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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
88
tell me the best part of your day, the worst, and a random thought. trying to distract myself
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,706
An odd thing, that sticks in my mind.

Last night I dreamed that my phone's screen got smashed up so bad that it was unusable. Just a dream, thought nothing of it. Today I went to the mall and when I sat on a bench, noticed someone lost their phone--with a totally cracked, ruined screen. I turned it in to the customer service desk; hope they get their phone back.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
75
best part: i got drunk at 10:35am and smashed a whole pizza
worst part: i woke up today
random thought: how the US would be if DJT got iced 🔫
 
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FishRain3469

Student
Mar 12, 2025
199
I made it to an AA meeting, was nice to see some of my friends.

I found out that the oil leak on my truck is worse than I thought, not sure what I'm gonna do. Fck.

We have shower / thunderstorm chances for the whole week pretty much, excited about it because they are extremely relaxing and will help the pasture out . 🍄 🍄
 
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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
88
best part: i got drunk at 10:35am and smashed a whole pizza
worst part: i woke up today
random thought: how the US would be if DJT got iced 🔫
what did u drink?
 
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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
86
Best part: my cat is feeling better recovering from an upper respiratory infection. She's been sleeping in her cubby all week and today she finally felt good enough to have the zoomies and get into trouble :)

Worst part: had a bad nightmare this morning

Random thought: if ghosts are real I wanna be one so bad. Existence wouldn't be so bad without a corporeal form
 
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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
88
I made it to an AA meeting, was nice to see some of my friends.

I found out that the oil leak on my truck is worse than I thought, not sure what I'm gonna do. Fck.

We have shower / thunderstorm chances for the whole week pretty much, pretty excited about it.
im proud of u for making it to ur AA meeting. also i love the rain so much i wish it would rain all week where i live
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,706
best part: i got drunk at 10:35am and smashed a whole pizza
worst part: i woke up today
random thought: how the US would be if DJT got iced 🔫
What kinda pizza?
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,706
Also, a good thing:

While waiting for the bus home, I got a box of Timbits. I asked for all powdered jam-filled. Walked over to a bench to wait for my bus and opened the box, there were none of the powdered Timbits... Walked back over to Timmy's and they gave me the stuff I wanted and let me keep the mistake box, so now I have 40 Timbits. I am a happy fat-ass.
 
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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
88
Best part: my cat is feeling better recovering from an upper respiratory infection. She's been sleeping in her cubby all week and today she finally felt good enough to have the zoomies and get into trouble :)

Worst part: had a bad nightmare this morning

Random thought: if ghosts are real I wanna be one so bad. Existence wouldn't be so bad without a corporeal form
im happy to hear that ur cat is doing better! it takes energy to get into mischief. i wouldnt mind being a ghost either. im quite nosy already
Also, a good thing:

While waiting for the bus home, I got a box of Timbits. I asked for all powdered jam-filled. Walked over to a bench to wait for my bus and opened the box, there were none of the powdered Timbits... Walked back over to Timmy's and they gave me the stuff I wanted and let me keep the mistake box, so now I have 40 Timbits. I am a happy fat-ass.
an unlucky mistake turned into a lucky one. not sure what timbits are but they sound like donuts, maybe?
 
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FishRain3469

Student
Mar 12, 2025
199
Thank you, most appreciated. Yeah, the rain is wonderful. Where abouts are you? I'm in TX.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,706
an unlucky mistake turned into a lucky one. not sure what timbits are but they sound like donuts, maybe?
Timbits are donut holes, the brand name that Tim Horton's uses. The mistake box I got are blueberry cheesecake flavored, they're good but I really wanted the powdered strawberry-filled ones.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
75
oh god... i hate those. im debating drinking tonight but i know im gonna feel like shit.
if you feel like shit while sober…might as well feel like shit while drunk😂
 
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yeaimhere13

yeaimhere13

why me?
Sep 14, 2023
88
if you feel like shit while sober…might as well feel like shit while drunk😂
wait ur so right........ thank u
Timbits are donut holes, the brand name that Tim Horton's uses. The mistake box I got are blueberry cheesecake flavored, they're good but I really wanted the powdered strawberry-filled ones.
oh i see. i went to a tim hortons once when i was in buffalo. the coffee was not good (in my opinion) but i remember the donuts were yum. blueberry cheesecake sounds just as good as the powdered strawberry ones
Thank you, most appreciated. Yeah, the rain is wonderful. Where abouts are you? I'm in TX.
i live in florida! it rains a lot here but we get huge thunderstorms that last a day rather than scattered rain
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,330
Let's see ...

