change, I don't know. Maybe the group therapies and things are so magically effective and I just don't know it yet, but so far it is like being in a dystopian novel.

I have been stripped of all items, and am forced to engage in activities that are designated by the program. They design your entire day. If I keep talking about it I will cry, and I find that right now it is best to just shut my brain off and go with the flow.

 

[fox_wannabe]

go with the flow.

Go with It and give up. Relax and just not resist. It will pass much faster.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really stressful what you have been through. I'm sorry you have been treated like that by them. I wish you the best.

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

I am sitting in the backseat, and they have allowed me to have my phone after searching my bag for weapons. They disposed of my razor (I was just going to use it to shave).

I feel scared beyond anything I've ever felt before. Both the hospital and the cops did a lot of assessing to see if I was threat, which made me feel like a criminal.

I spent 30 hours prior to this in the ER, simply lying on a cot with nothing to do but stare at the wall and sleep while they spent an agonizing length of time processing me for the mental health facility. I begged for my phone a few times, but I got the HAL 9000 response of "I am sorry, David. I cannot do that." from all of the hospital NPCs.

I feel like a rabbit who has been cornered by a bunch of predators. My eyes are darting around, and I can barely form any sentences to anyone who talks to me.

Wish me luck friends, this is difficult. They may take my phone away once I'm at the facility, but I'll be back in 5 days. Thank you all for being nice when I have been on this forum. I have been thinking of all of you while I'm going through this.

I'm so so sorry. This is my worst nightmare. Still trying to figure a way out of it myself. Forced psychiatry is incredibly wrong. Some of the reports released on how they don't even follow their own basic safeguards or respect the few rights they afford involuntary patients enrage me. Barbaric.

 

[ChobaniFlipSmores]

I've started to learn how to pick locks. It seems like a valuable skill to have if I get sent to inpatient.

 

[chicken neck]

Yeah, but they told me that a lot of the people who get admitted for suicidal tendencies are belligerent and aggressive, so they have cops take care of transport.

Sorry I might have played a part in this lol

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

This kind of "help" is why I don't trust society.