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Bruceleelives1969

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Jun 19, 2019
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The sicker I get with my illness the more that I want to CTB. Who feels the same way?
 
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Nov 19, 2019
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I do. All the time.
I've been in treatment and on medication for 3 years. Even on disability due to it... I'm just done with it. So done. I'm so tired of having to wake up and take a bunch of pills to somewhat function. The only thing stopping me from ending it is waiting for the materials. I've written all my goodbye letters. I've made peace with my departure.
 
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Bruceleelives1969

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Jun 19, 2019
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I do. All the time.
I've been in treatment and on medication for 3 years. Even on disability due to it... I'm just done with it. So done. I'm so tired of having to wake up and take a bunch of pills to somewhat function. The only thing stopping me from ending it is waiting for the materials. I've written all my goodbye letters. I've made peace with my departure.
What do you have?
 
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Nov 19, 2019
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What do you have?

Bipolar 2 / MDD / PTSD / Anxiety, as well as Agorphobia.
As for physical ailments, I deal with a few autoimmune diseases that cause chronic fatigue and hives. I've had to follow a special diet in attempt to keep my flareups in check, but my flareups are very much in sync with my mental health, which is never stable.
 
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Apr 28, 2019
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Bipolar 2 / MDD / PTSD / Anxiety, as well as Agorphobia.
As for physical ailments, I deal with a few autoimmune diseases that cause chronic fatigue and hives. I've had to follow a special diet in attempt to keep my flareups in check, but my flareups are very much in sync with my mental health, which is never stable.
Have you tried medical marijuana?
 
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Moonicide

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Nov 19, 2019
802
Have you tried medical marijuana?
Can't get it here, and my care team would definitely not provide it for me. I had to fight so hard to get Gabapentin for my chronic pain...
Even if I had it it wouldn't change my decision in the end.
 
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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Can't get it here, and my care team would definitely not provide it for me. I had to fight so hard to get Gabapentin for my chronic pain...
Even if I had it it wouldn't change my decision in the end.
I'm sorry that your care team won't provide it. I have many of the same ailments as you. It isn't to change your mind. It helps to make me more comfortable, and with chronic fatigue, it makes me feel more comfortable. I know all about Depression, anxiety, and PTSD. I am a 9/11 First Responder.
 
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