Thank you SS

[Infiniteloop]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I have everything planned out to ctb tomorrow.
I feel honoured to be part of this community.
I wanted to get on here one final time to show my appreciation.

Thank your friends, no one will ever understand our pain from the outside. The sad truth is very little people care, until im dead. If my words didn't mean anything when I lived, I do not want my words to mean anything when im gone.

I cut out all my mental health help just this week (e.g. psychiatrist). After 6 years of an uphill battle. Im off of everything completely, after being on meds for years. I tried all my options, over a dozen different medications at times at the highest fda mg doses and i've worked with different therapists over the years.

I can think clearer now, i feel the people that where supposed to help me only pushed me down further, manipulated, patronized me, and forced me into treatment in hospitals only for them to benefit from.

If i survive my attempt, which i do NOT intend to, i will post again unless i become vegetable.

If this IS my last post, goodbye everyone, and thank you for hearing this pathetic sob.

I hope everyone in this beautiful community, finds something or someone that can make their lives a bit more bearable while still around.

If no one has told you. I care about you, you matter, you deserve a hug in your loneliest moments. And you deserve to be respected and loved. And you are beautiful just the way you are no matter what anyone says. You are a gift with beautiful light, the world would be honoured to see one day. Whatever your decision is in this world, i hope you find peace and comfort. I hope that one day you can see yourself in the mirror and see all your beautiful qualities.

 

[Glowarm]

I sincerely hope you find all the peace and comfort and happiness that you deserve. Also, thanks for everything that you said in your post, it was really awesome of you. Take care my friend.

 

[Achlys]

Hope you find whatever it is you seek. Sad that life has led us here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. This life is just so cruel and unfair. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from your pain.

 

[GoingAwayParty]

Good luck to you.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I am sorry that it has come to this point. I hope that you made a well informed decision without pressure or coercion and it is 100% what you truly want to do. Best of luck to you in your chosen path.

 

[Infiniteloop]

I am sorry that it has come to this point. I hope that you made a well informed decision without pressure or coercion and it is 100% what you truly want to do. Best of luck to you in your chosen path.

Yes, there is nothing more beautiful and pure in this world than making a decision with 100% conviction. On the contrary i've been here longer than I should have purely from others decisions/coercion.

I know we don't know each other, but i hope the best for you in whatever path you choose in life.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes, there is nothing more beautiful and pure in this world than making a decision with 100% conviction. On the contrary i've been here longer than I should have purely from others decisions/coercion.

I know we don't know each other, but i hope the best for you in whatever path you choose in life.

I am 100% sure of what I should do and will one day move past my SI and guilt to accomplish it. Thanks for the wishes :)

 

[Infiniteloop]

I am 100% sure of what I should do and will one day move past my SI and guilt to accomplish it. Thanks for the wishes :)

SI and guilt are both really significant forces. And to me sometimes feels harder to battle with these forces than actually being dead. Your welcome kind individual :)

Good luck to you.

Thank you, im gonna need it.

Hope you find whatever it is you seek. Sad that life has led us here.

Thank you, i think i will find it.
Very sad, it makes me happy to know we got each other in this community.

I sincerely hope you find all the peace and comfort and happiness that you deserve. Also, thanks for everything that you said in your post, it was really awesome of you. Take care my friend.

Thank you so much.
Your welcome, i hope i reached at least one person who has had similar battles.

Best wishes, soon hopefully from the other side, kind friend.

 

[eLdus]

If this IS my last post, goodbye everyone, and thank you for hearing this pathetic sob.

You don't sound pathetic you sound amazingly strong. I hope I have as much courage as you when my time comes. Please know you're not alone and we're here with you. Wishing you so much peace.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry I missed you. I hope you are able to find peace.