Larry (my sun conure) and I started his training regimen today. His previous owner loved him but knew NOTHING of bird behavior or the special needs of exotic birds. For example, while most people think a seed and nut diet is best for them nothing could be further from the truth. They get a MUCH healthier, more balanced diet from pelleted parrot food, along with fresh fruits and veggies (known as a "chop" diet).

Anyway, Larry also does not know how to fly because they kept his wings clipped. Actually, he CAN fly but he has no control because his muscles have atrophied from non-use and he really doesn't know what he is doing so he crashes into EVERYTHING. Poor guy. We are gonna fix that.

So today we started exercising. I hope to be able to harness-train him and by this fall be able to take him outside regularly. I'd LOVE to be able to teach him to free fly outside but I live near a lake and while I am literally "in town" you would be shocked at the amount of wildlife around here, especially birds of prey. He's way too brightly colored for me to be silly enough to think SOMEONE out here wouldn't just snatch up my little rainbow-colored buddy for a quick snack if I let him off-leash.

Uhmmm, my pain levels have been thru the roof lately, which has heightened my suicidal ideation again. Man, I hate it when I feel like this.

And @FishRain3469 :

We have shower / thunderstorm chances for the whole week pretty much, and I am pretty excited bummed about it. 😉 In my defense, it has rained more days out of any givem week than not around here for going on a month now. It is getting REALLY old ... Lol (I'm in OK.)
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,706
oh i see. i went to a tim hortons once when i was in buffalo. the coffee was not good (in my opinion) but i remember the donuts were yum. blueberry cheesecake sounds just as good as the powdered strawberry ones
I'm not a coffee drinker [caffeine can give me panic attacks], but Timmy's baked goods are great.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Member
Jul 27, 2024
75
The best part was having some strawberry ripple ice cream.

The worst part was a sneezing fit that has clogged me up pretty good.

Random thoughts... Hmm. Could god microwave a burrito so hot that he himself could not touch it?
 
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ForsakenEcho

ForsakenEcho

just help me run away
Jan 14, 2024
44
The best part of my day today was being productive at work. I can't always focus 100%, but today I feel like I did my best and really helped my coworkers.

The worst part was feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything related to my move — there's just so much to sort out and so many bills to pay. It's been exhausting.

Random thought: no one has ever actually seen their own face.
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

Without her I'm just a cheap Louis Krages
Feb 3, 2025
494
The best: having a good performance in a very demanding interpretation course I'm enrolled in, I definitely could have a career in this if more opportunities came my way or if I knew how or had the motivation to find them.

The worst: crying my heart out while my mother helped me disentangle my hair, torn by the pain of both remembering and forgetting my ex, the realization of the break-up more painful every day. My mom said she remembered how much I loved my hair and taking care of it and I could only reply I didn't care anymore. I haven't washed my hair in months when I used to have a biweekly routine with fancy imported products.

Random thought: why the fuck do they sell consumer electronics, particularly gaming laptops, that aren't optimized for the end user? Like, why do I have to bother with custom profiles and undervolting and drivers and different game settings when I'm buying a supposedly high-end product and there are so few variables involved? I get that a custom build would require tinkering so a particular game works with that specific combination, but seriously, why couldn't Lenovo do a good job out of the factory with the fucking settings for a laptop when they know exactly what components it has and every product will have the same components?
The best part of my day today was being productive at work. I can't always focus 100%, but today I feel like I did my best and really helped my coworkers.

The worst part was feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything related to my move — there's just so much to sort out and so many bills to pay. It's been exhausting.

