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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I plan to hang myself sometime today , get this miserable life over with .
All I do is hurt people around me and I'm tired of dealing with this chronic illness I have.
I tried helping as many people on here as I could , and hopefully I've impacted many of you enough to do the same.
If you believe this life has any significance to you then live it if you can't stand to live one more day then do what you will with it.
Everyone dies eventually, death comes for us all its only a matter of time.

Thank you for welcoming me into this community and for giving me a home when no one else would take me and my suicidal behaviors.
I hope all of you find peace and happiness
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I hope you find peace, Blueberry. You will be missed very much.

I wish you much peace and happiness. Either in life or death.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,522
I am so sorry about your situation
hope you find relief from your suffering
sending you love and peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,422
I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Good luck! I hope you find peace! 🫂 :heart:
 
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Ihatemonday

Ihatemonday

Member
May 10, 2025
32
I hope you can find peace, sending a lot of love :heart:
 
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ToTheNeverland

ToTheNeverland

Spaghettification
May 11, 2025
28
Wishing you a peaceful journey.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,513
I understand feeling so tired of suffering, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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karakoltriste

karakoltriste

I hate psychiatry
Apr 30, 2025
259
I plan to hang myself sometime today , get this miserable life over with .
All I do is hurt people around me and I'm tired of dealing with this chronic illness I have.
I tried helping as many people on here as I could , and hopefully I've impacted many of you enough to do the same.
If you believe this life has any significance to you then live it if you can't stand to live one more day then do what you will with it.
Everyone dies eventually, death comes for us all its only a matter of time.

Thank you for welcoming me into this community and for giving me a home when no one else would take me and my suicidal behaviors.
I hope all of you find peace and happiness
I hope you find peace
 
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Dying Opportunity

Dying Opportunity

What looks so strong, so delicate
May 9, 2025
78
I hope you are able to achieve peace
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
159
I wish you all the best , I hope you find peace and rest from this life
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I think I crushed my windpipe I can't breathe correctly. I feel and hit my head , I think I'm going to rest and give it another shot soon.
 
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evanescent_eva

evanescent_eva

valkyrie
May 11, 2025
106
Fuck, I'm sorry for not being here earlier, I just woke up. I just want to wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey, Blueberry. You've suffered far too much, and if you want it, you deserve to have some much-needed rest. I'm grateful to you, and I'll be thinking of you, and I'll be happy for you.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Fuck, I'm sorry for not being here earlier, I just woke up. I just want to wish you nothing but the best of luck on your journey, Blueberry. You've suffered far too much, and if you want it, you deserve to have some much-needed rest. I'm grateful to you, and I'll be thinking of you, and I'll be happy for you.
Why is dying so difficult
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
205
I'm sorry things didn't go as you had hoped. Whatever happens, I wish you all the best and hope you can find relief from your suffering.
Forgive me if I'm being inappropriate, if so, feel free not to reply.
Reading your posts, I saw that you had chosen SN as your method and had even purchased it. If you're comfortable sharing, may I ask what made you change your mind, even though partial suspension isn't always that effective?
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I'm sorry things didn't go as you had hoped. Whatever happens, I wish you all the best and hope you can find relief from your suffering.
Forgive me if I'm being inappropriate, if so, feel free not to reply.
Reading your posts, I saw that you had chosen SN as your method and had even purchased it. If you're comfortable sharing, may I ask what made you change your mind, even though partial suspension isn't always that effective?
My ex girlfriend convinced me to throw it out after I took some and ended up surviving.

I might just get some more if I can't get my hanging correct.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,195
you're in my thoughts. i'm sorry all this is happening. please try to take care of yourself the best you can. 🫂🫂🫂 here if you wanna talk friend.
 
semio

semio

Im in a good mood, so good, I'ma kill that spider
Jun 3, 2025
18
Be safe in your travels and know the help you have put into the world is important. If you still are around and need anything I can be here for you.
 

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