taking time off

[Renv1o_]

After the death of my stepdad, I've been allowed to delay my year of uni and restart in September- I'm not sure if this was an awful idea on my end.
My girlfriend's family implied that I'll be lazing around for the year and that I should try harder (even after taking me to A&E after a particularly rough attempt.)
Am I wrong to want a break? To just spend a few months with family while I try and get my stupid head together? If I'm honest, I still feel regret that I made it to 2025 at all. I'm still ugly and repulsive and fixated on how everyone thinks of me. I've done as people have asked; applied and attended therapy- And I will continue going, but I don't even know if I'm trying hard enough anymore. I don't know if I want to try.

I'm a waste of space, a failure. I'll be turning 21 this year and I feel I'm still so behind everyone my age.

In my NEET era, once again I don't know how my own family put up with me. I'm a disappointment.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You should take a break when YOU think YOU need it!

You're neither waste of space nor a failure

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[Zaphkiel]

Your girlfriend's family should mind its own business.

 

[SVEN]

Take the time you need, be kind to yourself.

 

[Szarur-abi]

Taking a break in situation like this is justifible, dont think worse of yourself because you took it

I honestly did similar thing, i mean i failed but it was due to shitty situation and took a break from studies afterwards... I felt and still feel similar as you, a complete and utter failure that dissapoints everyone around me ,_, That being said, i matter as well as you despite our shitty feelings, take your time, its okay to take a break and i know its hard but try be kinder to yourself

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I'm a waste of space, a failure. I'll be turning 21 this year and I feel I'm still so behind everyone my age.

Dude, I've had people in their mid-20s and 30s in some of my uni classes. Despite what the dumbasses (usually part of our generation) say, you aren't behind for your age. Everyone is moving at their own pace. If you need a break then just take that break and don't feel guilty for it. Your gf's family can go fuck themselves. They aren't you and thus they don't know what you are going through. Just take your time and try to focus on yourself for now.

 

[Worndown]

Life is not a race. You get to whatever is your destination when YOU get there.

Her family is not the definition of warm and loving. You are here...taking time to get a handle on this is a good idea.

Therapy can help if you let it. You really need to be open with them. Powering through on your own gets you back here looking at method threads. Not the perfect ending if another is possible.