Random thought: no one has ever actually seen their own face.
No one has ever actually heard their own voice as well, it's why we sound so different when we hear ourselves in a recording or when we talk with our hands in front of our ears.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Specialist
May 28, 2024
367
Best part of my day? Getting lost in a project.

Worst part of my day? Medication time

Random thought? Are bisexual people more likely to have bipolar disorder?
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,807
Best part of my day: Taking a crap in the morning

Worst part of my day: Any day I have to force myself to shower and clean up some bc I desperately need to go to the grocery store

Random thought: We're all just a slave to our bodies - feed them, shit them, piss them, clean them.
 
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cousinyapper

New Member
Jun 9, 2025
3
Best: finally having the courage to come here and feeling like I've found my community

Worst: unfortunately, when my partner came home from work. I just don't have the energy to mask today and when I don't mask, my depressed energy affects them and I hate when they try really hard to get me out of something I just… can't get out of.

Random thought: can I sustain off only protein bars all day?
 
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FishRain3469

Student
Mar 12, 2025
199
wait ur so right........ thank u

oh i see. i went to a tim hortons once when i was in buffalo. the coffee was not good (in my opinion) but i remember the donuts were yum. blueberry cheesecake sounds just as good as the powdered strawberry ones

i live in florida! it rains a lot here but we get huge thunderstorms that last a day rather than scattered rain


yeaImhere13 - Ahh, badass ! Yeah , that's understandable. I've always wanted to go to FL and chase some storms / hurricanes and maybe even die in the process! Lol. It's the lightning capital of the Nation after all. 🌩

Let's see ...

Larry (my sun conure) and I started his training regimen today. His previous owner loved him but knew NOTHING of bird behavior or the special needs of exotic birds. For example, while most people think a seed and nut diet is best for them nothing could be further from the truth. They get a MUCH healthier, more balanced diet from pelleted parrot food, along with fresh fruits and veggies (known as a "chop" diet).

Anyway, Larry also does not know how to fly because they kept his wings clipped. Actually, he CAN fly but he has no control because his muscles have atrophied from non-use and he really doesn't know what he is doing so he crashes into EVERYTHING. Poor guy. We are gonna fix that.

So today we started exercising. I hope to be able to harness-train him and by this fall be able to take him outside regularly. I'd LOVE to be able to teach him to free fly outside but I live near a lake and while I am literally "in town" you would be shocked at the amount of wildlife around here, especially birds of prey. He's way too brightly colored for me to be silly enough to think SOMEONE out here wouldn't just snatch up my little rainbow-colored buddy for a quick snack if I let him off-leash.

Uhmmm, my pain levels have been thru the roof lately, which has heightened my suicidal ideation again. Man, I hate it when I feel like this.

And @FishRain3469 :

We have shower / thunderstorm chances for the whole week pretty much, and I am pretty excited bummed about it. 😉 In my defense, it has rained more days out of any givem week than not around here for going on a month now. It is getting REALLY old ... Lol (I'm in OK.)


CatLvr - Also badass! Haha, for sure . I certainly can't blame you for that, but we've been in a drought down here so we will take what we can get! I'd Also love to go to OK and chase some damn tornadoes, * OK being the tornado capital of the World * 🌪
 
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Csmith8827

Strength.
Oct 26, 2019
966
tell me the best part of your day, the worst, and a random thought. trying to distract myself
The best part of my day was when I finished my shift and clocked out...or when I had the realization that I'm not at fault for this situation i'm in...it's just a crappy world. The worst was either coming home and having voices attack me or when they started attacking me at the drive-thru and there ufo cars show up. Random thought? I like your profile picture...wheres it from?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,221
Everything about this existence to me is just dreadful, unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake ever again.

I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and I'd never wish for the torturous, futile burden of existence rather all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I just want to never wake ever again, for me only non-existence could ever be positive which is why I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this deeply undesirable existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.
 
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timechained

Student
Apr 15, 2025
179
Best: When I go to sleep.

Worst: Mental health worker thinks his a psychologist and always tries to get me to talk about shit I am not going to talk about to him because his not a psychologist.

Random: I wonder if existence is some beings imagination.
 
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