Teetering on the edge of homelessness

[eternalmelancholy]

If you get support (from state/family/friends?), like access to dry socks, washing machine, place to charge your phone, place to put some stuff, AND if there might be a way out, then think about it. I'd advise to sleep in your car, if that's possible. If you are totally on your own because neither the state, nor your surrounding cares, I feel like it's a very very unhuman society. I am myself thinking about ctb due to homelessness. I am living in a country where there is a little support system, so I am not sure. I also never would have expected to be in a situation where I have to be scared of being homeless. I wonder what pro-lifers say about homelessness: do they say endure it? Pretty heartless.

I am all alone in this world. It sucks knowing you have to figure out everything on your own. It is a lonely feeling for sure. I am just so clueless about surviving. I honestly don't know how I made it this far in life.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this @eternalmelancholy, ive always enjoyed reading your posts and ive always admired that you always keep it real. I've almost been out on the streets a few times, the thought is daunting. It's a cruel world out there.

I really enjoy reading your posts as well. You remind me a lot of myself actually. Reading your stories is like reliving my life from a few years ago. I really hope you find a way to fix your problems. I don't want you to end up like me.

Homelessness is the worst hell. All the extreme tortures hit you at once starvation, dirtiness, cold temperature, loss of hope, no safety. You lose everything most people take for granted shelter, privacy, money , food, safety, shower, electricity, running clean water, refrigerator, available clean food, shower, and so on.

You are right. It is a dehumanizing experience being homeless. My life sucks but I know it can get much worse. I remember losing power one winter for 48 hours. It was like getting set back to the stone ages. You don't realize how much you take modern plumbing, heating, etc for granted.

Homelessness you also lose the ability to ctb to escape no privacy etc. Prison too you can't ctb. so that's the 2 worst hells for me . also a mental hospital you can't ctb but maybe they let you out in a short time but prison they could keep you for years or decades and homelessness you can't get out except if you can ctb but it makes it a million times harder. now i have the golden opportunity to ctb i have to take it.

I don't know what would be worse tbh. I am leaning towards prison being worse. The daily fear of being shanked or raped would be horrifying. I always found your posts to be very insightful and I have to agree. If you miss a good opportunity to ctb, you might not get another chance.

 

[FuneralCry]

This is a horrible, stressful situation. You do not deserve this suffering. Life is so cruel and unfair, it is better to never be born in the first place. I wish you the best.