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L.D.50

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Oct 13, 2025
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my mom just texted me a bunch of shit, said "i tried so hard to love you" and I guess she's been unhappy with how I turned out,
maybe i deserve it but needless to say im ready to go. im done
I can't wait to die
 
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iw2begone

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my mom just texted me a bunch of shit, said "i tried so hard to love you" and I guess she's been unhappy with how I turned out,
maybe i deserve it but needless to say im ready to go. im done
I can't wait to die
that's so awful I'm sorry that happened to you, no parent should be able to say that to the child they brought into this world.
 
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plskilme

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Jul 8, 2026
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I'm sorry that happened to you D:
Out of curiosity, how did you handle it?

If that happened to me, I would have responded with some dumb shit that would have gotten me fucked for life.
 
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my mom just texted me a bunch of shit, said "i tried so hard to love you" and I guess she's been unhappy with how I turned out,
maybe i deserve it but needless to say im ready to go. im done
I can't wait to die
my mom made life living hell for me, she abused me, beat me up and didnt let me socialize. Shes one of the many reasons i will cbt
 
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Parents ruin lives. It's true.
 
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plskilme

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Parents ruin lives. It's true.
I was adopted when I was a newborn, and my birth parents ruined my life by having sex when they did. Fuckers should have used protection. My birth father tried to reach out and connect with me when I was like 18 (because he legally could). I wanted absolutely nothing to do with him, but I didn't want to be an asshole about it. So I just brushed it off as I was nervous to meet him and I said "maybe in the future haha" its been 9 years since then and I still have yet to meet the bastard.
 
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L.D.50

someone
Oct 13, 2025
62
I'm sorry that happened to you D:
Out of curiosity, how did you handle it?

If that happened to me, I would have responded with some dumb shit that would have gotten me fucked for life.
blocked her number, I didn't need to hear it anymore. I had already gone back and forth with her over text, she had some drinks, initially it was about some unrelated family issues.but it spiraled into how she hadn't been the mother i needed when I was younger and still isn't.
idk if you ever had the narcissistic + alcoholic "well i guess im just a HORRIBLE mom" as a parent but I kind of blame myself for even trying to have a conversation at all if you know what I mean.
I tried to talk to my brother about it, but he seemed rather indifferent. so I went here.
 
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plskilme

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Jul 8, 2026
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blocked her number, I didn't need to hear it anymore. I had already gone back and forth with her over text, she had some drinks, initially it was about some unrelated family issues.but it spiraled into how she hadn't been the mother i needed when I was younger and still isn't.
idk if you ever had the narcissistic + alcoholic "well i guess im just a HORRIBLE mom" as a parent but I kind of blame myself for even trying to have a conversation at all if you know what I mean.
I tried to talk to my brother about it, but he seemed rather indifferent. so I went here.
Honestly, you handled it better than me. I can't move up past my current position at the shitty dead end job I work at currently, because when people get on my REALLY bad side too many fucking times (which is honestly hard to do, because in recent years I've kinda stopped giving a fuck) and shit talk me I shit talk em back 10x harder to the point where they break down emotionally. If they shit talk me back even harder instead, I shit talk them back until they give up or break down emotionally. I sort of take it too far. 😂 but my philosophy in recent years has been shit talk my friends or me and get owned.

Edit: or I'll subtly troll them in certain ways to make them pissed off. Really depends on the person.
 
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L.D.50

someone
Oct 13, 2025
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my mom made life living hell for me, she abused me, beat me up and didnt let me socialize. Shes one of the many reasons i will cbt
same, but my father mostly. though my mom shares the blame too.

I vividly remember him shoving me as hard as he could in the wall and psychically restraining me there to scare me because I accidentally ate his food once. he liked to hold his gun to his head and say he was gonna kill himself, he never did tho.

I only got out because he ended up in jail and my mom was in the hospital.

all i want is him to stay out of my life, and he was. until not that long ago he showed up at my house, uninvited, with no warning.

apparently no one called the police because he didnt force his way in like we expected so they just let him wait outside.

despite having beat the shit out of my mom multiple times, to the point of broken bones, my mom is now back in contact with him.

everyone has begged her to stop, said that hes not safe to keep around, and all they do is get into screaming matches over the phone, she doesn't care.

its not only affecting her safety, its affecting everyone else's too.

its starting to feel like fucking torture at this point, they feed off each other like parasites.

I should of never been born, its honestly horrible anyone let them start a family, because I've been told they were like this from the start.
 
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Mar 15, 2019
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The longer I'm on this earth, the more and more I hate my parents

While I fully understand no parents usually have bad intentions, they simply just didn't know better before deciding to have children

But damn, the amount of endless suffering and struggle that I'm now forced to endure every single day, just to simply fucking die in the end after all this effort

Is truly a torture on a different level. Its something that only a worst enemy would put you through

I am just so sick of this society. How it promotes having children, and even congratulate people for it, when it should actually be the total opposite
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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my mom just texted me a bunch of shit, said "i tried so hard to love you" and I guess she's been unhappy with how I turned out,
maybe i deserve it but needless to say im ready to go. im done
I can't wait to die
I relate, my mom often told me similar things, you get used to it, but it still hurts. I'm pretty sure she never fully meant it, but it's still awful to tell this to your own child.
I'm sorry, you don't deserve to be treated like that
 

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