Venting The clock is ticking

[Johnzaga23]

My parents are gonna find soon that I was lying to them, and everything is gonna change drastically. I don't wanna face the embarrasment of my actions or rather inactions and see the dissapointment in their faces. Im contemplating leaving as soon as possible. I dont know if im gonna be alive tommorow even. anything is possible.

edit: they found out and theyre calling me. im didnt awnser

 

[weldermike]

Don't do nothing stupid over a lie/ embarrassment, suicide for me is something you feel over a long period of time.

 

[Johnzaga23]

Don't do nothing stupid over a lie/ embarrassment, suicide for me is something you feel over a long period of time.

ive been feeling this over a long period of time. Its not just that my parents would be dissapointed in me. Me myself im dissapointed of myself. I hate my own ass for what ive become. I cannot bear my existance

 

[Johnzaga23]

I blew my cover guys. They keep calling me im in trouble

 

[areyousafe??]

What did they find out?

 

[Johnzaga23]

What did they find out?

that I was lying to them. they dont know im suicidal but the fact that I reject their calls worries them.